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I hate to say but I don’t think I mentioned this in a good way. Not sure yet tho

The way people love Kevin day is like the way people love Henry winter and no I won’t explain that

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if the vibes are off, close your document. stare at the wall. think about your protagonist’s childhood trauma. return stronger.

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sometimes writing isn’t about talent. sometimes it’s about sitting in your chair and suffering for 45 minutes until a single sentence crawls out of your skull

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Some story with two siblings who get into utter bullshit together, and every single time they're caught, the older one puts on a brave stoic stance of "I'm the one at fault, my little brother/sister is innocent, I take full responsibility. I was the one who pulled them into this, if you have to punish someone, let it be me and me alone."

And every single time their parents are like "look, you are not in any way responsible of your sibling, but I'm proud of you for wanting to protect them. It's noble of you to ask to take the full punishment for yourself, and it would be low of me to take you on that offer." and proceed to not punish either of them.

The parents never put it together that this was the plan all along, the younger sibling is in on the scheme too. They know that the punishment never happens and the Older Sibling's Noble Sacrifice is just their regular Get Out Of Jail Free-card.

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Istg i need to STUDY Neil Josten's brain. He asked a woman "what for?" when she requested his number. He didn't know Andrew loved him until the poor guy deadass offered to blow him. He didn't know that he loved Andrew until like halfway through THE THIRD BOOK, despite "Everything that matters" and "Welcome home, Neil" and "His life was out of his control now; he was giving it to Andrew and hoping Andrew would keep it safe." HE STUCK ANDREWS HAND UP HIS SHIRT IN FRONT OF LIKE EVERY SINGLE FOX AND WONDERED WHY PEOPLE THOUGHT THEY WERE DATING!!! i hate him.

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It’s really weird that when I do actually good things for my body my body feels good I don’t like it

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Thinking about the first Thursday of the Trojan's summer practice from Rhemann's pov. Like, he spent the whole afternoon having to make near constant corrections to Jean's playing, and he had to be wondering what the hell Coach Moriyama had been teaching those kids. But then, Jean offered his racquet without question, in front of everyone, as if being hit with it was an acceptable and expected thing. Like, what the fuck? And then there was Grayson

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thinking about a 14 year old Jean, terrified and confused, having fallen in love with a 16 year old Kevin, as stupid as he was beautiful, simply because he was the first person Jean had ever known who didn’t actively abuse him, who smiled at him and tried defending him, so he clung onto Kevin and his postcards and his secret French lessons for nearly half a decade in that cold stadium basement before the only semblance of happiness in his life was ripped away from him without even a wave goodbye mere weeks after his 18th birthday

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Neil deciding “now is not the time to figure out my sexuality, we have a game this week” was the original "im probably nonbinary but i have a job so idrc about that rn"

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aftg tv show and the first trailer for jean's season/spin off starts with a bunch of newscasters and reporters saying his name in various accents

ravens backliner jean moreau- gene morrow of the perfect court- jean moreau, défenseur des Ravens-

and then we cut to jean sitting in the bed at abbie's, its completely silent (other than maybe a faint ticking), hes all bandaged up and terribly bruised, staring down at his hands in anger as the camera slowly zooms in, then he looks up and his own voice (in voiceover) says my name is jean moreau. i belong to the moriyamas. my place is at evermore. i will endure.

cue intense music with a sick beat and cut to several things happening at once: jean throws a punch, renee's necklace dangling above his palm, jeremy almost crashing his car, (idk man theres too many good ones 😭)

cut! quieter now, camera follows neil silently lowering to a crouch in front of jean (who we can barely see), imitating a gun to his head with his fingers, "pop. how easily these monsters die in the end."

music is back and we keep flashing between a bloody jean in two different bathtubs- then kevin is in front of him: "you made me a promise." / "fuck you. you have no right to hold me to it." / "but i will."

last cut is jean walking onto court in USC gold and red, in voice over he says my name is jean moreau. if i am not a raven, who am i?

do u see the vision

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aftg tv show and the first trailer for jean's season/spin off starts with a bunch of newscasters and reporters saying his name in various accents

ravens backliner jean moreau- gene morrow of the perfect court- jean moreau, défenseur des Ravens-

and then we cut to jean sitting in the bed at abbie's, its completely silent (other than maybe a faint ticking), hes all bandaged up and terribly bruised, staring down at his hands in anger as the camera slowly zooms in, then he looks up and his own voice (in voiceover) says my name is jean moreau. i belong to the moriyamas. my place is at evermore. i will endure.

cue intense music with a sick beat and cut to several things happening at once: jean throws a punch, renee's necklace dangling above his palm, jeremy almost crashing his car, (idk man theres too many good ones 😭)

cut! quieter now, camera follows neil silently lowering to a crouch in front of jean (who we can barely see), imitating a gun to his head with his fingers, "pop. how easily these monsters die in the end."

music is back and we keep flashing between a bloody jean in two different bathtubs- then kevin is in front of him: "you made me a promise." / "fuck you. you have no right to hold me to it." / "but i will."

last cut is jean walking onto court in USC gold and red, in voice over he says my name is jean moreau. if i am not a raven, who am i?

do u see the vision

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"Who's humanizing who in that relationship, anyway?" will never not be nicky's funniest line

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with andrew’s memory and neil’s scheming they would both be LEATHAL at poker. the foxes eventually have to ban them from team poker nights and neil has to play dealer while andrew sips on whiskey behind him

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everyone has different opinions on whether or not neil and andrew get married. i personally think they do, but not for the medical reasons that i see a lot. i see people saying that they’d get married so andrew has access to neil when he’s injured, but there’s paperwork that could do that without them being married.

i propose a funnier solution. neil isn’t a citizen of the united states. his mother was visiting in the uk when she was pregnant and he was born early, and when she took him back to the us they never bothered correcting the paperwork or anything. fast forward to after baltimore and the fbi have done some digging, only to find out that neil “pain in the ass” josten is actually an illegal immigrant. needless to say, they gleefully hold this over his head, maybe as a way to make him more compliant with testimonies. neil, however, being the little shit that he is, proposes a green card marriage to andrew. andrew agrees to it without a second thought .

that’s how, to the shock and horror of everyone else, andreil ends up being the first married in their early 20s

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tumblr polls are like: normal everyday question?

1. first option that reveals the poll maker has an absolutely bizarre understanding of the thing they are asking about

2., second option that adds the worrying context that op considers the first option the normal answer,

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Matt is for sure a loverboy, but "One day I want you to look up 'insensitivity' in the dictionary... I'm sure it'll do your ego wonders to see your picture printed there beside it."? Iconic. "Hear that, Kevin? Your sub said you're incompetent."? Fabulous. He is a very respectful and nice young fellow, he loves his girlfriend, his mom, his movies, his truck, exy, his friends and his new little roommate/light-of-his-life, but he still can and WILL serves so much attitude