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[therealdragonnerdagain]

I'm sorry. I said I was leaving here and that I was putting this foul website behind me, but I have to post this.

The other day I stumbled across a reddit thread where people were putting down elf fans for thinking their way of playing is the best. Then they proceeded to go on about how THEIR way of playing (as a dwarf or a qunari) was the best -- in the most hypocritical manner EVER.

I will never understand why some people are so bothered by what other people think. Why the fuck do you care if I like playing as female Lavellan the best? If it's what works for me, how does it impact your gameplay experience whatsoever?

Yes, I feel playing as a female Lavellan who romances Solas will give you the most amount of story. But I also feel it is the most miserable experience you can have with Inquisition given all the sheer hatred, bigotry, and intolerance Female Lavellan faces from NPCs and her own followers/romances alike. In fact, I've written several extensive nerdy posts on here joking about how much it actually sucks to play female Lavellan.

I also have a dwarf character who I love dearly (there is a pic of her on this blog somewhere), as well as a qunari, and my favorite Inquisitor was actually a male Lavellan who romanced Cassandra -- best playthrough ever.

But playing as female mage Lavellan, I got the most out of the story. It wasn't the most fun, but I got the most lore and had the most roleplay options. Which is why I said it's the best ROLEPLAY experience. Not the best experience.

But again, why the fuck do you care? And why does someone else's opinion of a video game matter so fucking much? I will never understand gamers for this reason. Always so hung up on other people's opinions. It's a fucking video game. Who cares?

Playing as female Lavellan actually made me hate Dragon Age and Bioware. I guarantee that I will never buy another Dragon Age game again after the clusterfuck that Inquisition and racist narrative.

Anyway. I know I said I was leaving here, but it seemed fitting to end this blog with a post about the game that inspired me to start the blog in the first place.

One that note, I stand by my theory: Solas is a pride demon. A PRIDE DEMON. He spent the entire game lying to us. Why wouldn't he lie in Trespasser? Oh I'm sorry -- lies by omission. /eye roll/

I learned a lot from my time here on tumblr -- mainly that fandoms suck and are full of stupid, obnoxious nutjobs who live for likes and the worship of the clueless teenagers who stroke their ego by asking questions about the lore they could just look up on the wiki.

Now I know not to engage, bother sharing meta, or bother sharing theories since fans are such vicious assholes with a pack-like mentality, always so ready to attack anyone who they *think* is a threat to them.

Fuck all of you Dragon Age fans. Fuck you with a rusty spoon.

And goodbye.

I just did a poll, and Mage!Lavellan is the most popular Inquisitor on Deviantart.

I don’t think Solas is the only reason though.

As I said on an older post, playing a mage Lavellan is easily the best rp experience you can have in Inquisition.

Lavellan is a mage outside the Circle, so she will have an interesting perspective on magic. Also, the companions will have different reasons to brush off her opinion and/or listen to her opinion because she is Dalish.

Lavellan is an elf, and the plot basically revolves around the elf conflict. Makes basically roleplaying *everything* ten times better than playing a human (no offense human-players) and, ironically enough, a human is the one the story was originally written for (Hawke).

If Lavellan is female, it makes the Andraste/Mythal comparison that happens throughout the game have extra weight (though playing male Lavellan is hella fun, so try it).

You have a more interesting story with both Solas and Sera if you’re playing an elf.

Sera hates other elves and will be really mean to female!Lavellan in the beginning. As female!Lavellan, it takes a lot to earn her friendship (you basically have to deny everything “elfy” about you and pretend to be a human Andrastian because Sera’s a bigot).

Solas will only love female!Lavellan. Depending on which path you take, as an elf, you can yell at him in elven during an argument about institutional racism and how it’s not so easily solved, and your discussions with him about elven culture will have more impact and weight, especially when he’s a jerk in the beginning. For the friendship/relationship to continue, *you* have to apologize (even though *he* was the jerk) and he realizes he was a jerk and tries to be nice to you afterward. Later when your soul is crushed, you can yell at him in elven in the cave.

Solas is also the real antagonist (not Coryphidiot, the Scooby Doo villain) so being able to romance the villain is pretty sweet. I wish that was done more in video games.

As male Mage!Lavellan, there is an interesting dichotomy set up between you and Solas, where Solas might realize that you are the man he should have been and/or the man he used to be, a champion of the people who wins instead of loses and does so without pragmatically sacrificing millions of lives. You are basically the good guy/ unrealistically cartoony hero who always wins and always finds a way around sacrifice that Solas wishes he could be (you are pure-paragon!Shepard to his renegade!Garrus). Lavellan can even mock Solas in a special conversation (enemy path only) where he tells him that maybe he should start winning (which makes zero sense within the context, given the fact that the Inquisitor wouldn’t have a full understanding of just how *badly* the Dread Wolf kept losing. In fact, the entire joke on the Inquisitor’s part felt really meta).

Mage!Lavellan has a far more compelling arc with Cullen, whose story is about overcoming his hatred and fear of magic. (I find it a bit silly that he’d just stop being a bigot overnight but at least the story was written better than most romances …) Cullen is also very Andrastian and still might be the most tolerant romance of Lavellan and their beliefs (his wedding to her in Trespasser is evidence enough).  

