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Richard Siken, From Crush; “Wishbone”

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a little personal response / tribute to "here's the life i've always longed for" by Anna Haifisch. the original means so much to me, and even though it's hard, I feel like every day i'm making more steps toward finally being on the other side of that fence <:)

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i dont understand

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MARY OLIVER

Thirst (2006);

original photos and edit

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are you hungry?

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you’re arts really great!! you’re so skilled!! also please know you are valued, loved and appreciated by so many :))) have a nice day!

hello anon,

i've been hanging onto this ask for a long time. i've mostly been keeping it to myself as a reminder, something i can look to when i'm being hard on myself (which is most of the time). i appreciate the kind words more than you know.

if you're a long time follower you might have noticed my production of art slowed down a lot. i might attribute it to me getting better. in many ways i am. but every so often i want to hurt myself, whether it's in small ways or irreparable ones. and sometimes i give in. and that scares me.

i think i need to dedicate myself to hobbies (like art and/or this blog) again, that maybe this relentless emptiness and anxiety is in part from only doing schoolwork and playing video games.

all this to say, thank you for your kind words. this is what i need to remember when i want to leave this world and then hate myself for thinking it because my life has been only trending up since 6 years ago.

-matty

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lucy dacus - partner in crime

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Yasmine Wüster

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ritual day ♡