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When did you first start shipping Raulson?

So it all started because I watched Season 1 and well I IMMEDIATELY FELL IN LOVE WITH NORA BECAUSE WHO WOULDN’T?! 

So then, I was so excited because Season 2: Asylum was already out, and I was looking forward to see the same actress who did Nora (I didn’t know her name was Lily Rabe back then) on season 2. So then immediately, I fell in love with Mary Eunice because WHO FUCKING WOULDN’T?! And then this scene happened;

   And I was like “Whoa that was very super duper gay! You go, Lana! Pin Sister Mary against a wall like a big badass lesbian.” Sooo, I because of this I searched for “Lily Rabe” because the obsession over her was like real bad and I started to look into her instagram and GUESS WHAT?! This happened. 

And I was like, “  OH MY GOD. They’re a couple in real life. Mary and Lana are a fucking couple.” So I searched for “Sarah Paulson”  and immediately knew she was a lesbian/bisexual/likes girls too in real life BUT there was no confirmation about them (raulson) being a couple. Anyways, Season 2 ended, Lily continued posting pictures of her and Sarah or Sarah alone… 

…. and then the FUCKING paleyfest happened.And we all know what happened in the paleyfest, don’t we?! Something in between 

THIS

AND THIS

    AND BUM! I WAS FUCKED UP. BUTTTTTTTTTT, THEN SEASON 3 HAPPENED AND RYAN MURPHY RUINED MY LIFE WITH THIS

and THEN THIS HAPPENED AND I WAS FUCKED FOR LIFE

AND NOW I WILL DIE SHIPPING RAULSON AND THIS PICTURE WILL BE PLACED AT MY GRAVE. 

okay bye. 

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The Art of Forgetting || Raulson AU || One Shot

“Is it possible?” The room was filled with sweat, with a peculiar smell of sex and disgrace. She lied down on her back, naked, staring at the celling. “What is?” Her soft voice echoes like a thunder with million questions. “That you are still thinking about her even after we make love.” There’s a pause, and the brunette forgets how to breathe. He has mentioned HER. Again. Minutes pass and there’s no answer for a fact given; although she tried her best to come up with something that seemed smart to say, her mind was blank and honesty ate her up. “I can’t take her off my mind, Colin” His breahting was heavy and he cleared his troat before answering, “I know that. I can see you wondering in the morning, or at nights, even when I’m on top of you… Your thoughts seem to be lost on her memory.” But she doesn’t even try to reply, he is right, all that he said and more. So he continues. “What is she like? Some sort of mermaid or a greek goddess? Tell me about her, Sarah. Please, I need this to fully understand how have I lost you to this woman.” Her eyes get shinny, tears building up and warning to come out as a exposed fall. “She does look like a mermaid.” She starts, her voice about to crack. “She’s the good and the beauty in every woman all at once. She’s elegant, wise and seductive. You can get lost in her mysterious eyes, which I must say, you’ll never know the exact color. They can be green as a wild forest, or blue as a deep everlasting ocean… sometimes even gray as the worst rainy day, but they’re marvelous and unique. I remember feeling alive everytime she looked straight at me. And her touch - I’m sorry” She realizes she’s gone way over the limit. “I don’t know what she did to me that night, or the next night, or that week. But she’s in my mind and there’s no escape.” Colin stands up, he covers his naked body with a dressing gown and before crossing the bedroom door, he looks at Sarah and asks, “You love her, don’t you?” She sighs, she’s been discovered. “I do.” She mutters as low as possible, praying to god that her husband hadn’t heard. The door gets shut, he’s gone.