Male Mage!Lavellan has a great arc with Cassandra, who is basically a super duper templar and Andrastian who distrusts magic, yet stumbles to tolerate Lavellan’s beliefs and “rogue” mage status. I loved playing Mahanon and imagining that her distrust of him stemmed from his magic. Watching her fall in love with a magic man (after losing her other mage lover) was also just pretty epic. She will point out how different the two of you are if you are not human and will be baffled that she could be in love with you, but she will still love you and vow to protect you. Honestly, it’s my favorite romance in Inquisition now.

Mage!Lavellan has a more interesting rapport with Solas (sorry, it’s true) who is a magic snob and actually views mages as better people than everyone else (because in his time, everyone had magic, and modern mages are just people who haven’t lost their connection to the Fade).

Hell, mage!Lavellan has a better story with *every* romance and pretty much *every* character. This game was made for a mage!Hawke, just as DA2 was.

The Temple of Mythal is more depressing intense as an elf character. As an elf, all the characters shit on you throughout the quest and you learn that your entire religion is wrong, and instead of comforting you about it, most of the characters are assholes during and after the quest.

Jaws of Hakkon is especially better if you’re playing an elf, especially if you’re playing female!Lavellan who romances Solas. Lavellan, Cassandra, Solas, and Varric (and to a lesser extent, Cole) were all set up to be the modern day version of Ameridan, his male templar best friend, his smart-ass female dwarf friend, his female Somniari elven lover, and his female spirit friend. It’s especially interesting if you play a Lavellan who keeps to her Dalish faith, whereas American could just be Dalish but had to worship Andraste too because that’s so “awesome”/sarcasm.

Sorry, but I thought it was lame that they tried to make Ameridan look cool and tolerant because he participated in both religions. And yet, we never see human Andrastians worshiping the elven gods alongside Andraste (imagine saying this to Cass in the beginning of the game). It’s the elves who are always expected to bend because the narrative keeps pushing Andrastianism as “right” and the elven pagan religion as “wrong.” Thus, the elves are allowed to keep their silly gods as long as they worship Andraste too … it’s religious intolerance and Inquisition reeks of it.

An elf!Inquisitor has a better arc with Dorian (in my opinion) who has a typical (shitty) opinion of elven slavery. Especially if you bring Dorian to Mythal’s temple.

Elf!Inquisitor has a great moment with Flemeth, where she praises the Inquisitor as doing the People proud. It’s literally the *only* moment in the game when Lavellan is praised for all she’s done because she is in an elf and not *in spite* of being a horrible evil scum elf. It’s the *only* moment in the game when it’s actually great to be elven and our character is not made to feel like utter shit for being their race.

Elven Inquisitor is the most fun to play at the ball (right up there with qunari, I think) because there’s the conflict with Briala (who hates the Dalish) and also Celene and Gaspard (who are both elf-hating bigots). Celene fetishes the elves and doesn’t even see them as people (Briala is her pet, she casually slaughters city elves in the book), so it’s interesting to roleplay a female!Lavellan who uses sex appeal to manipulate her. Gaspard, meanwhile, just straight-up hates the elves, so it’s great to have his head on a platter. It’s also great to make Briala swallow her ridiculous hatred of all Dalish (really, hating all the Dalish because one clan was crap? She couldn’t be anymore like Solas if she tried. Felassan was right) and work with a hated Dalish.

Mage/Elf!Lavellan can also roleplay being more familiar with the Fade and the realm of spirits than most people (a Dalish mage should be) and would thus have a greater rapport with characters like Cole and Solas (I still think Solas is actually a pride demon made flesh when he put up the veil. Just wait for DA4).

Lastly, elven Inquisitor has the best arc with Corypheus – and I do my best to say that without laughing, because Cory basically has no arc, like, at all. Being an ancient Tevinter, Cory hates the elven people and sees them as bugs. He was part of the people who gladly enslaved and subjugated the ancient elves. So to have one of the People put him down is pretty awesome. Also, his insults during the last battle are way better and more personal if you’re playing elfy.

Even though the entire game was written for Andrastian, human Inquisitor … it *accidentally* wound up working out best for Dalish elf Inquisitor.

And *that’s* why Lavellan is so fucking popular. 

It’s not all about Solas.

[therealdragonnerdagain]

I also wanted to add one more thing because I believe in taking responsibility for the things I say, and I've said some angry things about lesbians.

The truth is, I AM a lesbian.

Shocking, right?

I spent most of my life surrounded by a homophobic Christian family, so my identifying as bisexual was just me trying to deal with feelings of internalized homophobia.

If you pay attention to my blog (especially my video game posts) it's pretty obvious I like fictional men more than actual men. The truth is, I don't like actual men. Every instance of sex with them that I can remember was not only unfullfilling but was also kinda gross and uncomfortable.

I am a victim of life-long abuse. I have known very little love in my life. In fact, it's my belief that no one has ever loved me. Ever. I don't mean just romantically either. I'm also talking about fake friends and abusive family. People just treat me like dirt.

