thecheshirecatalice

[thecheshirecatalice]

“A Mirror In A Mirror”

This poem is going to be uncomfortable

It is a mirror in a mirror

For us to face our faces

Face to face

With tragedy

And anguish

If you don’t like that

Step away

And go watch brain rot

Or meditate

If you don’t want

To be disturbed today

I am a mirror

In a mirror

In a mirror

In a mirror

You and I

Are not so different

And I am a narcissistic

Psychopath

So you wouldn’t typically

Think that

But we are near

Identically

The same

In all

But identity

And name

All human

With our brains

Just differently wired

Personalities

And aims

With the same challenge

Of being people

In a world

Of love

And pain

Naturally

Unreasonable

Like an unfair game

Where the rules

Are unwritten

But we follow them

Anyway

Like a path

We never chose

Just go along

Until we crash out

And burn out

And find out

We were all wrong

All along

Without a right

To talk upon

We keep

Preaching

Evil songs

With hollow egos

That ring

Like a gong

Resonating

Radioactive thoughts

Like the fall out

From an atomic bomb

We are toxic

In cause

And effect

Dishonest

Lost in common sense

Confused

By all our nonsense

Without logic

We are walking

With broken legs

On sharp objects

And wondering

Why does life hurt so much

Without

Strong foundations

And guiding concepts

Devoid of reason

Making meaning

Out of instincts

And delusions

Hallucinating

Feelings

And believing

That we are good enough

While we are lacking

Meaning

We just keep speaking

With tongues

Like razors

Cutting

And bleeding

Lying

And stealing

From eachother

Dreaming

Whatever

We believe in

Do you see it

The evil within

The demons

The shadows

On the wall

We are animals

Who grow

Until we don’t

And we just consume

Predators

To the bones

Eating everything

Until we are alone

In an empty reality

Full of nothing

But ego

And feeling

Screaming

Into the void

Hoping

It means something

To all of us

Yourself

And everyone

I am telling you

It does

And so

There remains the question

What is the best thing to do

If we want to love the world

Like a mirror

In a mirror

In a mirror

In a mirror

—Alice D

June 19, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Epic Poetic”

Woah I’m so poetic

I could write an epic

With perfect phonetics

With linguistic

Slap shtick

Fire

Like a matchstick

Sparks up wicks

That set off

Atomic bombs

And the nuclear

Apocalypse

Words

Which end worlds

Like ego death

One with the one

I speak deliverance

Of cosmic wit

Delivered

Like comic hits

Post ironic

I can make logic

Out of nonsense

And you still won’t get it

Because you lack my consciousness

Solipsistic

Talking in circles again

And again

And over

And over again

Can you follow this

Like a white rabbit

Walking the event horizon

Down the black hole

My mind is in

We are an evil people

Who don’t understand

Who we are

Or what to do

With free will

Abusing

False virtue

With sin

Too prideful

And animalistic

To be human

We are demonic

Living hell

With gods

And devils

On our shoulders

And voices

And wolves

In our heads

Telling us what to do

With our illusions

Confusing us

Refusing reason

In favor

Of delusions

In narcissism

We are comfortable

Being sadistic

And cancerous

Like carcinogens

Killing our planet

And eachother

For comfort

And for fun

Immorality

And ignorance

Were bought

And sold

For our convenience

At the store

And the crimes

And criminals

We voted for

Are the reactions

To our actions

Reactions

To reactions

Mirrors

In mirrors

Reflections

Of reflections

Stop

This madness

I call you to action

To think for a minute

The thought

What would I do

If I really loved you

And I will ask you

To extend this

To everyone

And everything

Because

If we do this

Honest

And genuine

I truly believe

We can make

A better world

Alive

With our reflections

—Alice D

June 17, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Pride Lit On Fire”

My pride and I

fight at night

to light fires

inside my mind

Between the sight

Of my life

In the eyes

Of the alive

How do I inspire

When I have a blight

Filled with lies

Without the right

To cry

Over wrong crimes

And lost time

I am left to try

Dying

Or die

Trying

So I will try

Loving

So I might

Make something

Good

With my life

And die

Loving

The world

Into death

With the rest

Of my everything

June 17, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Notes From A Psychopath”

A collection by Alice D

Written on June 16, 2025, from the hours of 12am to 10 am.

