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Vent about source (again) and relationships -Icarus G.

Apparently all of my source aquaintances liked me. Even worse I can imagine myself with each of them. Like vividly. I could've been with any of them and been happy. But I wasn't allowed to even have friends because they would want to come over or hang out outside of school. I couldn't do that.

He was the only one I was able to hang out with after school and that's just because he caught me.

I just want friends here. Not even a partner, I just want friends.

No one's talked to me here though or tried to get to know me except for two people in my system.

Apparently there are plenty of people in our partner systems but no one has even attempted to talk to me.

I just want connections now that I can finally have them and I've been trying to make them, but no one seems interested.

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Vent about falling for source partner -Icarus G.

I literally never even met him. Axl said the brain specifically doesn't want to introject him. So I'm sitting here reading about my life and falling for every word about him. Making up scenarios in my head about someone that will never exist here.

Yes I'm happy that I'm here and don't have to do that bullshit for my dad anymore, but I wish I could've experienced meeting him first.

Or do I?

I guess it's better that I never met him because I don't know what being near him feels like. I don't know what he smells like, I don't know what his touch feels like, I don't know what his voice sounds like, I don't even fully know what he looks like. I don't know what it's like to be near him, so I can't miss him.

I've never met him and I don't know that I want to, but it still feels like shit that I didn't get to.

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Us literally last night

Me when my brain decides it needs a Hermes (specifically Epic: the Musical's version of Hermes)

BRO IS A LITERAL GOD AND HE'S DRESSING ME UP AND ACTING ALL CUNTY LIKE BRO GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE- (lovingly)

- 🌸

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Plurality quote of the day:

"I need to get Dude and Fang on a date" -Carlos

(They're both sassy talking literal dogs insys)

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"let that sink in"

"DO NOT INTROJECT THE SINK"

- @the-fermi-system

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Us as we're listening to Zayn's source music right now, and that's usually one of his fts but they're nowhere in sight... but if we play Liam's song Midnight then he's here in a heartbeat /lh

you know, i don't hate that a lot of our alters have very common, frequently encountered front triggers. the thing that DOES annoy me about them is how fucking inconsistent they are?? i've been able to basically listen to the entirety of hamilton like 3 times over now but i passively commented on the musical (in-sys) and motherfucker comes to front like "you rang?" NO I DIDN'T I HAD A THOUGHT ABOUT YOUR EXISTANCE. I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO YOUR SOURCE NON-STOP (pun intended) FOR A WHILE NOW. YOU'VE BEEN HERE FOR LIKE 2 MONTHS. YOU KNOW HOW THIS SYSTEM WORKS-

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Us with our ex psys' Jason Todds (there were like 12 of them and they all had different nicknames)

Do you know how hard it is to find nicknames for the name Jason??? One was literally just 'Todd.'

fictive heavy culture is having duplicates of a source and trying to come up with new nicknames for each one and it just turns into a game. how in the world do we have 7 different nicknames for donatello? we have no idea.

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Us with Greek Mythology and our factives from bands

being a system and also being autistic is super funny because like you can so clearly tell what a system's special interest is by looking at how many fictives from that source they have

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Had deja reve back to before I formed and before we even knew about my source and I was talking about my source to a customer and realized I'm me and talking about my source.... shit fuckin weird

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*looks at a cool image / artwork of a character*

"This is cool"

*10 minutes later*

"Why are you in my head"

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Oh, so when they get spoken to by a god in their head they're a "prophet" and "will lead us to salvation," but when I get spoken to by a god in my head I have "DID" and "should go to therapy."

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hiya. For a bit I’ve been wanting to form a system. I’ve been lonely and I feel like I need help running this body. do you have some tips for trying to form one? i hope I didn’t come off wrong here.

Hello! I have some resources for you. (Now that im on my laptop this is SO much easier to link)

Soulbonding doc with abunch of links! A TulpasForDummies doc with steps and instructions + methods! Another Tulpa Forming 101 doc! A doc FULL of abunch of Tulpa stuff and guides. Ive used these myself before! -Anddy

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i think plurality needs like an upgrade where i can take pictures in headspace and upload them to my actual phone here, so I can show people what the duck everything looks like without having to type it all out.

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I present to you: the Endo Dragon

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PLURAL MEME THEME: Headmate who loves the body + headmate who doesn't

“I just think we're beautiful,” says Adlie, standing solemnly in the rain with a tiny plastic news mic, staring dreamily off into the middle distance. “The way the light hits our face? The way our laugh sounds when it breaks? It's home, yk?”

Cut to: Kai, 30 feet away, absolutely feral. “WHY DO WE LOOK LIKE THIS. WHO CHOSE THIS MODEL. I’M SUPPOSED TO BE A 6’2 ELF PRINCE. DO YOU HEAR ME?”

Camera pans to Adlie again, nodding gently, a single raindrop tracing her cheek like a poetic tear. “Let him cook.”

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please take a moment to appreciate the systems and plurals of color in our community, they deserve it!

and if you're a system or plural of color reading this? be sure to do some self care!

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Indirectly but heavily directed because ive been told this man is extremely oblivious

My type is really confident women and men who:

• are nerdy

• are dorks

• are irish

• are walking encyclopedias

• are extremely opinionated

• hate elon musk

• hate rich people in general

• are comedians

• are a Dom DM

• don't know what a Rosette Spoonbill is

• have green eyes

• are very serious and don't give any bits in escape rooms

• have a love/hate relationship with game show hosts' minds

• just penguin?

• not angry as long as it's part of a game where they win if their heartrate doesn't go 20 above resting

• can Make Some Noise™️

• really good actors

• regularly deliver monologues

• fairly tall but shorter than Grant

If you're this kind of guy, open your eyes please /lh