So me railing against lesbians and calling them "biphobic" for not dating bisexuals was just me being angry that yet another group of people not only rejects me but seems to hate me. A lot of lesbians on the internet say hateful, cruel things about bisexuals and late-in-life lesbians (which made it even harder to come out as a lesbian).

I know I'm a lesbian because I've never been sexually aroused by men. But I have always been sexually aroused by women. I don't have to explain that away or provide proof. It's my truth.

I just want lesbians who stumble across my old posts (even though they may never see this one) to know that they shouldn't take everything they see on the internet at face value. I was hurting when I made those posts about "biphobia" (the same way I was hurting when I made those angry posts about white people) and it had nothing to do with actual lesbians and everything to do with me.

A lot of people on tumblr are hurt, lonely, and lost. That's why it's so easy to get brainwashed by everyone else's bullshit.

Also, black people need to stop lecturing other black people about being “stuck in reactionary anger.” Most black people go through an angry phase when they’re young after realizing the full horrors of white supremacy. 

There is no reason to ridicule and lecture us for this. Just stfu and let us be young, for god’s sake. Eventually, we’ll chill out.

And stop making assumptions and judgments about people’s lives. My “isolation” isn’t shit you understand and you need to shut the living fuck up trying to tell me why I’m isolated, you arrogant piece of shit.

Just because someone vents on the internet once a week doesn’t mean they are like this 24/7. If I was angry and “reactionary” all the time, I’d have died of heart disease a decade ago.

So again, stfu and keep comments about my blog out of your mouth over on lipstickalley. 

EDIT: Also, the Illuminati is real, and satanists are VERY REAL, whether you believe in Satan or not. These people do. And they believe in pedophilia and sex slave trafficking, on which Hollywood is built and in which all female celebrities are sex slaves.

To people who know this, shit with Bill Cosby being a rapist or Johnny Depp busting Satanists out of prison is not shocking. Everyone in Hollywood participates in this crap. They are either sex slaves, or they sell their children as slaves, or they are the ones doing the raping and molesting.

Every last one of them. Allison Mack wasn’t an anomaly. 

People pay a very dark price for money and fame. Google about "penis gummybears" and how celebrities use said candy to train their own kids to get comfortable with sucking a grown man's dick.

It's all part of the business. And transgenerism is a HUGE part of it. It's not coincidence that Baphomet -- the demon that Illuminati satanists worship -- is a transgender demon. They are pushing the image of their god on the public, and anyone who tries to talk against transgenderism is silenced because of this.

I try to tell people WHY trangenderism is being pushed and you mock me?

Fuck you.

You can sit on r/GenderCritical and laugh at me all you want like the shitty white feminists that you are.

At least I'm not a mindless sheep. At least I'm aware of what's going on.

At the end of every year, I write a letter to tumblr and my followers, saying goodbye and that I intend to log out of tumblr and never log back again. I then make an effort not to return to the website, which usually only lasts about four months. Then I’m back, ranting bitterly and shouting stuff I’d never get away with shouting in real life.

I’ve decided that this time, I’m really going to try leaving this website behind. But there are a few things I want to say before I go. 

First, it amazes me that people come to this website, see my posts, and immediately assume I’m a “SJW.” Are you so stupid that you judge people entirely based on the website they choose to use? I rag on reddit all the time for being a hotbed of scared bigoted white male gamers who hate anyone who is black and/or has a vagina, but I know for a fact that reddit is also full of really cool people.

But tumblr’s demographic is mostly women and confused teenagers, so you come here assuming the worst, like the piece of shit sexist you are.

I’ll admit that I was brainwashed by the transgender agenda for a while. If you look through my old posts, you can see me oddly referring to people as “cis.” I broke free once I decided to take a vacation from tumblr for several months, and when I came to my senses again, it was horrifying to return and realize how easily the internet had brainwashed me.

It has nothing to do with being “weak” or “stupid.” It’s actually pretty easy to brainwash people with subliminal flashes and suggestive media. Why do you think so many men see women as sex objects? Have a gross sense of entitlement? Treat women as if we exist solely for their benefit?

What’s even scarier is, if you look at my post history here on tumblr, you can see me actually arguing with “SJWs” and calling them out for the rabid lunatics they are.

I’ve been attacked by these insane people more than once on this blog. If you care enough to actually go back through my history, you will see me constantly defending myself against accusations of ableism and racism from paranoid nutcases who think everyone on the internet is a hateful straight white man.

I was accused of being a racist white man (lol, I’m a black woman). I was accused of being ablest after discussing PTSD based what I knew from real life experiences with military veterans. Why? Because some people are so damaged and paranoid by oppression that they just go around looking for someone to attack so that they can feel better, like they have power over a situation in which they really have no power. (Otherwise, they wouldn’t be oppressed.)

This is literally the definition of a SJW. They are damaged, angry, hurt, and looking for some way to strike back at their (very real, keep in mind) oppressor. Often at times, instead of attacking people who are truly bigoted and hateful, they wind up attacking people who are just ignorant, mean no harm, or whose post they misinterpreted entirely while in their frothing rage of righteous indignation.

