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There's a post i want to write about the power of ambiguity and neutrality and kinda safe zones? Places and people who dont require anything from u, almost like an ideological DMZ, when leaving fucked up belief/religious/political/home/cult spaces but can't seem to assemble the words.

Ive written and deleted too many paragraphs now. I dont know what ive trying to say. Just that non political spaces were really important to me as i grew up in very strange foreshadowing of current political climate.

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Update.

Bloodbath series so far.

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The freelance gods laugh at me. Now that I have Heinous Child Plague that I can't shake ive got more work on than ive had in oh, over a year.

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Potentially hot take but one of the reasons we need art and music in schools is that, taught correctly, they are ideal avenues for teaching kids how to do something, kinda suck at it, keep going anyways and improve over time.

And THAT is one of the most valuable skill sets a human being can have. THAT is the skill set that unlocks soooooo many others.

A LOT of people I see with anxiety and depression do not have this skill set. To suck at something is a threat. Proof that they are doomed to suck at it forever. And then, often, that either THEY suck forever or the task must be stupid/useless/pointless (whence we get AI art fans who have decided actually making art is pointless and degrading the labor and skills of others is fine because these are useless skills).

Or you get the freeze- the inability to try things in case you fail. The sudden lancing shame and humiliation or hopelessness. The sense that anything you haven't learned by now you can't learn. Which is so heartbreaking and so untrue.

I just hate it.

"What if I write it and it's bad" "what if I draw it and it's bad" "what if I play it and it sounds bad" DOING IT BAD IS HOW YOU LEARN TO DO IT GOOD! You can't skip the process of leaning and the process is FUN if you let it be what it needs to be!

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The set so far.

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selling these at Covenant rn.

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Flatmate now also sick. Fuck winter.

Home in my own bed. And unfortunately sick as a fuckin dog.

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Wife now sick too. Unfortunately I think she has a different cold, so really testing out the idea of germ warfare in our household rn.

Home in my own bed. And unfortunately sick as a fuckin dog.

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Because it's not a collaboration with @saxifraga-x-urbium unless Icarus is involved.

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