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rsd be like

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very specific to me but yeah

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does somebody ever say smthin abt ur hyperfix offhandedly, n its smthin like “yea its overrated but still good” and ur brain IMMEDIATELY goes “so what I’M hearing is that u want me to shut up abt this and never speak of it again” even tho u KNOW thats not what they’re saying.

doesn’t even acknowledge the ‘still good’ part, just goes straight to “overrated = you want me to shut up abt it Forever”

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yknow what it might not be much but im fuckin proud of myself for eating healthier.

i don’t regularly drink soda anymore. it’s either water, zero fat/low fat milk, juice, or sparkling water.

chips? also extremely rare now. i like cashews, dried fruit, or low-cal options better.

i still love broccoli! i don’t get to eat it regularly but i still like it. i haven’t experimented with veggies a lot, so idk what i like, but i’m figuring it out.

sugary cereals? no. cheerioes and special-k are good enough for me, yknow, ‘adult’ cereals.

candy? the only candy in the house is the shit my gma likes, and i hate that stuff, so i haven’t had candy in forever. sure, a little chocolate here and there, but that’s it.

i also take walks when i get the chance, which is pretty often. it all depends whether i’m up or not, since i don’t like going in the afternoon or at night. kinda difficult to get up early at like 5 and wait til 6 or 7 to go, but its worth it.

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oh my god i hate men so much sometimes. you’ll see shit like “woman: hey this isnt a great way to teach ur kid n then you have 50 men in the replies going ‘UHHHM ASCHSTUALLY, THIS IS A GREAT WAY TO TEACH UR KID BECAUSE UHHHHHHHHHHH IT TEACHES THEM INDEPENDENCE HURGHGBGH’ “

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me this coming monday on the phone with my prescriber hoping she doesnt notice that the common denominator between all the depression/adhd/anxiety meds i wanna try is that they have weight loss as a side effect

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is2g none of u bitches can be positive abt anything. one (1) good thing happens and ur all on it like “WELL ACTUALLY HERES 100+ TERRIBLE THINGS THAT’LL HAPPEN BC OF THIS PLUS 100 MORE TERRIBLE THINGS THAT AREN’T EVEN RELATED”, like shut the fuck up oh my GOD yall are unbearable.

good shit happens n yall cant let anybody have that, can u? always some negative shit with you fuckin pessimists. yall ever been outside??? been happy??? seen the sun maybe???

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hi my name is [redacted] and my greatest wish is that someday, my mom will tell me “its okay that you dont have a job yet” and not add anything on after that.

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time 2 beat myself up over smthin i could not have known abt without being told!

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me up @ 4 in the mornin thinkin very hard abt smthin that makes me upset n anxious, even tho ik its bad for me, but i cant seem 2 stop bc my anxiety latched onto it

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tbh i’ve been considerin goin off my depression meds bc one of the side effects is extreme weight gain/loss (and we all fuckin know im not losin any weight on it). either that or i wanna switch to smthin else that doesn’t make me so fuckin. big. mnkJH

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someone: what do you want to be for Halloween?

me: loved and appreciated

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sure do wish i loved myself

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me in bed trying to convince myself that i’m still worthy of love, even though i just lost my shit over something trivial

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i had a 4 day period a couple of weeks ago where i absolutely loathed my body n couldn’t stand to see it, n i actually got very close to making a blog to interact with p.ro-ed blogs to get advice. my main problem areas are my neck n stomach btw, everything else is fine, but i hate those two the most lol. but guess who’s thinkin abt doin it again!!!

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