To be grouped in with SJWs just because I used my blog to vent about racism is disgusting and infuriating. I am not angry all the time, nor do I go around tumblr and the internet attacking other people. I solely use my blog to vent, to say shit I could not say at – for instance – college or work, and then I go happily back to my life.

All the shit I said about white people and Mass Effect and Dragon Age and Black Panther was true, and I apologize for none of it. We are living in a world ruled by white aliens, who use MK Ultra to control our leaders and celebrities and public figures, and fiction is a way of silently communicating this to the masses.

Look at the video game Mass Effect. It is literally about white people finally becoming civilized and venturing out into the unknown (the Americas and surrounding islands, Africa, Asia) only to discover the rest of the world was already conquered and ruled by other races.

That is exactly what Mass Effect is about. All the aliens in the video games are stand-ins for the different races of Earth (salarians are Asians, krogan are black, volus are Jewish, etc), with white people presented as humans, and Cerberus presented as the KKK.

The Reaper aliens trying to rule everyone and dismantling various governments with indoctrination is a direct allegory for the Tall White Aliens running the world and indoctrinating people with MK Ultra right now.

Also, everything I said about Javik is true. It’s no mistake that his voice is a black accent. He represents the real black people who once ruled ancient Earth and were taken down/ invaded by the Tall White Aliens who have been ruling ever since.

Javik constantly teases Commander Shepard about how humans once “lived in caves.” It’s because white people really were cave dwellers who were the last to become civilized in human history.

You people get on here and think I’m being “racist” when I’m just stating facts. “Caucasian” is a literal reference to the Caucus Mountains in which white people lived in caves.

It’s taken the aliens a long time to learn to control us through Mk Ultra. That’s why it used to be that when the people hated a leader, they would go out and march or else straight-up get a gun and shoot the president. Now people are complacent and just lay down and take the shit.

No one has gunned Trump down. Why? Because people are brainwashed. TV and internet has made us vulnerable to manipulation in ways we were never vulnerable before. Everyone is a drone obsessed with their phone. The media is constantly streaming subliminal messages in your face, keeping you mindless and complacent. Every now and then, they throw us breadcrumbs to make us think we’re in control: Obama getting in office, taking down racist statues, gay rights, etc.

The reality is, we aren’t in control of shit, and Mass Effect is spelling this out for us in the most convert way possible. Fiction has always been used to hold up a mirror to society and show a truth that people aren’t willing to see.

All white people are aware of this shit, too. They know that black people once ruled the planet and were invaded by aliens. They know that a lot of white people aren’t even human but are Tall White Aliens. They know about MK Ultra mind control, and most of them endorse using it on black celebrities to keep black people in line.

They have so much sneering hatred for anyone who’s not white. We are still literal slaves, this time in a deeply disturbing psychological way.

Get Out wasn’t progressive. It was just white people mocking us that we are still their slaves.

They are going to round our asses up for FEMA camps and they are going to slaughter half of us and brainwash the rest of us. Anyone who hasn’t been declared “white” and part of their made-up race will be rounded up for this. They are already claiming Asians, white Latinos, and biracials as “white.” That shit with Meagan Markle had a reason behind it. They want to beef up their numbers to keep us under control for when they finally try to enslave us again.

They will never let us be free. Their desire is to dominate and control, and if they can’t control it, they will destroy it.

It took them so long to get to this point because the aliens had to study us first. They had to learn how to control our minds before Mk Ultra would even work. Now they know, and they’ve been controlling us for years.

They mostly control black people and any white person who is a threat to white power, as well as most women who are public figures. If Bob Marley and Martin Luther King had lived during this time, they would have been Mk Ultra slaves, rather than assassinated.

Probably barring Madonna, every woman celebrity you see is a slave. Every. Last. One. Each woman has a handler, and she is programmed to be his sex slave.

Aaliyah didn’t die in a tragic accident. She was killed because she broke free of her MK Programming and fell in love with Dam Dash when JayZ was supposed to be her handler. They couldn’t control her, so they removed her, and JayZ was given Beyonce to be his new slave.

This #MeToo stuff is probably just the aliens allowing us yet again to think we have power and control so that we let our guard down. In reality, women are sex slaves, sex trafficking goes on, and it will continue to go on, no matter how many peaceful protests we have.

Men think they are “oppressed” but have been brainwashed to believe they are actually oppressed by women. In reality, their oppressors are other men, the ones who run this world and traffic women like chattel.

It makes me sick to my stomach just writing all this. It makes me wish I’d never been born into a world so dark and hateful. I don’t even want to be around people or interact with anyone. I feel like I’m just waiting for something awful to finally happen, here in the last days of America.

Because make no mistake, these are the last days.

I guess I’ll just do my best to live in peace as much as I can. I’ve certainly learned to stop worrying as much about eating and paying my bills, because with all this shit in perspective, it could be so much worse for me.

In an attempt to move forward and enjoy my last days on this Earth, I have decided to leave my old accounts behind.

I’ve already abandoned my deviantart account and will no longer be posting fan fiction there.

