thelifeofweirdo

[thelifeofweirdo]

so

first things first - I FINALLY got rid of my crush (or I am at the very end of this process shdhshs)

I stopped checking his social media, I simply started ignoring his existence and... it helps, it gets better

and plus I guess he is now having a girlfriend so I am only happy for him! seriously, I really do! he was practically always by himself and now he has a company! and as far as I can see the girl is kinda nice, sooo good luck to them!

but honestly I tried looking for a new person to have a crush on shahhajshs

and I haven’t found anyone who is worth my attention (badass mode on) so I am not only single but also don’t have a crush🤭 living my best life tbh💅🏼💅🏼💅🏼

it is only 3 months left till my graduation so I think it’s nice to clean my mind from all those distracting things at the moment cause you know exaaams/graduation/all that jazz...

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wow, guess who’s back🤭🤭🤭

it has been awhile since I posted but I guess I have some things to say at the moment :)

and LOL I have just finished reading my previous posts and I WAS SO DUMB LIKE AGSBABDJAHSK

but anyways

back again

WEIRDO *OG shady* IS BACK

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jeez

okay, so I went shopping with my friend today and I have met SO many rude and disrespectful people that I am just SHOOKETH

I cannot even remember all cases but the top3 weirdest are:

3rd place: the sellers/assistants at makeup shop. This is a regular shop with all kinds of brands (it is kinda like Sephora but in Russia and there are both luxury and mass market stuff (btw we have Sephora in Russia too - extra useless info)) and the assistants there ALWAYS look down on you. Like even if you can afford luxurious brands but you don’t wear Gucci flip flops, Louis Vuitton bag and fur instead of a coat you will be treated like shit unless they will see how much money you have in your wallet. Disguising. But today me and my friend went to NYX first and idk about other countries but in Russia NYX is a pretty expensive brand (not TOO expensive but not everyone can afford it) and I bought myself a lipstick and they gave me their bag with the brand name on it. SO we went to this shop after that and the assistants were looking at us like shit at first and haven’t said ANYTHING when we entered. So there was no “hello” or “may I help you?” + I want to add: they LOOKED at us and still were silent. The etiquette is required for this job as far as I know. BUT THE FUN PART IS - when they saw my friend’s bag from a shoe shop (she bought herself heels) and my NYX bag they IMMEDIATELY SAID HELLO! Like we were already half way through the hall in the shop AND ONLY AFTER THEY SAW OUT BAGS THEY DID SOMETHING LIKE— I hate such people.

2nd place goes to... the guard guy in NYX shop. So I was standing near lipsticks and was swatching them on my hand. I tried to find the perfect color so I went crazy and half of my hand was in swatches. This guard was standing by my right hand and as far as I understood from my friend’s story, he was watching me EVERY TIME I swatched a lipstick on my hand. HE WAS LITERALLY THINKING I WOULD STEAL ANYTHING NEAR THE GUARD (HIM) LIKE DUDE WHAT THE FUCK AM I THAT STUPID? MAYBE YOU’D BETTET CHECK ON SOMEBODY ELSE?? THERE IS LIKE A WHOLE SHOP HERE! I would understand if he would check on me from time to time but he was ONLY STARING AT ME. And plus he farted so that’s why my friend went away from the place where we were both previously standing. Ew.

And the 1st place aka gold medal goes to....... the assistant at the shoe shop. I saw some cool sneakers and wanted to try them on so I asked for the pair of my size (8,5 in US) and they told me that practically all sneakers are on small feet so if the size is 7 it is actually size 6. But they searched for the largest size and gave me size 9. It was all nice but my fingers were sort of uncomfortable. The assistant told me that I can try wearing SNEAKERS with NYLON socks (I was wearing my regular cotton socks which I always wear with sneakers). I told her that I am not gonna wear sneakers with nylon socks because why the heck would I? She was like: well, they will stretch later (sneakers). So I asked them if they had a larger size but they sad 9 was the largest so I said I would not buy them. Then this assists told me they had more sneakers and told me to take a look. So I went there with THIS assistant. I was looking at the pair of sneakers, then I took the pair I liked to simply feel the texture and stuff and all of a sudden this AMAZING assistant practically yells: “ONLY IN SMALL SIZES” I was like.. “well maybe you have something in larger sizes?” she showed me some ugly pairs which can be in larger sizes and I was like “okay, thank you” and then this hoe is like : “We don’t have shoes for large feet” with that ugly smile like :) ... WELL BAD FOR YOU THEN CAUSE IF !NOTMAL! 8,5 IS FUCKING LARGE FOR YOU THEN I DONT EVEN KNOW- oh, I know... go fuck your self stupid hoe :)

After today I have even more disgust for rude shop assistants and guards in shops.

