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Flashback halting protocol

- Right now I am feeling… (describe your current emotion, e.g terrified)

- And I am sensing in my body… (describe your current body sensations, e.g pounding heart)

- Because I am remembering… (Name the trauma by title only, no details, e.g being hurt by my mother)

- At the same time, I am looking around where I am in (the actual current year), here (name the place where you are).

- And I can see… (describe some of the things that you see right now in this place).

- And so I know (trauma by title only) is not happening now or anymore.

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if you dont love yourself right now, thats ok

i love you

the trees love you

the ground loves you

the flowers love you

i love you

the wind and the air loves you

the sea and the sand loves you

fire and ice love you

i love you

its ok not to love yourself, it takes time

its difficult, its hard, you’ll might fall back, and thats ok too

but you’ll get there in the end

but in the meantime, the earth and I love you

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childhood trauma is so weird because you grow up to find out that stuff that happened wasn’t okay and suddenly memories come back and you realize how it really messed you up on the inside

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How to Stop Beating Yourself Up

1. Try to understand where it came from. Why do you demand so much of yourself? Do you have tendencies towards perfection or self-hatred? If so, where do these come from?

2. Practice self-compassion. Everyone deserves to be loved and understood, to be allowed to make mistakes, and to take the time to grow. Give that to yourself. Don’t attack and hurt yourself.

3. Deliberately focus on positive self-talk. Being negative, impatient, critical and overbearing becomes so automatic that we don’t realize it’s a habit. So, interrupt that habit and be kind and positive.

4. Decide not to compare yourself to others. We tend to judge ourselves by the people who excel, or have an easier life, or who face few obstacles. It’s not a level playing field so don’t compare yourself. Remember you ARE changing, and you have a lot to give.

5. Make a note of compliments and nice things people say – then pull it out and read it when you start to feel you’ve failed. Remind yourself that others see your value and worth … And others see the good in you, and want you to succeed.

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this user suffers from delusions

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No one thinks I’m serious when I tell them I have memory problems at my age, like I’m not joking, I’m being completely honest when I say I can’t remember what happened yesterday.

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Got this shit today :') please stop :)))

when someone says you can get rid of all your negative symptoms if you work hard enough

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me on meds: okay i can function, but i’m pretty sure i dont need these anymore they’re probably making life harder for me at this point

me off meds: holy fuck this was a bad mistake. abort. abort. abort. shit. fuck. damn.

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People already think I’m weird. Why not relax and take advantage of that?

- anonymous

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“But what if I’m faking-“

You’re not.

“But what if it isn’t as bad as-“

It is.

“But what if it’s my own fault-“

It isn’t.

“But what if I’m exaggerating-“

You’re not.

That was all, you can now continue scrolling.

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Hey just wanted to say, @s-c-h-i-z-o-p-h-r-e-n-i-a-a is a garbage blog and garbage person.

They post shitty “horror” under the schizophrenia tags and also use schizophrenia as their HORROR BLOG URL. like. Nice going, jackass, it’s not like the whole damn world *already* views schizophrenia as a scary “disease” and treats us like ticking time bombs.

Good job contributing to the stigma and abuse of people like me.

And, after I asked if they could switch urls/stop flooding the schizophrenia tags w their bullshit, they told me to fuck off and blocked me rather than realize how fucked up their actions are or change the EASILY changeable.

Wish I could say I was surprised that they’d rather block me instead of attempting even a smidge of understanding for a commonly abused, murdered, and disadvantaged community, but let’s be honest:

Roaches hate it when you shine a light on them. :))

So!

If you could reblog this/report them/etc, that’d be a huge favor to me. Thx!

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MotherMothsMothlyRants

Hhh one of the reasons I hate talking about my schizophrenia to new people who are nt is i usuallu get the "YOU DONT LOOK SCHIZOPHENIC" like dude how am i supposed to look like,,,,its not a look?? Its a mental health condition??? But ok lol

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*happy ukulele music*

No more space bugs flying ‘round

I am finally free of the space bugs

No more headaches when they come around

Take that you goddamn space bugs

Took my medication to calm me down

It also got rid of the space bugs

The evil fairy’s still standing under the couch

But at least there’s no more space bugs

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Me: wow why does no one ever talk to me? I’m so lonely this sucks

Me the second someone tries to talk to me: this is too much

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FUCKING HELL SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE ASSHATS IN THE BACK!!!!

“I don’t think I could handle having a mentally ill child” “I don’t think I can handle having a physically handicapped child” “I don’t think I could handle having a trans child” “I don’t think I could handle having a gay child” “I don’t think I could han-” THEN👏 DON’T👏 HAVE👏 A👏 CHILD👏 👏 👏

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《Medication Update》

So after trying to deal without Anti Psychotics for like 2 months now, I couldnt take shit anymore and went to my psychatrist, I was prescribed 5mg of Aripiprazole to hopefully help lessen my symptoms, still gonna be taking a very small dose of Olanzapine and also Fluoxetine which ive been taking for years so yeah we"ll see how it goes///I will update with any side effects etc that I might feel (will be taking it first tomorrow morning as instructed by the dr)

M.Moth

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Anyone who has ever been on fluoxetine has, at some time, had the tablet form

And anyone who has had the tablet form of fluoxetine knows the true taste of Satan