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when i was 12 i babysat this girl for a few years and she would come to me and show me her art, drag me by my wrists and point at the pieces she’d made during the week. and she’d be like “do the voice” and i’d put on a sports-announcer olympics-style voice and be like “such form! this level of coloring! why i haven’t seen such perfection in crayola in a long time. and what is this? why jeff, now this is a true risk… it seems she’s made … a monochrome pink canvas…. i haven’t seen this attempted since winter 1932… and i gotta say, jeff, it’s absolutely splendid”  and she’d fall back giggling. at the end of every night she’d check with me: “did you really like it?” and i’d say yes and talk about something i noticed and tucked her in.

she was just accepted into 3 major art schools. she wrote me a letter. inside was a picture from when she was younger. monochrome pink. 

“thank you,” it said, “to somebody who saw the best in me.”

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Jadzia Dax & Lenara Kahn Kiss in Rejoined

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it’s really so silly bc when I was a very sad teenager I dreamed of my adult life as this beautiful, easy thing where I dance in my kitchen and have game nights with my friends and I travel around to see the world and I create things left and right and I follow my heart and find a community that welcomes me readily as I embrace them

And then I grew up and it turns out the world is going to shit and there’s a class war everywhere and my livelihood is under constant threat because I wasn’t lucky enough to be born into generational wealth and climate change is coming fast and god, the powerful are so selfish and and and- and yet, I do still dance in my kitchen. Sometimes my cat asks to be picked up and I sway around in a made up waltz with her tucked into my arms. (This is one of her favorite activities)

I play card games and gossip and watch movies with my friends every few Saturdays even though we’re all overworked and exhausted. i create things in the pockets of time between sleep and work and sometimes I create while I’m at work and I race home to finish it with a childlike sort of excitement. I’ve seen very little of the world but it’s still more than most of my family has. and these things are still just as wonderful as I dreamed they’d be, it’s just that they’re grounded firmly in a reality that’s harder to thrive in.

it makes me sad, because I feel like a lot of people are grappling with how much more difficult it is these days to create a life you survived for. And it can feel sometimes like it was all for nothing- all that stubborn determination to stay alive and keep trying, keep going got us to a world on fire, with all the folks who could do anything about it shrugging and saying no, nothing can be done, it’s too late, it’s just how things are.

Except it isn’t. There will always be dancing, there will always be companionship, there will always be room for hope. It’s never useless to hope for a better life. It’s never useless to believe it can be.

My teenage self wasn’t wrong about that.

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sorry if i'm gonna be quiet for a while. my country recently introduced laws that make it so that in order to use social media to the fullest (not being able to view ns/fw content and in a few cases, not even having access to dms), i HAVE to give the sites my id/face scan.

it goes into effect july 25th. it'll probably effect here too, since this place allows mature content (tho not full on ns/fw)

i'm very distressed about it bc i might end up not even being able to talk to my internet friends. i don't really have any irl ones

if i have to disappear on most socials by then, you know why.

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Just some thoughts on historical Doctor Who companions from a very invested nerd.

Also, should this be a series?

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hating the catcher in the rye is actually very understandable. nothing happens and it’s miserable and if the narrative voice annoys you you will not have any fun. but people who shit on it don’t say that they just make up a holden caulfield to get mad at

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gender is a performance and im getting heckled by those old gay muppets

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This is what I mean! If you aren't hyping your wife up like this what's the point.

My favourite kind of klingon men are the ones that are just huge simps. They know how great the women in their lives are and they never take being chosen by them for granted so they're always striving to be worthy of them and prove their loyalty through actions. And instead of being weak or sentimental it's extremely honourable to be devoted to your partner. Yes this is about Worf (among others) but it's also how I aspire to be.

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BREAKING NEWS: softest material in the world has been discovered, scientists calling it "kitty tummy fur"

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i love finding out what degrees my mutuals have. like what the fuck do you mean you do law? you’re a doctor who blog

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My favourite kind of klingon men are the ones that are just huge simps. They know how great the women in their lives are and they never take being chosen by them for granted so they're always striving to be worthy of them and prove their loyalty through actions. And instead of being weak or sentimental it's extremely honourable to be devoted to your partner. Yes this is about Worf (among others) but it's also how I aspire to be.

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jamie mccrimmon!

oh if you insist!!

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New trek should definitely have a gag where they have to use a 21st century computer and one of the androids encounters an "I am not a robot" tickbox and starts stressing if they should say yes. It's the natural followup to all the 20th century computer jokes right?

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Star trek made me gay

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MARTIN QUINN as Montgomery "Scotty" Scott in Star Trek: Strange New Worlds 3.02