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I’m ready

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don't worry I'd leave too. I'm way too much to handle. <3

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I just need a friend but I know I don’t deserve one because I’m not in a good place mentally to be a good friend.

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everything you love is here

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Pain

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Not ppl asking me if I’m okay knowing damn well I’m not

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An Emotional Dump ✨cringey✨ (tw: suicide)

I need to learn how to accept that some things are out of my control. But honestly what do I do if I need these things 2 survive. I want to know how to obtain them but I know I never will. I always feel like death is my only option because I am sick. My mind is literally diseased with an incurable virus. All the time I think to myself, “what did I do 2 deserve this?” I must’ve of done something wrong. Can you change fate? Living like this is no way to live. Sometimes I think, “why can’t anyone see how much I’m suffering?”Why can’t anyone help me? It is my entitlement speaking. No one is obligated to help me. It is the responsibility of no one to look after me. After all, do I help anyone with their suffering? To be honest, I would say yes but some may argue that it is my entitlement narcissism speaking. Yes, everyone has problems, but mine are killing me. What is wrong with me? I just want an explanation. I want a truthful answer not one filled with bs. I want an answer that makes sense. I really really really want to believe that you can change destiny. I want to believe this so bad but I don’t think this is true. I don’t have much time left and I can’t do this any longer. I want need the truth. Something is wrong & no matter how hard I try I can’t fix it. I fear growing to become bitter, a leech, a parasite, or a vampire to those around me (I won’t let that happen tho). Someone please help me.

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The realization that things really won’t get better really sucks...

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Its suicide time. I’m feeling very suicidal.

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“I am so fucking sad. How is it possible to feel so much pain?”

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"They say every life's precious, but nobody care about mine".

Logic, "1-800-273-8255"

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Once again I’m feeling ✨suicidal✨

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Its suicide time. I’m feeling very suicidal.

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Sleep // Citizen