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Man these last 5 years have really been a rollercoaster through hell and back.

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A cardigan I made 🤍

It’s now finished. I will post a pic when I have a good photo.

Now working on another one, and a blanket for my dad for his birthday!

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It’s been a hot minute since I’ve actually posted here but here it’s is. Since the last time I posted slots of shit has happened in my life good bad and just fucking awful. I will spare you my pain until a different time. But these photos were taken this summer at bike time “rebel road”… it was a good time for sure in the second photo is me and my best friend Morgan “morgi” she is the best wouldn’t trade her for anything 🩶

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Ain’t posted here in a long time but life didn’t go the way it was supposed to.

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Feeling super pregnant these days 💙🍼

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Late Halloween post but we went to a Halloween party on Saturday and I was Winnie the Pooh and little man is the honey 💛🍯 I can’t believe I’m in my third trimester already.

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Lol he hates pictures but I love all the ones I get with him ☺️

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My boyfriend got me jack skellington today from build a bear I didn’t like the texture of his actual outfit so I picked this shirt and I feel like it’s more fitting 🖤

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I am beyond in love with you. You’re there for me always and you never let me down. Your my 99% when I’m only 1% and I love you for everything you do for me. I’m so happy I found you when I did even though I wasn’t actually looking. You’re amazing you’re my amazing man 💙

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I try to love on you and stay awake with you and I even put my phone down and you just sit there and play a game on your phone. Do you even love me anymore? Are we still together because we are now bringing a child into this world together? I’m sick and tired of being treated like a child, you don’t like that I don’t eat the leftovers because I don’t feel good the next day and then I tell you not to take them to work because I will eat them and I tell you not to because I don’t want you to be mad that you’re eating them and I didn’t because it’s what I wanted at that time. Then I don’t tell you things when I’m upset and you’re the reason I’m upset you get mad and pressure me into talking about things that I don’t want to talk about because you raise your voice at me and when I tell you to quit yelling at me you just say “ I’m not yelling” or “ you raised your voice first” when sometimes I don’t raise my voice first and I just feel like sometimes this isn’t what I want but I have no where to go and now we have a child together and everything is just so difficult. I love you but I wish things were like they were in the beginning we were so in love and happy and it just doesn’t seem like that anymore. I feel like a piece of shit. From now on I’m going to just eat what I get and make myself sick or just give it to you and I’ll just go to places with my friends so me and you can sit at home all the time and when you suggest that we go do something I will get right up and go do it with you and not complain. I just feel like everything is falling apart and it really sucks. My depression is horrible right now and I just don’t want to talk to anybody because what’s the point nothing works for me anymore I just have to keep myself alive for everyone around me to keep everyone happy.

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Hims a goofy boy 💙

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Happy 84th birthday in heaven Grandpa!! 💙

I hope it was amazing for you up there today, we all love and miss you down here. I wish you would have been here celebrating your birthday with us but you wouldn’t want to be apart of this world we are dealing with you would have hated it. I miss you I wish I was able to hug you today and wish a you a happy birthday🤍 I love you and I miss you.

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I'm probably gonna end up getting a service dog for my tics and anxiety.

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My hemi girl. I miss you so much baby. I’m glad that even though I haven’t been able to spend the last year with you but I got to spend sometime with you before we had to make the hard choice of putting you down. It was so hard. I miss you babygirl. 08.18.2020 💕

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Miss kitty 💜

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I really do love you endlessly. 💙