Now I’m leaving this tumblr account. Because as I’ve said in the past, this place screws with me too much as an Empath. It’s too easy for me to get brainwashed by the crazy people here, and it’s too easy for me to feed into everyone’s negative energy.

Gotta move on for my own good.

Time to move forward, to keep marching into whatever darkness lies ahead.

Fearless and unbroken.

Goodbye.

[therealdragonnerdagain]

At the end of every year, I write a letter to tumblr and my followers, saying goodbye and that I intend to log out of tumblr and never log back again. I then make an effort not to return to the website, which usually only lasts about four months. Then I’m back, ranting bitterly and shouting stuff I’d never get away with shouting in real life.

I’ve decided that this time, I’m really going to try leaving this website behind. But there are a few things I want to say before I go. 

First, it amazes me that people come to this website, see my posts, and immediately assume I’m a “SJW.” Are you so stupid that you judge people entirely based on the website they choose to use? I rag on reddit all the time for being a hotbed of scared bigoted white male gamers who hate anyone who is black and/or has a vagina, but I know for a fact that reddit is also full of really cool people.

But tumblr’s demographic is mostly women and confused teenagers, so you come here assuming the worst, like the piece of shit sexist you are.

I’ll admit that I was brainwashed by the transgender agenda for a while. If you look through my old posts, you can see me oddly referring to people as “cis.” I broke free once I decided to take a vacation from tumblr for several months, and when I came to my senses again, it was horrifying to return and realize how easily the internet had brainwashed me.

It has nothing to do with being “weak” or “stupid.” It’s actually pretty easy to brainwash people with subliminal flashes and suggestive media. Why do you think so many men see women as sex objects? Have a gross sense of entitlement? Treat women as if we exist solely for their benefit?

What’s even scarier is, if you look at my post history here on tumblr, you can see me actually arguing with “SJWs” and calling them out for the rabid lunatics they are.

I’ve been attacked by these insane people more than once on this blog. If you care enough to actually go back through my history, you will see me constantly defending myself against accusations of ableism and racism from paranoid nutcases who think everyone on the internet is a hateful straight white man.

I was accused of being a racist white man (lol, I’m a black woman). I was accused of being ablest after discussing PTSD based what I knew from real life experiences with military veterans. Why? Because some people are so damaged and paranoid by oppression that they just go around looking for someone to attack so that they can feel better, like they have power over a situation in which they really have no power. (Otherwise, they wouldn’t be oppressed.)

This is literally the definition of a SJW. They are damaged, angry, hurt, and looking for some way to strike back at their (very real, keep in mind) oppressor. Often at times, instead of attacking people who are truly bigoted and hateful, they wind up attacking people who are just ignorant, mean no harm, or whose post they misinterpreted entirely while in their frothing rage of righteous indignation.

To be grouped in with SJWs just because I used my blog to vent about racism is disgusting and infuriating. I am not angry all the time, nor do I go around tumblr and the internet attacking other people. I solely use my blog to vent, to say shit I could not say at – for instance – college or work, and then I go happily back to my life.

All the shit I said about white people and Mass Effect and Dragon Age and Black Panther was true, and I apologize for none of it. We are living in a world ruled by white aliens, who use MK Ultra to control our leaders and celebrities and public figures, and fiction is a way of silently communicating this to the masses.

Look at the video game Mass Effect. It is literally about white people finally becoming civilized and venturing out into the unknown (the Americas and surrounding islands, Africa, Asia) only to discover the rest of the world was already conquered and ruled by other races.

That is exactly what Mass Effect is about. All the aliens in the video games are stand-ins for the different races of Earth (salarians are Asians, krogan are black, volus are Jewish, etc), with white people presented as humans, and Cerberus presented as the KKK.

The Reaper aliens trying to rule everyone and dismantling various governments with indoctrination is a direct allegory for the Tall White Aliens running the world and indoctrinating people with MK Ultra right now.

Also, everything I said about Javik is true. It’s no mistake that his voice is a black accent. He represents the real black people who once ruled ancient Earth and were taken down/ invaded by the Tall White Aliens who have been ruling ever since.

Javik constantly teases Commander Shepard about how humans once “lived in caves.” It’s because white people really were cave dwellers who were the last to become civilized in human history.

You people get on here and think I’m being “racist” when I’m just stating facts. “Caucasian” is a literal reference to the Caucus Mountains in which white people lived in caves.

It’s taken the aliens a long time to learn to control us through Mk Ultra. That’s why it used to be that when the people hated a leader, they would go out and march or else straight-up get a gun and shoot the president. Now people are complacent and just lay down and take the shit.

No one has gunned Trump down. Why? Because people are brainwashed. TV and internet has made us vulnerable to manipulation in ways we were never vulnerable before. Everyone is a drone obsessed with their phone. The media is constantly streaming subliminal messages in your face, keeping you mindless and complacent. Every now and then, they throw us breadcrumbs to make us think we’re in control: Obama getting in office, taking down racist statues, gay rights, etc.

The reality is, we aren’t in control of shit, and Mass Effect is spelling this out for us in the most convert way possible. Fiction has always been used to hold up a mirror to society and show a truth that people aren’t willing to see.

