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I had bought a Powerball ticket a month ago. Seemed like I lost. Then I decided to manifest that it actually won. Took me a week to relook at the ticket...I just did today and won 500million 😭😭😭 it's like 200million after taxes.

I literally just decided. I don't know how to explain it. I didn't affirm or persist...just simply made the decision and stuck with it 😭😭😭 not even like a forcing, but just like with any decision??

Im in shock and speechless honestly. This was my ultimate dream. The only manifestation I wanted for a while tbh. There was a billion dollar Powerball jackpot the last time I played that I wanted to win but didn't. This time I just changed outcome regardless of what I initially saw.

I don't even know what to do right now lol. Like I took 50 pictures of myself with the winning ticket. I want to claim it as a trust anonymously so I haven't put my name on it or anything. Im looking up bespoke financial lawyers right now to get the ball rolling. I'm just still in so much shock. I had to share somewhere and Ive been on LOA, Shifting, non duality tumblr since 2022!!! This was the only thing I focused on for 3 YEARS. Ofc my self concept too. And honestly this didn't have to take so long???? Like literally just allow the decision to made yall😭😭😭😭 you can even cry about doubting or being scared, but it's literally the decision that counts. Like you decide you need to go to school, you cry on the way to school, but you still went to class. Maybe not the best metaphor lol. You literally dont even need to shift or go to the void is my point. This shit is NORMAL. Reality is indeed stranger than fiction. What you decide IS. It's not even conciousness or whatever. It's the center of your mind and body or awareness? Idk how to explain it. There can be a bunch if noise that seems to be inside and outside of you. But theres a spot in your being that just DECIDES what your experience is. This is what/who you are truly!!!!!!!🤑💸💰

Ill be your powerball anon. I may not come back after this ask. But maybe I will to hype other folks up.

Love you all so much. Life is infinite and eternal. There is no need to worry and even if you do no need to worry about worry. It's the center of your being that counts!!!!

i LOVE this powerball anon!! <3

thank you so much for sharing, its nice to see such positive energy surrounding all of this. and youre right, theres no need for any special techniques, no need to go to the void, etc etc. its all right here, right now!

i hope this story can help to encourage others~

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hildegard von bingen wrote “we cannot live in a world that is interpreted for us by others. an interpreted world is not a home. part of the terror is to take back our own listening. to use our own voice. to see our own light.” she wrote part of the terror is to take back our own listening 

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hi it’s me maple anon 🍁

it was such a blessing to hear back from you! but I have come with a question..👀

how do you get rid of constant need for validation and reassurance from others.

like on social media it’s always like “oh no I’m not on their close story I’ve done something wrong!” Or “oh no I’m the only one sending videos and texting first I must be desperate!” it’s stressful and hurts my head! I just wanna be offline on social media as much without truly abandoning my online friends ;’( need to balance that! but that feeling sinks in like “oh no nobodies texting me im such a loser!” “I have to be cooler and always make people text me first”

it’s life consuming truly truly!!

what would you do? (^_^)> wishing u a happy day

hi maple <3

tbh, youre using your friends as an excuse to keep living this life in hell uwu the issue is, if you really wanna get off social media, you can still chat with your internet friends in less toxic ways. for example, anytime ive wanted to take a break from tumblr, i just asked my friends on here to text me on discord and it worked out perfectly fine!

so find a solution, theres plenty of ways to keep chatting with your internet friends while respecting anonymity! and let yourself finally be free. the thing is here, if you keep going back to the old ways, how do you expect yourself to show up new?

sooo… you gotta be ready to move forward and if youre not, youll keep living like this :’) you have to be ready, or not ready really, but willing to finally let go and start again

wishing you a happy day as well <3

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HI DREAM!! I Missed ur posts it’s me 🍁anon!