——————

“Love Anyway”

I know I know nothing

But I believe in love anyway

Because I want to

———————

“Notes From A Psychopath”

Solipsistically

I dream

Of empathy

And imagine

Humanity

Outside of me

Self aware

While I stare

Into the pool

Of Narcissus

And yet I listen

To the echoes

Around me

Knowing

Personally

It is all

Illusionary

And ever still

I choose to love

With my free will

What I conceive

And believe

But never

Truly see

My dreams

Of humanity

———————

“Ambiguous Vagrant”

I am the ambiguous vagrant

You don’t really know me

And that’s just how I like it

When you ask for my story

I speak like poetry

I tell you a lie

That’s half honest

In self defense

Of how you would look at me

Because I am homeless

So instead

I take up residence

Where my heart is

And play the part

Of the artist

Who dreams

Living is a performance

And life

Is our magnum opus

——————

“Homeless Narcissist”

A homeless narcissist

Is like a casteless king

Paradoxical in essence

It doesn’t make sense

As a logical fallacy

The one who thinks

That they have everything

Yet really has nothing

Is mad you see

And lives

As a living oddity

———————

“Helpless”

To admit I am flawed is easy

I know I am not

Who I want to be

And that is exactly

How I will change me

However

To admit I need help

Is more difficult

It is to say

I cannot take care of myself

It is to recognize

Powerlessness

And accept

Hopelessness

It is a special hell

Like ego death

Ending beginning

Beginning ending

Dangerous

To a narcissist

To admit

I need assistance

Is human

And I don’t like it

Because to ask for help

It to admit

I am not good enough

And cannot change myself

——————

“Trust”

To trust

Is chaos

Yet also

It is to love

And thus

We must trust

In eachother

To bring order

To the greater good

Because without eachother

There is no meaning to love

In the world

Humanity alone

Isn’t even human

But together

We have purpose

And we can make life better

—————-

“Higher Order”

The fact

That I trust you

Is chaos

Of a higher order

Madness

Only human

That I don’t like

To walk through

But I love you

Because you have always

Dreamed of light

And treated me right

Even when you have left

And done me wrong

You have come back

And tried

To do right

By me

And likewise

You have forgiven

My flaws

And problems

And loved me

Nevertheless

Over again

And again

And over

We pass eachother

Our best

You and I

Are human

And alive

Doing

This dance

We call life

Responsible

For the fires

We light

Like stars

In the sky

And still rather

We are people

On the ground

Dreaming

And singing

Meaning

Into the abyss

Of nothing

And becoming

Being

Something

To believe in

And I

Believe in you

For better or worse

We are human

And I will love you

In action

Like writing

And performing

My poetry

In verse

To make love real

And happen

In the universe

————————

“Piece”

To be at one

With the one

Is to be at peace

As a piece

Of the many

To be collected

Within the collective

Called

In the calling

I hear

The spheres singing

Love

Into the universe

And I follow

The order

Of everything

So my life

Is a poetic

Deliverance

Of the one

Echoing love

Into the one

For you

And me

And all of us

Echoing

Love as an action

And good life

Will be the reaction

Echoing

Love

So we can make it happen

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Love Anyway”

I know I know nothing

But I believe in love anyway

Because I want to

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Piece”

To be at one

With the one

Is to be at peace

As a piece

Of the many

To be collected

Within the collective

Called

In the calling

I hear

The spheres singing

Love

Into the universe

And I follow

The order

Of everything

So my life

Is a poetic

Deliverance

Of the one

Echoing love

Into the one

For you

And me

And all of us

Echoing

Love as an action

And good life

Will be the reaction

Echoing

Love

So we can make it happen

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Homeless Narcissist”

A homeless narcissist

Is like a casteless king

Paradoxical in essence

It doesn’t make sense

As a logical fallacy

The one who thinks

That they have everything

Yet really has nothing

Is mad you see

And lives

As a living oddity

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Ambiguous Vagrant”

I am the ambiguous vagrant

You don’t really know me

And that’s just how I like it

When you ask for my story

I speak like poetry

I tell you a lie

That’s half honest

In self defense

Of how you would look at me

Because I am homeless

So instead

I take up residence

Where my heart is

And play the part

Of the artist

Who dreams

Living is a performance

And life

Is our magnum opus

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Helpless”

To admit I am flawed is easy

I know I am not

Who I want to be

And that is exactly

How I will change me

However

To admit I need help

Is more difficult

It is to say

I cannot take care of myself

It is to recognize

Powerlessness

And accept

Hopelessness

It is a special hell

Like ego death

Dangerous

To a narcissist

To admit

I need assistance

Is human

And I don’t like it

Because to ask for help

It to admit

I am not good enough

And cannot change myself

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Trust”

