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[thelilacdews]

𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐁𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐌𝐲 𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫

Welcome to twenty-five love. We've hit 1/4th of a century. Feels unreal right!?

*cue the birthday song!*

IDK why twenty-five always reminds me of vmin, they are forever twenty-five to me. We share the same birth year like vmin, bonus that we also share the same month and date! Like vmin we've had funny petty arguments and been each other's shoulders too. Can we live as forever twenty-five like vmin too? I'm curious how this year is going to treat us.

Yanoe what I sometimes wonder?? Who is the Tae and who is the Jimin among us. You tell me! But whatever it'd be, I'm just happy that we have each other.

My love, you don't even know how amazing it feels seeing you being a busy body, trying to figure your life out and just doing your best. It feels like a relief seeing you even more happy and positive these days. May you adorn that beautiful smile of yours every day from now on, may the thorns on your way gets replaced by flower petals.

I want you to sing, "flower fields is where I'm at!!" with the biggest smile on your face.

Since the beginning of my job life, I've felt how precious the random mundane things were. Being able to peacefully eat, take a long shower, watch tv, going out randomly, cooking stuffs I love, eating something delicious, spending an entire night watching dramas, chatting away with you at the weirdest hours, talking about the random-est things ever. I know we both are busy, I can't tell about mine but I hope life gets a little easier for you. Enjoy the mundane things in life offers every day. That's what I want to wish you this birthday, that you get to enjoy the mundane things in life, that are probably not super amazing but definitely special and precious. I want to enjoy reading fics and watching dramas with you like before. May we get to do that soon!

Can’t you see the take two Letters I didn’t send to you My youth that is with you Take my hand now!

Can we call it our version of Chapter-2? After BTS chapter-2 has been feeling like something positive. I also feel the way we have evolved and been through stuffs yet sticking together is something I feel really proud of. May this chapter-2 be thriving hard!

I've always said this and I'll do it again, that I'm glad to be able to celebrate this thing that we have only among the two of us. So precious and so beautiful. We've created beautiful memories for our Youth that I believe we both will cherish forever.

Last but not the least! I know I keep saying this, but I REALLY REALLY WISHED I could do much more. I know I could if time permitted but alas! Since I really couldn't prepare much because of my crazy schedule, I'm sending this not-so-little Playlist that I curated for you with my favorite non-bts songs.

When I say songs have been my only companion when I felt lonely during my duty times at odd nights, it truly did! I discovered new songs, discovered old songs in a new way, fell in love with some and got obsessed with some to a sickening level. It has 70 tracks, had to keep the 7 there. At first I had thought of 21 but bruh there are too many songs, hehe.

I've heard this Playlist myself while working. I hope you might also discover some new songs to jam to through this Playlist.

I just made this while thinking what else can I share about myself other than what I did, so made this one since it's been a good portion of my life last few months. IDK if you'll enjoy or not but I hope you find your one new favorite song among these. ❤️🎶

Until the next one!

happy birthday love! 🤍

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

I like it I'm twenty-five

You're so beautiful that your flower will bloom You're always loved Palette, diaries, times I was asleep...

I like it I'm twenty five I know you like me Ooh I got this (I got this) I'm truly fine I think I know a little bit about myself now (Still have a lot to say)

Back when I was 23 and heard twenty-three by IU, I felt so heard. Now, I'm turning 25, spending last days as 24, the lyrics "I think I know a little bit about myself now (Still have a lot to say)" feels familiar too. I really wish to know more about myself. I've been waiting to share this song since when I was 23 coz that's when I heard the song first.

She's such a genius no!? Indeed, a QWEEN!

There's still a day left right? I'm already celebrating being 25 haha. Last day as 24. This one feels sad to write down but....

1 day to go……. 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

Stability in life is something I dearly wish for now in life. It's been crazy for so many years now that I just wish life to be somewhat stable so that I can take a breather for at least a day.

I pray we both reach a stability in life. Coming to this age I feel the need of it even more.

менің махаббатым, Бариш

make a wish, dearest! @thelilacdews

often, I heard from my peers that 11:11 is considered Angel's number. one must wish for something when the clock strikes 11:11 in the morning and night. so, I've captured 11:11pm for you. I hope whatever you wish for comes true!

ah, four days to go, baby! just four days to go! oh my god!

— yours, Teeeeee!

[thelilacdews]

Gifting yourself is such an amazing gesture we can do to ourselves.

I remember gifting myself a beautiful pair of earrings back in 2017, that was my first birthday gift to myself. Since then I've tried to do at least something to make myself feel special.