“Is it because I can’t give you kids?” Sean’s voice is small, almost begging for an answer. “Sean, we’ve talked about this before. Stop it now before any of us gets hurt.” He frowns, his lips are downwards, he tries to think what was his mistake. “I am hurt, Lily - I am hurt that you look so miserable and unhappy. I forgave you after all, didn’t I?” She shocks her head and closes her eyes trying not to face reality. But she’s been trying for too long already, she’s been too strong and now it’s time for her to be weak. “I am not happy by your side anymore, Sean. Is that what you wanted me to say?” Tears fall off, his cheeks already wet. “Continue.” He asks. “I didn’t plan for that to happen, you know? Life with you was good, I considered I was happy. But she had to get into my life to understand that I wasn’t.” There’s a silence after that last sentence, it’s a heart broken on the background and Lily is guilty. She looks away, up to the celling, remembering, trying to understand herself how did it all change. None of them seem to be brave enough to break the silence, but she feels a pain in the pit of her stomach that makes her throw up her truth; “She made me happy, Sean. I - I don’t regret it, those seven days by her side seemed like paradise to me. The heart wants what it wants, Sean and my heart wants her. Only her. I am in love with her, and there’s no going back.” His voice is shaky and he turns around, giving his back to his wife. Not being capable of accepting his new fate. “I will let you go.” She stands up and walks to the door, she leans on the frame and whispers; “Thank you.” Before he gets a chance to reply, she’s gone. Probably, forever. 

There’s a knock on the door. The kitchen is dark and she leaves her cup of coffe aside, the woman walks frightened and curious about who could it be on the other side. She tries to fix her brown hair before asking; “Who is it?” But there’s no reply. She takes a deep breath and slightly opens the door with shaky hands. Just before her heart stops beating, the blonde in front of her utters, “Come with me.”

I hope you enjoyed this one shot, guys! I did try my best. Love,  TheRaulsonFeels

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Why I love Raulson

Sarah: talking about pussy

Lily: SKSJSKSJSKSKSJS

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Michael Langdon with Madison and Queenie:

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CORDELIA and MISTY in American Horror Story: Apocalypse Episode 5

I knew you for such a short time, and I’ve missed you forever.

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Don't shut up. Ignore mean people, they don't matter, don't listen to anyone who's mean for no reason. They really don't matter. You do 🌸🌈

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OH YEAH, AND JUST BECAUSE I HAVE CANCER DOESNT MEAN YOU CAN SHUT ME UP. PEACE!

I KNOW NOBODY CARES AND I DON’T EXPECT YOU TO, BUT I HAVE TO JUST WRITE ALL THIS I’M FEELING. 

I WASTED SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE JUST TRYING TO FIT IN AND BEING PERFECT AND ALL THE STEREOTYPES SOCIETY WANTS A GIRL TO BE. I WANTED TO BE THE PRETTY ONE, THE STRONG AND INDEPENDENT GIRL. I DIDN’T WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW HOW BROKEN I WAS, HOW BROKEN I AM. I GOT AWAY FROM THIS FANDOM, THIS BEAUTIFUL FANDOM, WHICH I LOVED AND LOVE SO DEEPLY, BECAUSE BEING GAY OR BISEXUAL IN MY COUNTRY IS A FUCKING SIN AND I JUST NEEDED TO TRY AND BE “GOOD”. 

WHOEVER IS READING THIS, FUCK, I AM SO SORRY. BUT YOU’RE THE ONLY ONES WHO CAN KNOW THAT I AM DYING. I AM DYING AND I REGRET NOT DOING EVERYTHING I WANTED TO. I AM DYING AND I REGRET NOT LOVING WHOEVER I WANTED TO. I WAS SO FUCKING OBSESSED WITH BEING PERFECT THAT I COULDN’T LOVE ANYONE, NOT EVEN MYSELF. I NEVER DID, AND I GUESS I NEVER WILL. 

ANYWAYS, THE DEAL HERE IS: DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT WITH YOUR LIFE, BECAUSE DEAR, HEAR ME OUT, IT WILL END SOMEDAY AND YOU’LL REGRET EVERYTHING YOU COULD’VE DONE AND NEVER DID BECAUSE OF YOUR FEARS, BECAUSE OF SOCIETY, BECAUSE OF FUCKING OTHERS. AND WHAT HAVE OTHERS GIVEN YOU? 

