thestarseersystem

[thestarseersystem]

problematic alter culture is wanting to kill people who have the same kin as you or kins a character you introjected from. THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE! AND IT'S ME!

weirdly enough, introjects of the same character trigger me way less.

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[thestarseersystem]

For your own sanity, always take mixed signals as a no

[thestarseersystem]

Putting the belief that some bodily functions are evil and wrong onto a child

Purity culture

Treating a child as sinful for not being a perfect child

Overprotection or sheltering of a child

Negative financial situations, like growing up poor, or made to focus on how bad things are from a young age

Having things thrown away as a child will lead to fear of losing things as an adult

Trying to make a child stop crying or to stay happy all the time

Divorce situations

Casual reminder that the following things are considered traumatic to small children

- neglect (physical and/or emotional)

- living in an emotionally unstable environment (for example, having parents that fight often)

- any kind of physical, emotional, or sexual abuse (not just from parents)

- consistent bullying

- etc

Remember that what is traumatic to a child is not the same as what is traumatic to you now. So think again before saying your trauma ‘isn’t bad enough’

[thestarseersystem]

Gender-related Flags For Alters!

These flags are for CDD (complex dissociative disorder) systems ONLY. Do NOT use if you are a "non-disordered system", endogenic, or an endo supporter. Systemhood is part of a mental disorder, not an identity you can adopt.

I saw someone make a post very similar to the content in this one, and I cannot for the life of me find the post again to credit them for this idea -- but this is not my original idea These flags are gender-related terms for alters in a DID/OSDD system. These terms only relate to alters in a system, and the way they present in the innerworld.

Female Formed Alter: an alter who formed as female and identifies as female/feminine, when the body is not female. This alter does not identify as transfeminine, but cannot identify as cis.

Male Formed Alter: an alter who formed as male and identifies as male/masculine, when the body is not male. This alter does not identify as transmasculine, but cannot identify as cis.

Nonbinary Formed Alter: an alter who formed as nonbinary in the innerworld and identifies as nonbinary, however does not identify as trans.

Genderfluid Formed Alter: an alter whose gender or sex characteristics within the innerworld are fluid, or fluctuates.

Bigender Formed Alter: an alter who formed having two genders or multiple sex characteristics in the innerworld, and identifies as bigender.

Genderless Alter: an alter who formed genderless in the innerworld and identifies as genderless.

Transgender Alter: an alter who formed as one gender, but later transitioned to another gender. This can also include: an alter who formed as a different gender from the body, but later transitioned to that same gender; an alter who identifies as the same gender as the host/body, but has conflicting or opposing sex characteristics in the innerworld.

All of these flags can be found as emojis in my server

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i always circle back to this but i think im forever partially a little, or doomed to live my life 5 steps behind everyone else. like im an ageslider, most alters are agesliders or ageless, or just genuine littles, and most alters in my system have a little counterpart. and no matter what, i get treated like a child, i experience nsfw agere (because ive been hypersexual since i was bodily 5 years old and unfortunately that means i get to have sexual intrusive thoughts in a little headspace), and i have BPD which makes me even more immature and involuntarily childlike.

i cant change it. im forever forced to live life feeling more immature, more childlike, and more inferior to everyone around me, and its insane. its part of why im a nonhuman vampire alter. my substitute belief is that if vampires age slower than humans, it would make sense if i was a vampire that aged slower, and is more childlike, than other people.

it sucks. this is just forever who i am. and i hate when people say "you can't interact with adult things when you are a little", and shit like that. shit that forces other systems to comply or they get cancelled and harassed.

im partially, forever partially a little, and im an eternal child. but everyday i punish and hate myself for it, and abuse myself repeatedly. because it's not normal. i don't deserve anything. i repeatedly tell myself i deserve to be used, assaulted, belittled, scolded, betrayed, abandoned, looked down upon, isolated, trapped, restrained, hurt. It's not fun. I relate to so many child characters that are in horror games. Because the horrible things they go through and what happens to them, feels like stuff that's happened to me.

So no. Systems like me, systems with littles like mine don't have a healthy relationship with childhood. They don't see childhood things as quite happy. They aren't happy or excited or soft or sweet when they are involuntarily small. Because that was the time they were traumatized the most. We are survivors of childhood trauma. That means terrible things happened to us. Scary, terrible things. We aren't going to be like regular children, and we aren't going to be able to escape it.