I just wanted to see what’s up! What have you been up too : )

hiiii 🍁 anon, i missed you!! uwu

right now, i am in paris and someone across the way is playing ‘la vie en rose’… it is the french way of saying, i am looking at the world through rose colored glasses, and it says everything i feel…

haha, thats a line from of my favorite ever movies, sabrina (1954) and whilst its not exactly the truth, it is somewhat. i’m on a trip abroad right now, its my last night, and writing to you with the two big doors open on the balcony, listening to the noises of the outside world. and yes there is music, but its like… house music. so its not really giving but. you get my point HAHA

anyways, just imagine me as sabrina, writing this letter to you <3

i hope youre well! for me personally, ive just been taking this year one day at a time. theres not much new with me really, more than anything ive just been trying to stay offline this year and find inspiration from myself and the world around me. which isnt so easy when sometimes i just wanna lay down and scroll :D lmfao but this trip has been utterly refreshing for me, and im happy to be going back home tomorrow to reunite with my loved ones (im a solo trip) and carry the musings from this trip with me <3

ah yeah, and ive been reading a lot. right now im reading, fried green tomatoes at the whistle stop cafe and its truly darling! one of the best books ive read in years, actually.

thanks for popping in and wondering about me,,

xoxo

💌☁️🦢🫧

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can you speak more on your relationship with God?

personally, i kind of combine both faith and manifesting. not in the traditional sense but if i want something, i pray and then i let it go knowing that everything is working out for me bc God is taking care of it.

idk it feels relieving knowing that i don't have to correct my thoughts or emotions and leave it all up to a higher power that i can trust. i believe that my will is God's will, so i know things will go my way regardless of my thoughts emotions or the circumstances. this way i'm able to enjoy and focus more on the present moment knowing that everything's been taken care of.

sure ! tbh, i feel like it's so personal. its such a sweet thing, you know ? for me, honestly, i really mainly see myself as god's child. these verses in the bible: john 10:30 and john 14:28 combined say, "my father and i are one, but my father is greater than i" and this is how i understand it. i know that god is within me, when i turn within and find the kingdom of heaven that's where god waits for me. but for my human self, sometimes it feels too much of a burden to say "YOU are god" and so, when i know that god is part of me, but my father is greater than i, then i can rest. i can relax because i know i am taken care of and i don't have to try to fix my life or try to be in control. so really, my relationship with god is one of trust, tbh. if i could put it in one word it would be trust. and love. so two words. lol pure love, i know that with god there is the purest love.

to me, faith and manifesting are one in the same. we cannot speak of god, and try to deattach from the spiritual at the same time. i tried to do that in the beginning of my journey and it only produced pain for me.

i feel the same, when i know its god working the magic, not my human self, i can enjoy each moment. i can trust in my life. i'm not worried about keeping a state or affirming something to be true, it already is, because god lives in my heart and that's where everything is true. when it comes to wanting something, i don't know, i kind of just set that intention and let it be what it may. what dreams may come, i will allow them and accept them. (i literally have that phrase written on my headboard hahah) i like to pray, but i pray to connect to myself in a moment, to pause and say thank you. and wow. prayer literally works WONDERS. i didn't used to, but i started recently because i just had a feeling to.

xo

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There is a very simple secret to being happy. Just let go of your demand on this moment. Any time you have a demand on the moment to give you something or remove something, there is suffering. Your demands keep you chained to the dream state of conditioned mind. The problem is that when there is a demand, you completely miss what is now. Letting go applies to the highest sacred demand, and even to the demand for love. If you demand in some subtle way to be loved, even if you get love, it is never enough. In the next moment, the demand reasserts itself, and you need to be loved again. But as soon as you let go, there is knowing in that instant that there is love here already. The mind is afraid to let go of its demand because the mind thinks that if it lets go, it is not going to get what it wants - as if demanding works. This is not the way things work. Stop chasing peace and stop chasing love, and your heart becomes full. Stop trying to be a better person, and you are a better person. Stop trying to forgive, and forgiveness happens. Stop and be still.

Emptiness Dancing

Adyashanti

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hellooo…ten times again sorry if I’m like the main asker 🍁😭😭!

I just have some questions!

what do you think of Buddhism?

when your anxious for the future or the possibility of something bad happening to you what do you do?