All white people are aware of this shit, too. They know that black people once ruled the planet and were invaded by aliens. They know that a lot of white people aren’t even human but are Tall White Aliens. They know about MK Ultra mind control, and most of them endorse using it on black celebrities to keep black people in line.

They have so much sneering hatred for anyone who’s not white. We are still literal slaves, this time in a deeply disturbing psychological way.

Get Out wasn’t progressive. It was just white people mocking us that we are still their slaves.

They are going to round our asses up for FEMA camps and they are going to slaughter half of us and brainwash the rest of us. Anyone who hasn’t been declared “white” and part of their made-up race will be rounded up for this. They are already claiming Asians, white Latinos, and biracials as “white.” That shit with Meagan Markle had a reason behind it. They want to beef up their numbers to keep us under control for when they finally try to enslave us again.

They will never let us be free. Their desire is to dominate and control, and if they can’t control it, they will destroy it.

It took them so long to get to this point because the aliens had to study us first. They had to learn how to control our minds before Mk Ultra would even work. Now they know, and they’ve been controlling us for years.

They mostly control black people and any white person who is a threat to white power, as well as most women who are public figures. If Bob Marley and Martin Luther King had lived during this time, they would have been Mk Ultra slaves, rather than assassinated.

Probably barring Madonna, every woman celebrity you see is a slave. Every. Last. One. Each woman has a handler, and she is programmed to be his sex slave.

Aaliyah didn’t die in a tragic accident. She was killed because she broke free of her MK Programming and fell in love with Dam Dash when JayZ was supposed to be her handler. They couldn’t control her, so they removed her, and JayZ was given Beyonce to be his new slave.

This #MeToo stuff is probably just the aliens allowing us yet again to think we have power and control so that we let our guard down. In reality, women are sex slaves, sex trafficking goes on, and it will continue to go on, no matter how many peaceful protests we have.

Men think they are “oppressed” but have been brainwashed to believe they are actually oppressed by women. In reality, their oppressors are other men, the ones who run this world and traffic women like chattel.

It makes me sick to my stomach just writing all this. It makes me wish I’d never been born into a world so dark and hateful. I don’t even want to be around people or interact with anyone. I feel like I’m just waiting for something awful to finally happen, here in the last days of America.

Because make no mistake, these are the last days.

I guess I’ll just do my best to live in peace as much as I can. I’ve certainly learned to stop worrying as much about eating and paying my bills, because with all this shit in perspective, it could be so much worse for me.

In an attempt to move forward and enjoy my last days on this Earth, I have decided to leave my old accounts behind.

I’ve already abandoned my deviantart account and will no longer be posting fan fiction there.

Now I’m leaving this tumblr account. Because as I’ve said in the past, this place screws with me too much as an Empath. It’s too easy for me to get brainwashed by the crazy people here, and it’s too easy for me to feed into everyone’s negative energy.

Gotta move on for my own good.

Time to move forward, to keep marching into whatever darkness lies ahead.

Fearless and unbroken.

Goodbye.

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Try looking up the word "fetish," you dumb bitch.

To be fetished is to be dehumanized. Someone who sees you as a light-skinned trophy does not see you as a human being but as a prize. Nine times out of ten, the colorist piece of shit will treat you like a thing he can use to make himself feel better. 

They don’t want you because of your personality or similar interests. You know. Normal, healthy shit. They want you for skin tone, which is fucked. So no. They don’t “respect us”and “treat us right.”

I once had a colorist black man date me and have sex with me thinking I was mixed. The second he found out I was black and had two black parents, he dumped me. Just ghosted my ass. Didn’t even send a text.

THAT'S what it means to be fetished and desired solely on the basis of being light-skinned. But dark-skin women don't know shit about that reality. Because it's OUR REALITY, not theirs.

And it's time they stopped trying to define our reality for us.

[therealdragonnerdagain]

Couldn't have said this shit better myself.

So sick of this "light-skin privilege" bullshit, with these bitches trying to equate light-skin black women to white people just because they're bitter and damaged.

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I came across this insane "monosexual privilege" checklist tonight, and I can't believe how quick people are to throw around the word "privilege."

"Privilege" implies that a group of people have real, institutional power over another group of people. Monosexuals can be biphobic assholes toward bisexuals, but that doesn't automatically mean they are oppressors who systemically hold down bisexuals.

Tall privilege. Skinny privilege. What's next? Right handed privilege?

I'm getting sick of this shit.

Monosexual gay people do not have actual social, economic power in relation to their sexuality (while monosexual straight people do).

Light-skin black people do not have actual scoial, economic power in relation to their skin tone (while actual white people do).

People are using the word "privilege" way out of context, and it's just getting fucking ridiculous. If everyone has privilege -- and not just a few trifling advantages in spite of their oppression -- then no one would even be marginalized and oppressed.

The only people in this country who have real power are straight white people. Yes, I'm including white women in that. Because it is infinitely easier to be a straight white woman in this country than it is to a bisexual black woman.