Don’t get me wrong - there are LOTS AND LOTS of super cool and nice assistants who can even make your mood for the day! And I really appreciate those people and hope their hard work and their nice attitude to others will be given them back in something amazing!

And to the stOOpid hOeS - karma is a bitch, so...

okay, I’m done, thanks for coming to my TedTalk.

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NO IDEA WHY BUT I’VE BEEN LAUGHING FOR THREE DAYS ALREADY BECAUSE OF THIS VIDEO I’M-

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in addition to my previous post

you know that just makes me wanna come back to school with even more ‘i dont fucking care yall stupid hoes’ attitude and just slay this SENIOR YEAR IN HIGH SCHOOL THANK GOD I’LL NEVER MEET THOSE PEOPLE AGAIN IN MY LIFE

or at least won’t see them every single day which is also a good thing

so get ready, enjoy the ride

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just fun facts

LOOOOVE ITTTT when “popular” girls from my school ignore my new posts on purpose although there is NO conflict, there are NO hard feelings but that just happens

and a note: they like my best friends’s posts even though we post them at the SAME TIME

i’m just laughing at their stupid faces with all the air i have in my lungs

like... can you say it in my FACE that you don’t like me??? is it that hard or??

anyways, fuck them all

BYE BITCHES

[thelifeofweirdo]

okay, maybe i get smarter (questionable)

but i finally understood one thing - not a single guy deserves making a girl cry because of him.

and instead of crying rivers over my one-sided *already former* crush i’d better take time for myself and for improving and simply becoming a better person :)

for example today i was drawing (which is my hobby) while drinking my favorite green tea and enjoying the view from my window

and it was just the best feeling. seriously.

guess life is again colourful and amazing! and i hope it will always be like that <3

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the feeling when all your friends are so done with you

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do you ever feel...

beingleftallaloneandfeellikeyouaretheonlyonewhocares?

because I do.

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interesting...

every time I write a depressin post on tumblr something opposite happens and it should change my mood for the better.

but it doesn’t.

update:

oh, they actually have asked one question about me and just changed the topic to their own problem.

haha.

funny.

[thelifeofweirdo]

back at it again.

okay, so I am back with my thoughts and stories

sadly it is not that optimistic

sometimes I really feel like a fourth wheel when I am with my friend. I mean we have a group of four girls and we are studying at the same school and in the same class.

being abandoned in a group of four is kinda hard, huh?

well I am a really good example. I don’t want to sound egoistic and awfully pessimistic but I am facing some serious (for my age) problems. I have become moody and my mood is often changes for the bad.

I feel something wrong with everything. friends, family, hobbies. I believe that it is somehow connected with mental issues.

I feel like I am not being myself with the people who I thought are my closest friends. even if I have a bad mood I put a forced smile on my face and crack some jokes like there is nothing really happening because my ‘friends’ are so used to it as “she is always in a good mood, always ready to help, to crack a joke, she can’t have any problems, duh”. it makes me sad even more.

it feels like a pink prism or a mask when I am with them but I become a different person when I am at home. sometimes I can simply close the door, go to my room and cry. sometimes I do not even know why.

I am really loyal and I really care about my friends and our friendship. but sometimes it feels like I am the only one who cares. it is awfully hard for me to let people go but sometimes I do have these thoughts.

maybe it’s time to change?

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am i wrong?

ok, I am truly confused.

my friends are trying to prove me that me and my crush will be a couple in the future (which is totally absurd to me as he doesn’t even know my name! yeah, even name!)

and from one side I feel sad and want to end trying on our “relationships”, but I am also trying to stay positive as I believe that time will show us everything and will put everything to places they actually belong.

just thoughts, sorry for that.

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for me one of the best things in the world is when your best friend can’t stop smiling ‘cause you two have just passed by her crush and those 3 seconds make her mood for the whole day

i just love seeing my friends happy ~

[thelifeofweirdo]

little shit a.k.a me is back!

i know that no one is actually following my blog but i’m happy to announce that i’m finally back to tumblr!

MORE AWKWARD STORIES!!!