I think freeing yourself off from a boundary or resistance is such a beautiful idea too. I think we need to practice that more. I still don't have enough courage to reach that point yet but small steps it is! I'm trying more everyday. I hope I can do better in future. ❤️❤️

મારો પ્રેમ, બારિશ

good morning, my baby! @thelilacdews 🤍💜

last night, as I was wrapping up my work, a thought struck me.

usually, we receive gifts on our birthday. have we ever gifted ourselves on our b'day? what if we gift ourselves something? it can be anything — from an actual gift to a boundary or a resistance that you wish to set yourself free from. it can be ANYTHING!

This makes our b'day more meaningful, I believe. We choose to do something for ourselves. We choose us. You choose you. I choose me.

Have thought of any gift you will want to gift your 25 y/o?

3 days to go, my beloved! ☀️🌟💕

— yours, Tee!

[thelilacdews]

Morning Pretty Soul! It's already the 2nd of the last days of moonbirthday. As much sad I feel about it, I'm equally delighted that we could pull this off for another year.

*pats our backs*

I didn't imagine July to be the busiest month I spend. So many things were going on at the same time. I wished to do so much more but time and situation never favors. I hope I can execute them at least someday.

For now, that's me sending kisses your way~

I will forever cherish I the memories we've made in these past 20 days. We've kept this up for 7 years now. These messages have been such a strength to me on tough days as I go through our messages from way back few years ago and smile at them.

I thank that beautiful hour and the thought that ignited this tradition. I'm glad we could do this and make this our strength during tough days. I Hope we can keep this on for years to come.

2 day to go……. 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

"moonchild"

I call you moonchild We are the children of the moon breathing the cold air of dawn Yes we’re livin and dyin, at the same time But, for now, you can open your eyes Because just like some movie, just like some line, the whole world is blue under the moonlight

When the days feel hard and my heart feels heavy, I always remind myself to listen to mono. It just calms me down. The word moonchild has stuck with me for life, it gives me comfort. Although the verse isn't from mono but it's sung by Joon and the lines "Yes we’re livin and dyin, at the same time" just hits me super hard. I'm actually feeling a good amount of blue today, it's been a rough one.... But nights always calm me down, indeed a moonchild!

I didn't intend to make it a whole Namjoon appreciation post lol but it just ended up that way. Well since it's a wish to you, who is a Namjoon bias, it's valid right?

I want both you and joonie in front of me giving me words of courage and strength, it feels heavy and hard. Why is life so unfair? That you both are away from me :(

3 days to go……. 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

Hello Pretty Lady!

Ahh is this really it?? 4 days left?? Time really swooosshheeddd.. hehe.

The past week has been super crazy. I've been wanting to cook and eat delish foods, cooking is also a task yanoe, you cook for 3 hours and the meal just finishes in 3 minutes, WHAT A SCAM!!!

Today I'm back with another recipe!! We'll be having it today so I'm writing down the recipe hehe..

It's চটপটি (Côṭpôṭi), basically a street food but we make this at home too.

I'll be sharing a video too since writing down is pretty hard, and videos are always easy to follow. Here we get the spice blend in packaged form, but you can make that too.

The steps are pretty easy,

boil white chickpeas with salt and a little turmeric till cooked through. Keep the water, that'll be needed. Boil some eggs and potatoes as well.

I'm sure yall know about Meethi Chutney, the one that is used in pani puri sometimes and made with tamarind, our tamarind water is similar but spicier and watery in consistency. The video has it all.

Watch the video for the spice mix, add that to the boiled chickpeas, add shredded egg and potatoes to it. Then mix. Add the tamarind water too.

Adjust your spice level accordingly, add some thinly sliced onions and chillies if you like. Add crushed papad to it. And done!

I hope you get to eat it, making this thing is like a project on hand hehe. But so worth it! I like to add a bit of sweetened yogurt to it sometimes it tastes amazing to me.

That's how this bowl of heaven looks like. I hope you get to make it someday.

4 days to go……. 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

Yanoe I absolutely love this song, that I even had organized a multicouple collab on it years ago. Might watch it today to revive my dead editor. Sing it gurl, Will keep it safe forever! The days are going way too fast no?? 5 days whattttt!!!!???

Mín kæra, Barish

Coz of Seven, a song has been stuck in my head. So, I'd like to dedicate that song to you!

Main koi aesa geet gaoon Ke aarzoo jagaoon Main koi aesa geet gaoon Ke aarzoo jagaoon Agar tum kaho

Tum ko bulaoon, ye palkein bichaoon Kadam tum jahan-jahan rakho Zameen ko aasman banoo, sitaroon se sajaoon Agar tum kaho Main koi aisa geet gaoon Ke aarzoo jagaoon Agar tum kaho

Main titliyoon ke peeche bhagoon Main jugnuoon ke peeche jaoon Ye rang hai, wo roshni hai Tumhare paas dono laoon Jitni khushbooien, baag mein milein Haan, jitni khushbooien, baag mein milein Main laoon wahan pe, ke tum ho jahan Jahan pe ek pal bhi thairoon, main gulsitaan banaoon Aga tum kaho Main koi aisa geet gaoon Ke aarzoo jagaoon Agar tum kaho