THEY HAVE GIVEN ME NOTHING BUT SHAME AND NOW THAT I HAVE CANCER, I DON’T WANT ANYTHING FROM THEM. NOT THEIR TEARS OR THEIR PITY. 

F U C K - Y O U - A L L

I AM GOING TO LIVE EVERYTHING I WANT TO LIVE AND THESE MONTHS ARE GOING TO BE THE BEST OF MY 21 YEARS. FUCK YEAH. 

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YES.

Here are some gay memes. Mostly lesbian. Reblog or whatever if you save. May do another post like this

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dude shut up? you're overflowing everyones dash.

UNFOLLOW BITCH. I WILL SHUT UP WHEN I DIE, SO SOON! STAY TUNED xx 

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Lily Rabe as Joan Barrett // Legion 2.04 

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Lily Rabe as Helena Maypole // A Midsummer Night’s Dream (2017)

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People: The gays are going to hell

AHS Gays: Praisseeeee Satan :)

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IMAGINE: Sarah Paulson getting into Cate Blanchett’s party, she’s all confident and then out of nowhere, she hears Lily’s laughter... and her heart just skips a beat, and she can’t resist to search for her. When their eyes met, Sarah looks away but she feels Lily is looking at her even more intensely than before. So she can not avoid to look up at the love of her life, even if it hurts like hell.

S A R A H •• P A U L S O N

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THANK YOUUUUUUUU

Sarah Paulson and Lily Rabe on their acting this episode:

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I KNOW NOBODY CARES AND I DON’T EXPECT YOU TO, BUT I HAVE TO JUST WRITE ALL THIS I’M FEELING. 

I WASTED SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE JUST TRYING TO FIT IN AND BEING PERFECT AND ALL THE STEREOTYPES SOCIETY WANTS A GIRL TO BE. I WANTED TO BE THE PRETTY ONE, THE STRONG AND INDEPENDENT GIRL. I DIDN’T WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW HOW BROKEN I WAS, HOW BROKEN I AM. I GOT AWAY FROM THIS FANDOM, THIS BEAUTIFUL FANDOM, WHICH I LOVED AND LOVE SO DEEPLY, BECAUSE BEING GAY OR BISEXUAL IN MY COUNTRY IS A FUCKING SIN AND I JUST NEEDED TO TRY AND BE “GOOD”. 

WHOEVER IS READING THIS, FUCK, I AM SO SORRY. BUT YOU’RE THE ONLY ONES WHO CAN KNOW THAT I AM DYING. I AM DYING AND I REGRET NOT DOING EVERYTHING I WANTED TO. I AM DYING AND I REGRET NOT LOVING WHOEVER I WANTED TO. I WAS SO FUCKING OBSESSED WITH BEING PERFECT THAT I COULDN’T LOVE ANYONE, NOT EVEN MYSELF. I NEVER DID, AND I GUESS I NEVER WILL. 

ANYWAYS, THE DEAL HERE IS: DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT WITH YOUR LIFE, BECAUSE DEAR, HEAR ME OUT, IT WILL END SOMEDAY AND YOU’LL REGRET EVERYTHING YOU COULD’VE DONE AND NEVER DID BECAUSE OF YOUR FEARS, BECAUSE OF SOCIETY, BECAUSE OF FUCKING OTHERS. AND WHAT HAVE OTHERS GIVEN YOU? 

THEY HAVE GIVEN ME NOTHING BUT SHAME AND NOW THAT I HAVE CANCER, I DON’T WANT ANYTHING FROM THEM. NOT THEIR TEARS OR THEIR PITY. 

F U C K - Y O U - A L L

I AM GOING TO LIVE EVERYTHING I WANT TO LIVE AND THESE MONTHS ARE GOING TO BE THE BEST OF MY 21 YEARS. FUCK YEAH.