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—Superman and Lois, “Worlds War Bizarre��

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People who don’t relate to Jordan Kent just can fundamentally not understand what it is like to be the child who has standards lowered for you. Jordan is the mentally ill one, the weak one. It doesn’t mean his parents love him less but he is the kid you celebrate for doing less than his siblings. Yeah Clark wanted to spend so much time with him when he got powers and everything but THE SECOND Jon got powers he was perfect at it. Jon is the kid who they have high expectations for so they’re equally as proud of Jon for getting all his powers and killing it and getting it immediately as they are for Jordan figuring out how to not have anxiety attacks from his super hearing. Jordan is a smart kid and he can see the difference. And yeah he is different than Jonathon and has different strengths and can’t do the things Jon can do but being the kid who has the bar lowered for you is painful and people who don’t understand that were just never that kid. If you were never the autistic kid with two allistic siblings you will never understand how awful it feels to be celebrated for finally being able to go to the doctor by yourself at 21 when your siblings are going to ivy league colleges and winning hockey tournaments and I’m happy for you because it sucks and has left me personally with a ton of shit to work through in therapy. Sorry about the rant it’s just that I can’t stand Jordan hate because I relate to him a lot.

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what is your holy trinity of fruits

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This is nice.

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CAUSE I'M A PUNKROCKER YES I AM!

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Banger movie ngl

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You know for the first 18-ish years of your life everyone your age is mostly doing the same things and then all of a sudden every year for the rest of your life somebody your age is getting divorced while somebody else just learned what a leaf is and you have no idea what’s going on or what you’re supposed to be doing

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You know for the first 18-ish years of your life everyone your age is mostly doing the same things and then all of a sudden every year for the rest of your life somebody your age is getting divorced while somebody else just learned what a leaf is and you have no idea what’s going on or what you’re supposed to be doing

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if you c*nsor anything in a post you are l*gally required to put all of the omitted v*wels at the end as a footn*te

*eeoo

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Just finished this book! Loved the prose and the wonderfully true teenage-hood Wilson writes, too. Here are a few of my own favorite quotes:

This description is EXACTLY my cousins (three teenage boys) and my mom died laughing when I shared it with her

TOO TRUE

She’s so unhinged for this, like, girl.

This is it, this is what being a weird teenage girl obsessed with stories is like.

anyway this book was fun if anyone feels like checking it out. I’m almost sad I don’t live in a world where the Coalfield Panic existed now. I also kinda feel like hanging up one of those posters.

I do this very silly thing where when I discover a piece of art that moves me deeply like a song or a book I put it on a little pedestal in my heart and make no effort to engage with any of the artist's other work. And I think it's because I'm scared that it's a fluke, that the stars lined up perfectly just this once but that my tastes are too specific or discerning to be so easily pleased again and I don't want to be disappointed. I had read "Nothing to See Here" by Kevin Wilson and loved it so so much but had it in my head that his other books would be too weird and sad for me, but I got to the library half an hour before closing yesterday and I didn't have much time to browse and I just grabbed two of his other books and crossed my fingers, and oh my goshhhhh I could not put "Now is Not the Time to Panic" down last night it was sooo good in so much of the same way, like it makes me want to write something (which is still a new feeling for me as someone who has always considered herself more of an artist than an author). It's this crazy book that's very satanic panic-esque where these teenagers make this freaky poster for fun and just start hanging it up everywhere and their small town doesn't know what to do about it and things spiral out from there. And I'm just reading it like yes yes yes this is how I feel about the world and no one has ever put it in words before but YES this is it right here.

I think it's that Kevin Wilson is the opposite of a romantic. He is so real with his description of teenagers and growing up and how weird people are and how weird they feel and how love and feelings is kind of gross and awkward and what you feel as a teenager will define who you are but the person you feel those things towards will not be your end goal. And the details he gives to people's lives are just weird enough to be true. And the relationships are always part of the story but not what defines it. And he writes such losers, his female characters are such losers and failures and sad weird little kids that grow into weird adults but I love them so much and they feel like real people they feel like they could be me. I don't feel like many people capture this well with female characters, not since Suzanne Collins with Katniss Everdeen. Everything goes wrong for Kevin Wilson's characters but it's not dramatic like a sitcom. It's a quiet sort of wrong. It's like when you were in middle school and you spoke up in conversation in a group of girls and then they all looked at you in vague confusion and disgust and then move on, and you go "oh. I'm a weirdo freak and I just need to stand here quietly and never say anything ever again." Here are some quotes I liked.