Agar kaho to main sunaoon Tumhe haseen kahaniyaan Sunoogi kya meri zubani Tum ek paari ki dastaan Ya main karoon Tumse baiyaan Ya main karoon Tumse baiyaan Ke raja se rani Mili thi kahan Kahaniyoon ke nagar mein Tumhe le ke jaoon Agar tum kaho

Tum ko bulaoon, ye palkein bichaoon Kadam tum jahan-jahan rakho Zameen ko aasman banoo, sitaron se sajaoon Agar tum kaho

Main koi aisa geet gaoon Ke aarzoo jagaoon Agar tum kaho Haan, agar tum kaho La la la la la Um hmm hmm hmm hmm

Candidly speaking, I want to sing this song to you. Maybe I'll try attempting it when I actually become good at singing. This will be another surprise, hehe!

Five days to go, my love! @thelilacdews

— yours, Teeee!

[thelilacdews]

I watched the performance video today and omg boi calm down my heart is fragile. I discovered some more new things about the explicit version today and jaw dropped again.

And yes that thing does sound like how a baby would pronounce Jeon Jungkook > _ < He's just so baby coded but so masculine at the same time he confuses my heart and mind both.

ti dungdungngok, ni Barish

it's already 15th July! less than six days to go for our b'day. @thelilacdews 🍃

honestly, I’m glad that the wretched 24th year is coming to an end. and I'm feeling postive about our 25. as Yoongi said, ‘Future is gonna be okay!’

i don't know how “dungdungngok” is pronounced, but the spelling reminds me of Jeon Jungkook. ah, the man... he decided to set our hearts on fire and act so cutely with his round boba eyes!

he's so apna to us. I can't even imagine how whipped Bangtan must be of Jungkook. like they can't just help but adore him.

today was a bit tiring day for me. I fell sick yet again. here, the weather has been drastically changing from heavy rain to intense heat, and my body couldn't cope up with the drastic changes. I fell sick. the entire day went in a daze.

nonetheless, none of this stopped me from watching Jungkook's SEVEN promotion content. the performance video was so sexy! what a gorgeous man.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

we're gonna turn 25 babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

woohoooooooo!

see you tomorrow,

— yours, Teeeeeee!

[thelilacdews]

YES MY GIRL!! Go get dressed up, do some makeup even when your world is crumbling, it gives mental satisfaction. "I'm a mess, in distress, but still the best dressed" is the way to go!! *Sneaking in the song so you listen coz she's a bop!!*

TBH I don't really have any plans, I wonder if I had even remembered my birthday if we didn't celebrate moonbirthday coz that's what life has come to. Good part is I don't have office that day so I can relax, that's the only good part I guess?

But you girl!! get some balloons, make some DIY happy birthday and decorate that favorite corner of your room, make yourself feel special! You deserve it.

драга моја, Бариш

today will go down in the history of our celebration as the best day ever! I'm never ever going to forget today. all thanks to Jeon Jungkook.

July 14th, 2023 — you're fucking rockstar!

ah, my baby, how are you feeling after seeing and listening to "Seven!"? the day is almost nearing its end, and I'm feeling high. I've not grounded myself, yet.

we've exactly seven left for our b'day!

compared to the past years, this year has been a lot special. the vibe of our celebration is different. don't you feel it too?

and, Barish, thanks to you that I connected with a piece of childhood that was lost with time and tragedy. I realized how much I truly love make-up and fashion. seeing you dolling up for every occasion reminded me of my childhood. I don't remember how and when I stopped taking care of myself.

anyway, I want to appreacite and adora how much you take care of yourself despite everything that happened in your life. never ever giving up on your happiness is the best trait you possess, Barish. you held onto it tightly as much as you can even at the pinnacle of the storm. you're truly inspiring. I just love seeing you happy and being dolled up. you're so pretty!

ah, I wonder what you've planned for the b'day! I'm curious!

let's get for a seven, bestiee! @thelilacdews 🌟💜

[thelilacdews]

Ohhh.... well..... wow.... that was, amazing, been ages thirsting over bangtan cuz they keep making me sad :) And oh boy What Was Even Seven!! *mind fucking blow*

I lack proper words to express my emtions tbh. I laughed at the humor of the MV, Han So Hee was so good! Jungkook just looked way too good oh my gawd!! May he keeps serving.

6/7 done... I wonder what Tae is cooking!

người thân yêu nhất của tôi, Barish

*crack knuckles*

*crackles like an evil witch*

oh dearest, tomorrow, Jungkook will set the world on fire, especially our hearts. are we going to survive the Seven MV? God only knows! but before that happens, I decided to set your heart on fire.

aren't you curious?

darling, i've curated the finest piece of art! have fun!!

eight days to go, dearest! @thelilacdews

— yours, Teeeee!