What are your opinions on Taoism?

how do you truly feel okay and let go? How do you stop thinking of the thing you fear?

lastly how do you get out of paranoid thinking habits , for me it’s always.. if I stop worrying about it something bad will happen..

much love 💗

hiii sweetie hehe

no worries, its always a joy to hear from you

i think buddhism is very beautiful, & i grew up learning about many buddhist teachings

i think in those moments, its sometimes really hard to escape them until they cloud you entirely and all you can think to do is doomscroll to stop the thoughts hahah ive been there a lot, but i think in those moments maybe finding something refreshing to get your mind off of the thing, to remind you that theres a whole world out there outside of your mind

i love, i mean LOVE taoism. the tao of pooh is a book that really touched me

i think to truly feel okay and let go, you need to keep at it every moment you remember to. it takes time, patience, & compassion. i think the best way you stop thinking of the thing you fear the most is basically exposure therapy. at least from my experience, this has been the most helpful thing, although it is also the most uncomfortable.

and i understand that feeling, you feel like you have a sense of control. the thing is that you dont, and you have to allow yourself to let go of control so that you can truly gain it

soooo much love 💗

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An Oresteia (Agamemnon), Anne Carson

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hello! It’s once again maple anon! 🍁

I was just curious about this!, do you believe in karma? Like when others hurt others they get what they deserve ?

hiii <3

eh, no, not really, tbh. because i guess, we dont even know what they "deserve" we dont decide it, if that makes sense. i also found in my experience, that the more i wanted someone to get their karma, the more i couldnt wait for them to feel the pain they brought me, the more it seemed like their life kept going in a wonderful direction LMFAO. and at the end of the day, i was the only miserable one. so in that way... i guess if karma is real or not really doesnt matter, but more so focusing on yourself and giving yourself what you deserve. when we carry around those heavy feelings, we usually are only tainting our own lives, not anyone elses.

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Hi babe, love ur blog

How do I get rid of logic, 3d and limiting beliefs? Because I want to manifest a good love life. And I also want to attract a lot of good looking guys but when I am in the same place as them I feel less or I see them very unattainable and it happens that they don't look at me. And I struggle with this constant fight, I will go for the first time to a discotheque where there will be hundreds of handsome men and I don't want to go because I feel that they will be unreachable, besides they won't look at me or they won't pay attention to me and they will to the others.

hiii thank u <3

for this type of issue it really starts with how you feel about yourself. youre already deciding how theyre gonna see you before you even go out there, you dont even give yourself the chance. so what you should be focusing more in this type of situation is your own self confidence and self love. once youve worked on that, youll be able to go out there and not be so afraid of rejection, and be OPEN to allowing others to look your way. bc at this moment, youre not open to it all. youve fully blocked it off as a possibility, making it difficult to achieve what youre hoping to achieve.

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hello dream i hope you're well <3

if this ask is too much for a response or you simply don't want to, i apologise in advance for sending it

a week or so back i had a realization that even if not in direct self realization, i don't want to wallow in suffering and self pity anymore as clearly it didn't get me anywhere these years. and i was genuinely happy and almost at peace with the present, and my heart was light. but an incident happened a few days back and it triggered bone deep convictions of being unloved and an unwelcome presence on earth (dramatic as it sounds) mainly because of trauma. i've been thinking: what is feeling my emotions in the moment vs wallowing in it? i've given it these few days but it still keeps haunting me. what would be your advice for people with prolonged/childhood trauma to let go of their past and be more mindful and present? any practical, daily applicable tips?

thank u and sending love 🤍

hiii <3

never apologize!! im sorry its taken me some time to respond <3 but youre always welcome here

i think at some point you have to transition to indifference, in those moments. its good to feel it, to feel it all and to let yourself have that moment. but then, at some point, youre right. you do have to begin to move forward. i have found the best way is through indifference, because you dont have to deny that its still there, that you still feel it. but you allow yourself that peace of moving forward anyway. i have a post going more in depth about the practice of indifference here <3

this is truly the way, because its true that those traumas may come back up to haunt you, but there is always space for them to do so, without it meaning youre totally off track or falling behind. you have to realize its your body's way of being, for a long, long time. its going to revert... however you get to choose how you move on from that, in each moment.

i hope this is helpful!! sending you SO much love right back. 💓 i hope youre well now

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dear dream it’s me maple anon 🍁

I wanted to thank you forever , you’ve honestly helped me through my toughest times. my breakup my friend break ups accepting change and affirmations.

I just wanted to thank you so much I guess my honest question is

How do you accept things into your life? how do you not resist change and know regardless everything will be alright despite it all, how do you know deep down things get better?

