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i kinda wanna kiss your boyfriend…if you don’t mind 🙂‍↕️

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mini life update: i’m happier. therapy is good. i like someone, way more than usual. i’m still here.😊

oh and i dislike paying bills a lot. 😫

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just to check in.

i’m still taking a break from dating.

i don’t miss the relationship, but i do miss the friendship. we were at least good at that.

i’m loving myself more (again) and enjoying life as i can.

nonetheless, i hope y’all are doing well.

i thought i was going to be okay.

i will be. i just assumed that i was prepared for it.

turns out, i wasn’t. that was foolish to think.

sitting in this moment is quite a depressing adventure.

i have to sit in it. go through what i must.

i can’t lose myself and not grow. that’s not an option.

what i am saying is that i am allowed to feel.

i am allowed to hurt. i am human.

i have work to do. personal. spiritual.

when the time comes and i try again, i’ll be better.

i’ll be more brave.

i’m not upset with myself. i don’t regret.

i appreciate it all.

sadly, it’s just sucks at the moment.

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so, i think i finally closure. even though it wasn’t what i preferred. i got it my own way.

life update: i started therapy and have started taking steps to work on myself and heal.

i thought i was going to be okay.

i will be. i just assumed that i was prepared for it.

turns out, i wasn’t. that was foolish to think.

sitting in this moment is quite a depressing adventure.

i have to sit in it. go through what i must.

i can’t lose myself and not grow. that’s not an option.

what i am saying is that i am allowed to feel.

i am allowed to hurt. i am human.

i have work to do. personal. spiritual.

when the time comes and i try again, i’ll be better.

i’ll be more brave.

i’m not upset with myself. i don’t regret.

i appreciate it all.

sadly, it’s just sucks at the moment.

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correction: i ignored myself.

there are a few things that i do regret. from start to current. it’s too late to change. i don’t know what my feeling are but i know they’re hurt. angry. upset. let down.

i really thought i was going to bed fine. i did.

i’m doing my best, but it’s not enough.

sigh.

i thought i was going to be okay.

i will be. i just assumed that i was prepared for it.

turns out, i wasn’t. that was foolish to think.

sitting in this moment is quite a depressing adventure.

i have to sit in it. go through what i must.

i can’t lose myself and not grow. that’s not an option.

what i am saying is that i am allowed to feel.

i am allowed to hurt. i am human.

i have work to do. personal. spiritual.

when the time comes and i try again, i’ll be better.

i’ll be more brave.

i’m not upset with myself. i don’t regret.

i appreciate it all.

sadly, it’s just sucks at the moment.

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so, the update isn’t much because i forgot to finish the post. nonetheless, i really feel that my feelings are hurt. there have been a couple thoughts that have crossed my mind and i don’t like it.

i’m doing my best to feel my feelings and not bury them like normal.

i will say it is interesting to see how people (including myself) handle things. thats both good and bad.

oh yeah, i think i may have an appointment with a therapist in the near future. i’ll let you know the update on that. promise.

i thought i was going to be okay.

i will be. i just assumed that i was prepared for it.

turns out, i wasn’t. that was foolish to think.

sitting in this moment is quite a depressing adventure.

i have to sit in it. go through what i must.

i can’t lose myself and not grow. that’s not an option.

what i am saying is that i am allowed to feel.

i am allowed to hurt. i am human.

i have work to do. personal. spiritual.

when the time comes and i try again, i’ll be better.

i’ll be more brave.

i’m not upset with myself. i don’t regret.

i appreciate it all.

sadly, it’s just sucks at the moment.

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Anok Yai by Renell Medrano for Vogue Spain January 2023

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oh yeah. i have an update.

disclaimer: it’s not anything gasp worthy.

i thought i was going to be okay.

i will be. i just assumed that i was prepared for it.

turns out, i wasn’t. that was foolish to think.

sitting in this moment is quite a depressing adventure.

i have to sit in it. go through what i must.

i can’t lose myself and not grow. that’s not an option.

what i am saying is that i am allowed to feel.

i am allowed to hurt. i am human.

i have work to do. personal. spiritual.

when the time comes and i try again, i’ll be better.

i’ll be more brave.

i’m not upset with myself. i don’t regret.

i appreciate it all.

sadly, it’s just sucks at the moment.

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sigh.

today was easier, but then again idk.

are we being honest? am i thinking too much?

what are these emotions?

rhetorical.

i thought i was going to be okay.

i will be. i just assumed that i was prepared for it.

turns out, i wasn’t. that was foolish to think.

sitting in this moment is quite a depressing adventure.

i have to sit in it. go through what i must.

i can’t lose myself and not grow. that’s not an option.

what i am saying is that i am allowed to feel.

i am allowed to hurt. i am human.

i have work to do. personal. spiritual.

when the time comes and i try again, i’ll be better.

i’ll be more brave.

i’m not upset with myself. i don’t regret.

i appreciate it all.

sadly, it’s just sucks at the moment.

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i thought i was going to be okay.

i will be. i just assumed that i was prepared for it.

turns out, i wasn’t. that was foolish to think.

sitting in this moment is quite a depressing adventure.

i have to sit in it. go through what i must.

i can’t lose myself and not grow. that’s not an option.

what i am saying is that i am allowed to feel.

i am allowed to hurt. i am human.

i have work to do. personal. spiritual.

when the time comes and i try again, i’ll be better.

i’ll be more brave.

i’m not upset with myself. i don’t regret.

i appreciate it all.

sadly, it’s just sucks at the moment.

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🎾 858 wins.

🏆 73 singles titles.

💪🏿 23 at the majors.

🥇 4 Olympic gold medals.

1⃣ ONE Serena Williams.

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RENAISSANCE, by Beyoncé

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KEKE PALMER for New York Times

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Method Man for the February 2022 issue of ESSENCE Magazine

📷: Flo Ngala

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MEGAN THEE STALLION Glamour Magazine: Woman of the Year (2021) / photographed by Kennedi Carter