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I wish these fucking lesbians would stop telling bisexual women we don't understand them.

Stop telling me I'm confused and stop telling me what I do and don't understand. I understand lesbian women perfectly. I understand and respect that they are only attracted to women and only want to read about f/f romances.

The issue here is that bisexual writers are being discriminated against when writing books purely about f/f romance that don't involve straight sex.

If a book is about two women in love and there is not straight sex in it, why the fuck does it matter if one (or both) of the women happens to be bisexual???

The fact that it DOES matter to lesbians is what makes this behavior biphobic. End of. Stop trying to turn this into “We poor monosexuals are being bullied for being monosexual!” because that’s not what this is about.

You aren’t biphobic for only being attracted to other women. You’re biphobic for discriminating against bisexual writers based on the assumption that every book with a bisexual character is going to feature m/f sex.

The book is about two women in love and there is no man involved, but because one of the women isn't a lesbian, the book can't be read by you? Or because the author is bisexual, you won't support her?

That is fucked up.

Also, there is no "bisexual fiction" category, you dumb bitch. That's the whole point. Bisexual writers aren't invading your "safe spaces" and making them smaller. We just have no where else to go. Bisexuality isn't even recognized as a real sexuality, and the categories when publishing a book are "gay" and "lesbian." That’s it.

And even if there *was* a bisexual category, I would *still* publish my books under "lesbian" because I write f/f fiction that typically doesn't involve men. Yet you want to shove me out, tell me to get my own category, and won't support me because I'm bi? Fuck you.

I am honestly getting to a point where I just fucking hate lesbians.

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Found out to today that Stephen King wrote a book staring a black woman and dedicated it to Sandra Bland in some sad and desperate attempt to make up for all the gross racist shit he’s written in the past.

And I’m not just talking about his Super Duper Magic Negroes. 

He has a short story about a black woman who drinks a white man’s semen white pregnant and believes her black son inherited his talents (aka his worth) from her drinking a white man’s semen. 

I’m not even making this up. Google it. 

So fucking sick of these white writers. I’m just tired of them. I’m tired of watching their pathetic crusade to be better people. I’m supposed to root for their rich, successful asses while I’m still poor, discriminated against by the publishing industry, and socially, economically oppressed? 

Fuck these white writers. I don’ care about their struggle to be better people and I’m tired of their “diversity” bullshit, which is really just tokenism. 

What about my struggle to be treated like a damn person? Or, as ever, are white people’s feelings about racism just more important?

And you know the worst part? No one is willing ti admit that Stephen King did that racist shit in the past. No one is willing to acknowledge that what he’s doing now is little more than pandering to spare his own ego and protect his reputation.

If he really gave a shit about black people, he would have changed his behavior years ago when black people first criticized his racist-as-fuck books. But instead, he kept making money off these groveling, bowing, jolly, inferior magical black characters, who speak like Pork from Gone With the Wind in a 2014 setting and tap dance while they scurry to help da white folks.

And then what’s her name, the writer of the Binti books, defending Stephen King’s sorry ass? Ugh. I’ll never be reading those Binti books now and fuck her.

So fucking sick of everything. 

I think I need to do myself a favor and take a long internet vacation. 

[therealdragonnerdagain]

Will her prince be an openly black man? Or will they make him ambiguously tan again and give him a made up country?

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Apparently, white people feel lost and confused in an "age of color," as if non-white people just fucking got here and they don't know what to do or where they belong, “overwhelmed” as they are by our sheer existence -- as if we didn’t have to constantly venture into all-white spaces where we aren’t remotely welcome.

This is pathetic and sad and deserves all the mockery I can hurl at it. All the eye rolls. All the disdain.

White people still run the motherfucking country, are STILL discriminating against us, socially and economically oppressing us, and gunning us down in the street.

But now, because they get criticized on the internet every now and then for being complacent with the status quo, they need Barney hugs and asspats and reassurances that they they are valued and they belong.

You weak, frail, oversensitive babies. You would NEVER survive the daily oppression we have to face. The racism. The slurs. The cops pointing guns in your face. Being harassed and followed through the store. Constantly being denied work you're fucking qualified for on the basis of race alone. Torturing yourself with chemicals to change what's natural about you to appease a dominate culture . . .

White people could never survive all that. They would crumble if we enslaved them, then spent centuries continuing to hold them down. They can't even handle having to acknowledge that we EXIST without an outburst of sobbing think-pieces about how "not all white people are racists!" and the “world stopping” fact that some precious white character was cast with a black actor, as if white people weren’t wearing our dead kids like costumes on twitter.

Know that I and other black people are sitting here laughing at your pathetic weepy asses. You running the whole damn world, and that's not enough. If non-white people achieve the thinnest sliver of social progress, you crumble and start crying about how you have no place in the world.

Pathetic. I can't believe we let your weak asses conquer us.

[therealdragonnerdagain]

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to the angry white people who stalk this blog

1) I don't post on LSA 2) I don't even like the obnoxious people at LSA, so troll them all you want.

I take back absolutely nothing I said about white people in my Mass Effect posts. Nothing.

Because it's true.