[thelilacdews]

Fried fish with rice and daal with squeezed lemon is literally the food I want to eat as my last meal like I love fried fish with rice like crazy! And yeah, they also bring out some humor in their sad and heavy songs lol, Remember, she dropped the cheesecake??

mein Liebster, Barish

this is the German translation of "my dearest." in my head, I pronounced Liebster as Leeb-ster, which reminded me of Lobster.

Lobster reminded me of...

I wanna be a rap star lobster I wanna be the top I wanna be a rockstar I want it all mine I wanna be rich I wanna be the king I wanna go win I wanna be

bangtan's humour is elite. they make every emotional song into some kind of funky song.

I had a scrumptious fish curry with a side dish made of prawns for lunch, and the flavours sent me to heaven. I love fish curry, except for the part where I had to remove the skin from the bones. I never enjoy it. I prefer fried fish with fewer bones. What did you have for lunch today? I'm so happy that fate's magic turned out so beautifully. May your life keeps on attracting magical moments.

Seven's teaser IS OUT. I'm buffering. why does Jungkook look so tired when Sohee rants out something to him? what is "Seven" actually about? is the MV inspired by an AO3?

I can't wait for the song. Can July 14th come sooner?

bestiee, nine days to go for our b'day! @thelilacdews 🤍

— yours, Teeeeeeeee!

[thelilacdews]

Somebody does love, but I'm thinking 'bout 𝐘𝐎𝐔

Who is it that you love and that you think of and that you remember and that you hate Who is it that you live for and that you smile for Who is it that you cry for Wouldn’t this be love They say it’s thanks to the grandness of the word ‘love that we easily forget love and go about our day Would it be you of the past that you’re missing or would it be the past times on the far side of the glamorized memories

Yoongi, our beautiful legendary lyricist, wrapped up today's thoughts beautifully. I absolutely love love love the entirety of D-DAY. Man is a musical genius! SDL is so soft and beautiful along with the parts from Adora that just hits you well! One of the best love songs period! I pray that I don't forget the love we have and go about the day. I'll do my best.

5 days to go....... 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

It's the 15th!

Two weeks are gone just like that and only 6 days left!?

*deep breaths* *inserts that JK meme of him counting*

Ahhh my days have got even busier. I had thought I'll take a little chill but nah, it's a whole roller coaster.

I've been having weird cravings, mood swings and burn-out. I've been feeling irritated at work, I've been feeling more sleepy, I'm craving pizza and friend chicken, oh did I say I even caught a fever in the mean time 🙂 I currently have a sore throat, blocked nose and a head that always seems to be heavy and spinning occasionally 😑

Enough of me ranting! What are you up to? How's work in the new desktop going. My gurl you are so talented and organized I'm always in awe and proud at the same time. Teach me your ways hun! You pretty, talented, amazing one in a million. Love ya!

6 days to go....... 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

Happy "SEVEN" day fam!

It's finally the day JK graces us with his first official solo release! Absolutely thrilled about it. He really made our birthday month even more special! The Concept photos, behind film and teaser has been pretty enticing so far. And our girlie Han Soo Hee OMFG I'm going crazy!!

AAAHHH OMG I can't wait for the actual MV!!

Let's welcome the day with great anticipation!!

7 days to go....... 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

Happy For You!

It takes heart to be happy for someone else. Although I'm most times like this but yanoe this certain something sometimes tugs in your heart and just makes it hard to be happy. I just pray that I can nurture being happy for others. This is something I do learn from you. The way you get so happy when something good happens with me, you're just so inspiring my lady! I hope God fills your life with the equal and more amount of happiness.

here's a song that's been stuck in my head for the longest time, just pure comfort this song is. And I absolutely love it.

The song has nothing to do with today's wish, or maybe it does cause I've inserted a tiny message from. It. I hope you enjoy the song as much as I did!

8 days to go....... 💜

@0721am

[thelilacdews]

It's basically summer with a mix of rain over here. What about your weather? Is it also treating you harsh? I wonder..

We'll be getting "SEVEN" teaser today!! I'm so freaking excited, been hearing rumors of Han Soo Hee here and there idk if that's even true or not lol, but excited either way!

I know we've already covered the topic of ice cream lol but hey I'm crving some Ice-cream, so, here's a BTS ice-cream scoop for you. hehe

This clip is exactly that in the seom tannie ice cream scoop lol. It was so fun trying to make them stack on each other and make the icecream scoop hehe. Ngl it was hard making it but so worth it. I miss playing the game these days.

LOOK HOW INSANELY CUTE THEY LOOK😭😭

Enjoy the tannie stack for today. Love Ya!

9 days to go....... 💜

@0721am