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i love how theres no rules for pronouncing words in English, you literally just have to learn and hear someone say every single word

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some of me most loved man fits

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A lot of people online follow a sort of "template" with DID, including making parts lists, using pluralkit or otherwise always having it known who's fronting, and being very openly a system all the time, among other things.

And this isn't wrong! But it's also far from the majority. Many people with DID, myself included, treat our DID differently. However, since the folks above are the ones most actively and openly posting online, it can feel like that's how everyone experiences DID. That was really overwhelming for me when I first got my diagnosis, because I didn't relate to the way a lot of people acted and thought.

My biggest advice for folks who either are diagnosed or are considering whether they have a dissociative disorder, or any other disorder really, is to take time for yourself first. Figure out independently what works best for you and your system. The internet will still be here. The community will still be here. Peer pressure isn't always a conscious thing. You can feel the pressure all by yourself.

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“Sometimes it scares me how much I think about going out for a walk, and never coming home. How willing I am to leave everything I have, and everyone I know.”

— s.m

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did you let me die in your arms in the timeloop

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going to start researching sheep breeds that are like endangered or need conservation and then seek out their wool to use, preferably buying directly from the herders, so i can support them

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I hate when I say things like "oh I want an ipod classic but with bluetooth so I can use wireless headphones" and some peanut comes in and replies with "so a smartphone with spotify?" No. I want a 160GB+ rectangular monstrosity where I can download every version of every song I want to it and it does nothing except play music and I don't need a data connection and don't have to pay a subscription to not have ads and don't have popups suggesting terrible AI playlists all over the menus.

Gimme the clicky wheel and song titles like "My Chemical Romance- The Black Parade- Blood (Bonus Track)- secret track- album rip- high quality"

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As tiring as all this shit is, I can't in good faith continue to use spotify.

For anyone else jumping ship, I used to exportify.app to save my favorite playlists.

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Skip Google for Research

As Google has worked to overtake the internet, its search algorithm has not just gotten worse.  It has been designed to prioritize advertisers and popular pages often times excluding pages and content that better matches your search terms 

As a writer in need of information for my stories, I find this unacceptable.  As a proponent of availability of information so the populace can actually educate itself, it is unforgivable.

Below is a concise list of useful research sites compiled by Edward Clark over on Facebook. I was familiar with some, but not all of these.

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Google is so powerful that it “hides” other search systems from us. We just don’t know the existence of most of them. Meanwhile, there are still a huge number of excellent searchers in the world who specialize in books, science, other smart information. Keep a list of sites you never heard of.

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.pdfdrive.com is the largest website for free download of books in PDF format. Claiming over 225 million names.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free

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Beware!

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i feel scared because im worried things are getting worse for gay people in the church. and i feel scared because i am worried about the political climate. but there is love and love is warm. thinking about the image of the menorah in the window after kristallnacht i think. i will take care of my friends. i will make art and dance and teach little children to love each other

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im good i think. we're good right? i feel small and broken but god made me sorta fractured cus we've been like this since we were small and we felt so bad about it always

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i feel guilty even though it's stuff that a isn't that big of a deal b i didn't even do. i feel like im bad too not that gail and sterling and c are bad cus theyre not but i feel like a bad person and im scared

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i can be trusted with butterfly knife

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Being plural is like

Woah I’m glad that breakdown is over, I hope no one saw that.

The fucking Grinch: Yeah

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I'm tired and im tired of being brave. i hurt. i cant do the things that i love. i have no money and im worried i will never get anywhere and that i will be stuck forever. i dont want to be sick the rest of my life i want to be strong and happy and i cant have that. i dont want to miss people forever. i want to be good enough. i want to believe. i want to dance and i cant. i feel like a failure and i feel physically broken and spiritually cracked. i am lonely and i wish my burdens did not weigh on other people. i am weary