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not all ships are For wanting them to be in a happy healthy relationship together. sometimes shipping two characters means you want them to be erotically obsessed with each other and become entwined in a mutually toxic love affair for a few months and then horrifically break each other's hearts and never speak again. sometimes you want them to be codependent best friends with enough repression to explode a submarine who only make out/have sex when they're at their worst. sometimes you want them to pine after each other for years, never say anything, and then die. sometimes you want them to kill each other. this, too, is shipping

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zinetober day 12....

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i have to be silly every day or my brain will start growing mold

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What I mean when I do not control the hyperfixation.

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people being like "scott's a shitty alpha because he's weak and needs his pack to win fights" uh yeahhhh!! it's like you missed the point of the Power of Friendship show.... "scott would have failed without his friends" YES and so would we all !!! did that part where derek tells jackson that no one cares about him and no one's coming for him only for scott to heroically jump in because someone always cares mean nothing to you?? did that part where the werenazi is like "you're a lone wolf" and theo so boldly goes "he's not alone, he's got a pack!" fly over your head?? this is a show where bad things happen when you're alone. you get mauled in the woods. you die in a library. the only thing that saves you is trust in others!! the only thing that saves you is the unreliable tertiary antagonist showing up at the eleventh hour to take a bullet for you because you've charmed them with your big eyes and unfailing kindness! this is not a show about being so powerful you singlehandedly rip apart the big bad guy with claws and teeth. this is a show about if i help you and you help me and we all help each other maybe we can make it out of this battle alive!!

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I've finally figured out an argument that convinces coding tech-bros that AI art is bad.

Got into a discussion today (actually a discussion, we were both very reasonable and calm even through I felt like committing violence) with a tech-bro-coded lady who claimed that people use AI in coding all the time so she didn't see why it mattered if people used AI in art.

Obviously I repressed the surge of violence because that would accomplish nothing. Plus, this lady is very articulate, the type who makes claims and you sit there thinking no that's wrong it must be but she said it so well you're kind of just waffling going but, no, wait-- so I knew I had to get this right if I was gonna come out of this unscathed.

The usual arguments about it being about the soul of it and creation fell flat, in fact she was adamant that anyone who believed that was in fact looking down at coding as an art form as she insisted it is. Which, sure, you can totally express yourself through coding. There's a lot more nuance as to the differences but clearly I was not going to win this one.

The other people I was with (literally 8 people anti-ai against her, but you can't change the mind of someone who doesn't want to listen and she just kept accusing us of devaluing coding as an art) took over for I kid you not 15 minutes while I tried desperately to come up with a clear and articulate way to explain the difference to her. They tried so many reasonable arguments, coding being for a function ("what, art doesn't serve a function?") coding being many discrete building blocks that you put together differently, and the AI simply provides the blocks and you put it together yourself ("isn't that what prompt building is") that it's bad for the environment ("but not if it's used for capitalism, hm?" "Yeah literally that's how capitalism works it doesn't care about the environment" she didn't like that response)

But I finally got it.

And the answer is: It's not about what you do, it's about what you claim to be.

Imagine that someone asks an AI to write a code and, by some miracle, it works perfectly without them having to tweak it---which is great because they couldn't tell you what a single solitary thing in that code means.

Now imagine this person, with their code that they don't know how it works, goes and applies to be a coder somewhere, presenting this AI code as proof that they're qualified.

Should they be hired?

She was horrified, of course. Of course they shouldn't be. They're not qualified. They can't actually code, and even if by some miracle they did have an AI successfully write a flawless code for every issue they came across that wouldn't be their code, you could hire any shmuck on the street to do that, no reason to pay someone like they're creating something.

When actual engineers use AI what they do is get some kind of base, which they then go though and check for problems and then if they find any they fix them, and add on to the base code with their own knowledge instead of just trying different prompt after prompt until they randomly come across one that works.

People who generate code like this don't usually call themselves engineers. They're people who needed a bit of code and didn't have the knowledge to generate it, and so used a resource.

And there you go. There are people who have none of the skills of artists, they don't practice, they don't create for themselves. When they feed the prompt to the AI they then don't just use the resulting image as a reference point for their own personal masterpiece, and if they don't like it they don't have the skills to change it---they simply try another prompt, and do that until they get something they like.

These people are calling themselves artists.

Not only that, these people are bringing the AI generated thing to interviews, and they are getting hired, leaving people who slave over their craft out of the job.

And that is the difference, for the tech bros who think AI art isn't a big deal.