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Me before shower: Hot water is bad place.

Me in shower: i lied. Shower is the only good left in the world.

Me after shower: the world is cruel and cold. I hate shower.

I only shower like once a week but only because once I'm in the shower I somehow forget that a world outside of the shower exists. Like. I'm just lost in the shower for an uncertain amount of time everytime.

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Maxim Steklyanov by Nicholas Efimcev

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I want to be a pretty boy too..

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i shouldnt be allowed on tumblr when im having a breakdown cause i be like "i wnana fucking die" and 10 minutes later im laughing at a meme that just says "beans"

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deep asks that get uncomfortably personal

what’s the best advice you’ve ever been given?

what is your preferred method of non-physical self destruction?

what is your favorite way to self care?

tell me about your most vivid memory, good or bad.

if anything, what would you change about your childhood?

what is something that you’ve always wanted to do but have never been able to do?

what is your fatal flaw?

what is something that gets to you that you wish wouldn’t?

do you cry? why or why not?

tell me about an insecurity you overcame.

tell me about your last failed friendship.

who do you wish you could connect with but haven’t been able to connect with?

what can make you excessively angry?

do you enjoy being lightheartedly teased? why or why not?

do you prefer to be numb or overly emotional? why?

what is a skill or talent you’ve completely lost or overlooked? why did that happen?

what was your favorite color as a child and what is your favorite color now?

what is something you can’t bring yourself to get rid of?

tell me something you don’t like telling the people you are close to.

tell me what you think others think about you.

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250. 240. 230. 220. 215. 210. 205. 200. 195. 190. 185. 180. 175. 170. 165. 160. 155. 150. 145. 140. 135. 130. 125. 120. 115. 110.

James (He/they), Candace (she/her), Alexis (she/her), Kody (he/him), Axel (it/its), Void (He/it).

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....this is gonna sound weird but how long did/do yall plan to live to?

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mfs will be in the worst mental state of their life and still make sure everyone around them is okay

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Because I ALWAYS assign colors to my mutuals in my head and want to know if other folks do this too I have a game:

Reblog this with the color you associate with the person you reblogged this from. 

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... my partner said i don't look like myself being this fat.

She doesn't recognize me.

That counts as meanspo right?

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Does anyone else draw their own thinspo is is that just me?

Like... i have such a SPECIFIC aethstetic... guess i gotta make my own

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I say i'm tired because saying i wish i didn't exist isn't socially acceptable.

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It’s a weird feeling, when you lie so often about your Ed, you start believing the lies.

“Yes I ate (insert literally any food here) and it was so good”

“I’ll eat leftovers later”

“I’ll meet up with you guys after dinner, I have some work to finish up”

“I must be dehydrated, don’t know why else I am so lightheaded”

“the bruises? Must have run into the coffee table”

“I couldn’t eat it because it went bad, what a bummer”

“sorry I’m allergic”

But, at the end of the day, I feel more guilty for eating than for lying.

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*looks at thinspo while waiting for my doordash to arrive*