For us, childhood wasn't happiness and rainbows, even if our brain pretends that it was. It was a horror game, terrifying, lonely and disturbing. I feel so disturbing. Forced to relive the abuse over and over again, forced to face the trauma memories over and over again. Until it becomes all mixed together. It's like our trauma was a game, a sick joke, a dream turned nightmare.

So being a little is horrifying for us and it won't go away. So please stop acting like every system is the same when it's not.

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This [noun]...

[alter/system/subsystem] displays BPD traits

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Being a system with BPD is such a trip cause wdym I have a favorite person? Who is that? Why do I hate everyone else they speak to? Why do the other alters get so obsessed with them? Why am I angry? Am I angry? When did I start liking all the things this other person likes? Who's emotions are these? Do I dislike my body due to the DID or is my BPD acting extra weird today? Wait now I'm crying? When did I go to my room? What day is it? What time is it? Who am I? Why am I dressed like this? Who is screaming? Where did this headache come from?

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Hey, hey, I just wanted to say that its totally okay if you cant celebrate your birthday, because it isn't the same date as the bodys b-day.

You could celebrate on your own and make special cards for each other, you could take one big drawing and every year the b-day kid/teen/adult can add something. You could choose new clothes and buy 'em and decide what to do on your own for the whole day ^^

There are many ways to have a special day without others having to know about your DID/OSDD1 and we think celebrating and having rituals are so so great for a healthy system/ collective ^^

-Foxy, Ari

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need to post system things but im too dissociated to exist so. . . ya......

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Maybe unpopular opinion BUT most of your littles should be able to take care of themselves and if they cant a caretaker NEEDS to be in front with them. Also the pressure to take care of your little(s) should never be put on another system without proper boundaries and communication. drops mic.

- kyle 🧃

[thestarseersystem]

contrary to popular belief and to online fakeclaimers, DID is a lot more inclusive than you think it is. It may not make much sense because its internally and externally complex, but most symptoms that people discuss and have and aren't sure are real or not, are common issues and symptoms within the community. People just like to gatekeep the hell out of DID, because its "rare" and "special" and all that bullshit. Most people with severe dissociative symptoms are going to have a severe dissociative disorder, probably multiple of them.

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all it is. all anyone is... is "this includes you, this includes you, this includes you", "this is a complicated process for this", "this happens because of this, so this includes you", "this is a common issue and well discussed thing among the community, so you're this", etc. etc.

Like if you think anti-endos hate you, some probably do because they're frustrated as hell, but most don't. Most want to just combat misinformation, and tell you that endogenic labels are arbitrary as hell. Most shit about DID includes you, it does. It's not as exclusive or exclusionary as you think it is. We just don't like you using inaccurate terminology. That's it.

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guys whats the word for crazily writing repeatedly and feeling increasingly anxious/overwhelmed. like it feels like how mania is read but apparently manic episodes are euphoric and this is the opposite of that.

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sometimes life is sad and you just want to bawl your eyes out

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chat i have bpd and one of my gatekeeper alters views me as an FP.

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“fake disorder cringe” has us losing our mind so we're going to just say a few things:

systems can have alters younger (and older) than their bodily age.

systems can have nonhuman alters and introjects from controversial or modern-day medias.

systems can have alters that aren't the same gender as the body or use different labels.

systems can have high alter counts.

systems can want to change their appearance (using wigs, makeup, fake piercings, etc) depending on who is fronting.

systems can post about their personal experiences with their disorder and be open about having the disorder.

systems can have a complex headspace or no headspace at all.

systems can have varying degrees of dissociation and memory loss.

systems are not always aware of who is fronting or who they are.

systems can refer to their alters as anything they feel comfortable with, whether it be alters, headmates, parts, or even something like rats.

systems can realize they're a system at an early age or be unaware/in denial for a long time.

systems can go to parties, drink, smoke, and do “normal” things that singlets do.

system alters can have positive triggers.

systems can have times where their alters rapidly switch or their fronting room is crowded/overwhelming.

system alters can have varying levels of communication with other alters.

i shouldn't even have to say this one, but systems can have dyed hair??

tldr: if you don't have the disorder, don't speak on it. fake-claiming does more harm than good.

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Stamp 11: I'm a system!! Airi Momoi

Stamp number: 11

Date posted (OP's timezone): April 3rd 2025

Character: Airi Momoi

Unit: More More Jump!

Next character is listed in blog description!