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my favourite thing about canes goalie situation is that we have two total opposite of goalies atm. we have mr serious freddie andersen and in comparison to that batshit crazy pyotr kochetkov

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Jesperi Kotkaniemi | vs Sabres | 02.27.25

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Tweet of the day!

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avs fans who follow the canes bc of Mikko learning about our chaos goalie is so funny. Like yeah our beat reporter had a running tally of how many times he’s dropped his stick. He wants to fight someone. He’s my baby girl

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Yeah

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CELEBRATING FREDDIE 🎉 JANUARY 30, 2025

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girls don’t want to work. girls want to wake up next to the love of their life, have slow mornings, spend their days reading under the sun, teaching herself a new skill, baking, collecting flowers, raising her babies, using the sauna, getting cozy, taking relaxing baths, having date nights with her man, laughing & loving a lot.

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Galloping horses in the mist by Sofie

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some of u aren’t carrying a constant yearning for love that consumes u and that must be nice

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You know the problem with reading a book? You get hooked and then it ends and you feel sad

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— Daphne du Maurier

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Freaks your honour

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Keep your heart to yourself, give your soul to the night… Come to me when you're lonely… Come to me when you need something new… — Fright Night (1985), Come to Me

BRAM STOKER'S DRACULA (1992) INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE (2022—) NOSFERATU (2024)

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yeah

The early nights are confusing for the soul, but the forced retirement might do me some good. We went to a dance party. We were the youngest ones there and it was beautiful watching people a decade older than me find joy in nostalgia. I loved Anora. I miss New Jersey. I have been making Christmas ornaments by hand for my future family. I have been taking care of my mother. She has good days and bad. All of this in the few moments between the work and the work and the work. Confetti shot out of a Canon once the crowd already left the building. I feel as though it was all for nothing. It’s a dry, cold, itch. Maybe I’ll hide again until a tour when the sun comes back. Maybe I won’t make a sound. Maybe I’ll sleep. Maybe I’ll choose different this time with my restart to zero, my bonus life I pulled from a box. And pull from a box with a needle every 3 weeks. Maybe maybe maybe. Maybe I fixed everything so I could do this one thing again, without realizing that one thing was what needed fixing. I am tired and I forgot how to have fun. I complain too much and I should keep it to myself, I’ve been told a lot the past few weeks. But the thing is that I can’t. I have an unrelenting ache and a never ending whine that must crank out of me like a tornado siren in the dark. That’s what’s been wrong with me the entire time, couldn’t they see? I’ve always needed to be seen to exist. But now they don’t see me, and I’m still existing. Perhaps, problem solved. Regrettably.

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i loved one direction with an all-consuming force when i was younger. it hurts deeply to mourn someone you were a massive fan of as teenager, and became a peer of as an adult.

i know people change and grief is unsure or complicated when it’s attached to a fond memory or the feeling a person gave you and not tangibly the person themself. i can see many of you on here are struggling with that right now and i understand.

a few years ago i purchased a home that Liam previously owned. there were rumors the house was haunted. He assured me it was not, and i believed him. because i know the ghosts that haunt us aren’t tethered to buildings. They live in parts of us that are harder to reach and they go wherever we do.

as a parent, a fellow artist, and a fan, i simply cannot fathom this untimely loss. my heart goes out to his family, friends, and the fans. 💔

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