I aspire to be like you, you’re my biggest inspiration in life.

hiii 🍁 <3

to know it deep down, takes a long and consistent dedicated practice of choosing that in every moment you can. if sometimes you forget, its okay, when you remember again choose to lean into that belief, into that truth. the more you live like that, the easier it gets until its simply natural. whenever you forget, you can always find yourself again. thats the beauty in it.

thank you SO much for such sweet words!! im truly glad ive been able to help you so much on this journey~ 💗

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♡ my year of rest & return ♡

a little catch up w/ me & blog update 2025!

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hi lovelies~ i havent been very active on this blog for maybe like 2 years now! its truly been hectic, & i'd love to catch up with yall and give you some insight on what i plan to do with this blog in the future~

firstly, thank you to everyone who's stayed with me all these years, & to those who have found me recently too! i love yall, from the bottom of my heart, forever & ever (´,,•ω•,,)♡

the past two years ive been traveling, A LOT, accomplishing something that i never thought i would. i've gotten to see so many beautiful countries & meet so many beautiful people on my travels. i even moved to a new country~ (y así llevo 2 años estudiando español y es un idioma q me encanta con todo mi corazón <3) through all of that though, it was pretty hectic, with constantly traveling i found myself always thrown into new situations (which i love!) but slowly, it also became very taxing on my mind, body, & soul. without realizing, constantly being on the go & not having enough time to just be puts a lot of stress on the inner world, because so much of your time is concentrated on the outer. i also found people in my life that i could talk to about anything, and i spent less time with myself like in the past, and more time relying on those around me. it was a beautiful moment in my life, because its one that the version of me who started this journey in 2020 never would have imagined could happen.

but, with that, i recognize there now calls for a return to the basics, a return to the breath, of the slowness of a passing day and the seduction of a moment that feels so eternal, so sweet & full of temptation.

i thought about how, through my constant trips, i lost an element for patience and found myself feeling more of "whats next? whats next?" an urgent need, a pull to have to be ready for the next thing. i became trapped in the prison of time, because time is of the essence, i need to do these things now, before time runs out. it was so gradual, so sneaky, so quiet that i didn't notice it at first. but the more the urgency snuck into the backdoor of my mind, the more it slowly plagued my mind, until it was my new way of being. it felt so natural, i hadnt even noticed it. when you live from that place of urgency, from anxiety, there's always a bittersweetness in every move you make.

if you feel as though something needs to happen now, or else, it most definitely can wait till later. its the little way the need for control, the ego blinds you into forcing your life, rather than allowing it flow. you can always try and make something happen. but from experience, when you allow life to happen, to take you on the journey, it's truly 100x better than if you had forced it yourself. there's magic on every corner like that. ☆*:.｡.

i still plan to travel this year (just a lil less tho!), its just part of my heart now. tell me, if you've ever been – or if you live in south america, where are your favorite places there? ٩(｡•́‿•̀｡)۶ i'd love your suggestions ♡

that being said, i'd never delete this blog, even if i went entirely inactive, so there's never any need to worry about that. more than anything, this blog is truly an archive of my personal journal, my field notes, from start till now~ for that reason, i could never delete this treasure trove of memories and self-help that i've gathered over all these years ☆彡

my passion truly lies in writing and reaching out to others through what i write, sharing my truth through my writing, and hoping that what i've discovered & what i've felt & experienced can expand out like a much-needed hug for those who find it~ 𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡

that being said, i'm excited to spend more time again on this blog, to be able to reply to your asks in a more-timely manner (♡) and continue sharing my personal experiences as little fairy drops of hope and compassion, for anyone needing a little stardust in their life ♫•*¨*•.¸¸♪

i also have some fun lil projects ive been working on inspired by yalls requests & my passion for the themes that i've dedicated this blog to for the past years, so look forward to that!

with so much love & well wishes to you all,

xoxo dream 💌 🫧

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i am currently…

ᡣ𐭩 watching: demon slayer ☆

ᡣ𐭩 reading: one hundred years of solitude by gabriel garcía márquez

ᡣ𐭩 listening to: debí tirar más fotos ♪ bad bunny

ᡣ𐭩 drinking: green tea

ᡣ𐭩 eating: fresh strawberries from the local market