Mass Effect is an allegory about ancient white barbarians going out to explore the world and discovering that the "final frontier" was already established by several different races of ruling brown people.

We were the world power of ancient Earth, and white people were a savage child-race begging to join and be recognized.

We civilized you. We gave you old pieces of Europe, old castles, lands of your own, and you repaid us by eventually invading and conquering, enslaving and raping our people for centuries.

Mass Effect tries to separate "good" white people and "bad" white people into groups. Cerberus represents the white supremacists who want to bully and invade and steal power, while humans like Anderson represent the "good" white people who just want to coexist peacefully. The reality is, all white people wanted power. It wasn't the blame of a few white twirly mustache villains. It was your people as a whole, willingly slaughtering, stealing, and invading.

How the fuck does that make you superior and us inferior? Asians have kicked white people's asses dozens of times. Does that make them superior? Asian people are the direct result of their environment just like everyone else. They aren't better than anyone, and neither are white people.

My stating all of this is not "racist" against white people. My words aren't racist and can't affect you personally beyond some sensitive outrage so typical of White Fragility. You will not lose your job or get shot by the cops because I stated the truth of the Earth's history on a personal blog while venting against the daily oppression your people inflict on me.

Pointing at some ghettos in Chicago and asserting that black people must be "inferior" is ignorant, racist, and stupid. Black ghettos in America are not "evidence" of black inferiority. They are evidence of white savagery and evil.

Yes, black people were "kangs," and you *were* naked barbarians crawling in the muck. And if we "can't build a Wakanda now" it's not because we are inferior. It's because we made a mistake in being kind to white bully-assholes, who then turned around and stabbed us in the back.

Your people were the last to discover everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. Even your precious Renaissance had already been done. Even spaceflight had already been done. Medicine. Electricity. All of it. And even the modern versions that you took credit for were invited by us, the descendants of slaves. It's because of us that you have cars and cell phones and all the high tech shit that you use every single day, a fact that white Americans have been content to sweep under the rug for centuries.

“Your” religion, Christianity, was African. We had already settled in America and had been ruling kingdoms here for centuries. California is literally named after a black queen. 

There's really nothing original about a damn thing you do or have done. That must frustrate you, knowing that you arrived last and shit had already been done. Like that episode of Southpark that kept saying “The Simpsons already did it.”

This is all just the truth. But you have been brainwashed to believe otherwise by the lies of white supremacy, by the white racists who whitewashed history and made us black people out to be the violent savages in their stead. The truth behind history says otherwise, though.

Your anger on LSA is sad and pathetic. Attacking those people there won't change history and won't change the evil that your people have committed.

Nothing will change until white people own up to the evil they have committed and continue to commit. Nothing will change until white people treat us like equals.

And that means nothing will change.

Cry to me all you want about how Africans had slaves too. There's a difference between indentured servitude and chattel slavery.

But keep building false equivalences, lies, and half-truths. It's the only thing white people are remotely good at.

[therealdragonnerdagain]

Do black people get a kick out of sitting on LSA, berating other black people for "black lives matter" and chiding us for not knowing history beyond ancient Egyptians and Moors?

Please, shut the living fuck up, you snide, condescending assholes.

Shit like this makes me just not give one fuck anymore. I don't care that other black people are hurt by racism when they are too colorist to acknowledge that I'm black and then want to mock everything I choose to talk about on my personal blog.

Fuck you. Fuck all of you. Black people, white people, gay people, straight people, men, women, you anti-black non-white assholes. 

Go and die in a bush somewhere.

Honestly, you people make it so EASY to just not care about anything anymore.

[therealdragonnerdagain]

Nice article with a good Angela Davis quote.

But of course, a dark-skin person had to leave a comment insisting that light-skin women don't face colorism. Except the part where we do.

Being hated by dark-skin women for perceived benefits and attitudes that we don't possess on the basis of skin tone alone is colorism.

Period.

Bullying and hatred and prejudice from other black people because you are light-skin is colorism. 

Dark-skin women actually think we oppress them, but we don't. We don't have the power to. We are not the cause of their oppression. White people have made us a tool in it.

Light-skin people are used by white people to oppress dark-skin people.

Since when is it a privilege to be a tool?

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Um, no they don’t. Distrusting, mistreating, and ostracizing other black people due to skin tone is pretty much the definition of colorism. 

Light-skin people are not white people. The person who wrote this is biracial and is writing from a biracial viewpoint. They openly stated that the world read them as “white,” so that would have made their experience significantly different from someone like me, who was often read as black or black enough to be irrationally hated. In fact, the author is pretty much a white person. 

But a light-skin black person with two black parents like me? I’m black, bitch. I might look mixed, but I’m black, and making assumptions about me based on my skin tone -- and then treating me badly because of those assumptions -- is prejudice. 

Biracials need to sit the fuck down and stop speaking for all light-skin people.

[therealdragonnerdagain]

the walker

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I am SO tired of these fucking white kids referring to black nerds as "new."

We're not new. We've been here THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME.

I was reading fantasy and science fiction before you were born, kid. Please shut the fuck up trying to act like I just got into this shit yesterday.