To trust

Is chaos

Yet also

It is to love

And thus

We must trust

In eachother

To bring order

To the greater good

Because without eachother

There is no meaning to love

In the world

Humanity alone

Isn’t even human

But together

We have purpose

And we can make life better

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Higher Order”

The fact

That I trust you

Is chaos

Of a higher order

Madness

Only human

That I don’t like

To walk through

But I love you

Because you have always

Treated me right

Even when you have left

And done me wrong

You have come back

And tried

To to do the right thing

By me

Nevertheless

Over again

And again

And over

We pass eachother

Our best

You and I

Are human

And alive

Doing

This dance

We call life

Responsible

For the fires

Which light

Like stars

In the sky

Rather

We are people

On the ground

Dreaming

Meaning

Into being

Taking

A universe

Of nothing

And conceiving

Something

To believe in

And I believe in you

For better or worse

And I will love you

In action

Like writing

And performing

My poetry

In verse

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Notes From A Psychopath”

Solipsistically

I dream

Of empathy

And imagine

Humanity

Outside of me

Self aware

While I stare

Into the pool

Of Narcissus

And yet I listen

To the echoes

Around me

Knowing

Personally

It is all

Illusionary

And ever still

I choose to love

With my free will

What I conceive

And believe

But never

Truly see

My dreams

Of humanity

—Alice D

June 16, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“NeuwroadIverse”

Watch me run

On a run on a run

Down the new road I verse

The thought I caught is sticking on

So see a path iconic

Sonar sadistic

Go sea deep

A dream page dreamed

With psycho math wit

I schism phonetics

And site caustic lit

Like a fired up maniac

dissed so see a debt then

With ego and action

Ommm

Met a date on acid

Her name was Alice

D

Like LS

D

and she said to me

Dream

And ask again

What do you see

Watch me run

On a run on a run

Neurodiverse

Down the new road I verse

Autistic

The thought I caught is sticking on

Sociopathic

So see a path iconic

Narcissistic

Sonar sadistic

OCD

Go sea deep

ADHD

A dream page dreamed

Psychopathic

With psycho math wit

Schizophrenic

I schism phonetics

Psychotic

And site caustic lit

Pyromaniac

Like a fired up maniac

Dissociation

dissed so see a debt then

With ego and action

Ommm

Meditate

Met a date on acid

Her name was Alice

D

Like LS

D

and she said to me

Dream

And ask again

What do you see

—Alice D

June 11, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Ego Killer Ego”

Identity

On acid

Alice D

Like LSD

An ego killer

For an ego

Of psychedelia

Mind manifesting idea

Tripping

On the experience

Of sense sensing sense

Qualia

Observing itself

As a one

Within the one

Of the universe

A verse in the poem

A stroke on the canvas

A note in the song

A piece

Of the infinite

Can you hear it

The harmony

The spheres are singing

The death of ego

Ommmmmmmm

—Alice D

June 12, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“The Unaware”

Do the unaware

Who do not care

To know the way

Of reason and truth

Have a right

To preach

About life

And good

And evil

And free will

It seems not

Rather

They have a wrong

The consequence

Of a lack

Of consciousness

It is the affect

Of a narcissist

Delusional

With self importance

How then

Can you speak of purpose

When you don’t understand

Your place

In the universe

It’s absurdist

When you don’t know

Sense from nonsense

That you would think

You should do something

Your ego

Deserves the death sentence

How do you exist

And the ultimate question

What should you do

With your awareness

Until you answer this

Shut the fuck up

And don’t say shit

—Alice D

June 11, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Grow Wings”

You once asked what I thought

“One day I am gonna grow wings”

Was supposed to mean

Today I will be answering

It is a prayer to be free

I know it is

Because that same hymn lives inside me

A dream

Of flying

Escaping

Dying

Living

A dream of something

Other than the crushing nothingness

You tried to love me in

I am going to grow wings now

So I can be human

—Alice D

June 4, 2025

[thecheshirecatalice]

“Singing Dreams”

Howling at the moon

Like a pack

With wool fitted over

The sorrow

Of being wolves

With music

For the soul

Hurting

As a whole

We sing

What we dream

Into the void

To warm

The cold

Inspired

Heat

Like fire

And desire

A choir

Of belief

Echoing

Like an empire

Realizing it

Or not

Writing history

Everybody

A piece

Of being

In everything

Drinking in feeling

And bleeding reason

Making meaning

Manifesting reality

We humanity

Are akin to divinity

Weaving our stories

Into the fabric of destiny

Let the records sing

The color of our being

Like a tapestry

That reads

Dream

—Alice D

June 3, 2025