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The self-indulgent fanfiction is a morale booster and I recommend it any time you want or need it.

the self-indulgent fanfiction will continue until morale improves

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Bon, je vais m'écarter un poil de mon obsession pour Halsin juste cinq minutes et me concentrer sur Rolan et ses frère et sœur.

J'ai envie d'écrire une fic sur eux. Rien d'énorme, pas une saga en plusieurs tomes, juste une histoire à faire (pas vraiment) chialer dans les chaumières.

Il irait pas mal avec Dammon, vous trouvez pas?

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"What's on your mind, little panther?"

(Leondorr just wants a kiss and telling Halsin he loves him)

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Rien n'égale le Bahut des Tordus.

Un animé, quel qu'il soit, qui arrive à me faire hurler de rire est forcément excellent.

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May I remind that Mary-Sues made sometimes damn good stories.

Like, the Divine Comedy.

Sailor Moon was created because the author wanted some friends and she created some.

It's... Heartwarming and refreshing, I think.

I am actually so serious I think it really messes with a childs creativity and joy to tell them to never make a mary sue OC. Like that unbridaled form of joy where you make a self insert OC who super cool and everyone loves them and they have every superpower in the world SHOULD be something a kid makes, it nourishes their ability to create things for fun and not be stifled by "oh but what if my character is too overpowered and cringey...". whatever

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One of the best games ever made, period.

Just reminding you that you can play with Weird Ed's computer in the game.

Neato.

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I am actually so serious I think it really messes with a childs creativity and joy to tell them to never make a mary sue OC. Like that unbridaled form of joy where you make a self insert OC who super cool and everyone loves them and they have every superpower in the world SHOULD be something a kid makes, it nourishes their ability to create things for fun and not be stifled by "oh but what if my character is too overpowered and cringey...". whatever

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I think it's one of the aspects of Halsin's personality I relate the most.

For so long he had such a weight on his shoulders. The Grove. The threats. The politics. A job he probably didn't ask for and he tried to do the best he could anyway.

Because Halsin Wants to Do Things Good.

At long last he can be himself. He has a purpose and friends who love him the way he is. Not being the leader. Not being the one in charge. Just himself.

Maybe that's why his good ending doesn't totally satisfy me.

I crave for an alternate ending when Halsin and Tav retire and explore Faerun peacefully. Discovering new places. Making new friends. Being goofy tourists. Spending nights stargazing, enjoying the peace. Sharing jokes and anecdotes on the road, stealing kisses when no one is looking.

Let the man be at peace. And exasperate Tav with puns.

I am once again screaming inside because at his core Halsin is a deeply PLAYFUL person!

His playful, sarcastic "I AM?!" when you say he's big for an elf! He has banters where he teasingly roasts Shadowheart AND Gale at different times! He teases that you might be a lunatic for freeing a bear without knowing if it would attack you, he indulges the Drow twins by changing into a bear and letting the player ride him around, he loves bear puns (or really animal jokes in general), the way he flexes his muscles if the player mentions him moving things three grown men couldn't...

He wants to PLAY!!! The reason he's so serious for most of the story isn't because he's just the "sage wise archdruid" but because all the trauma he's faced FORCED him to be. Given the slightest bit of a chance to be himself (like traveling with a camp full of weirdos), he instantly shows his playful side, and it only comes out more in his epilogue.

He just wants to play!!

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Some idiot: "Why are you reading your own fic, that's shallow and stupid"

All fanfic writers and writers everywhere: "Who the fuck do you think I wrote it for?!"

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SAME.

Do I read fanfiction about him? Yes I do.

Do I look at photos of Halsin cosplay? Of course.

Do I write dozens of pages of stupid stuff about equally stupid OC's I'll never publish? Yup.

Do I collect fanart like a dragon collects gems? I have several P*treon subscriptions who only do that.

I plead guilty.

I am literally addicted to that stupid Bear Man

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Makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.

It's so sweet and soft it breaks my heart a little.

But in a good way.

the softest little kisses 🥺

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I've written pages after pages of these and never published them on AO3 or ff. Net because I thought that nobody would like to read how a character finally finds a peaceful, happy relationship after a long, rough existence.

I thought that these two OC who got each their lot of hardship and finally find peace in the arms of each other, nobody would like them.

I read somewhere that in literature, happiness looks torridly boring. This citation always disturbed me.

Let's gift us sometimes with descriptions of peaceful, domestic bliss. It's good now and then.

listen. you can torture your fictional favs for as long as you want but how about letting them heal? how about your characters that experienced so much horror, never given any/enough kindness, and now, maybe at the right time and/or with the right person, they finally get to heal? they get to relax and not look over their shoulder? they get to sleep through the night and not wake up from nightmares? they get to find a person that will always support them, that will always stay with them, no matter how horrible the character thinks they are? no matter how much they wake up at night, shivering, in cold sweat?

"they need to be beaten up, tortured, opened up!" no but how about them getting their wounds bandaged? how about them being stopped from inflicting pain on themselves? how about them being stopped from drowning in their toxic coping mechanisms and find new and healthier ones?

how about that character finally feeling loved and accepted, and having that support to become a better person?

how about things getting better after years of abuse, misunderstanding, and depression, and imprisonment (physical or mental)?

HOW ABOUT THAT???

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sad reality of the fanfic-to-published work economy is that the weirdest people are willing to do it. that's why there's now hundreds of shitty no plot cishet hate-to-love enemies-to-lovers books that are ex reylo fanfic. and it's not even good. that's because the people who wrote book-quality steve/bucky and kirk/spock fic are too normal to think to themselves "i should get this porn published". they're too busy working in local government offices

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I was already in love with Dave Jones' work on Halsin's voice.

Now I think my heart is breaking a little from awesomeness.

Hi I just discovered that Dave Jones has been hiding some of the most unhinged nonsense in the alt text of the images he posts on Twitter I'm CRYING

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SIR

How dare you.

"Don't take this the wrong way, but you're quite large for an elf"

(There is an extra 🔞 page to this on my Patreon!)

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seeing straight men be disgusted by booktok smut recommenders has actually radicalized me to the side of booktok smut recommenders. girls your taste may be atrocious but i will never disparage you for exposing mainstream discourse to the concept of soaking through your underwear. spent my whole life listening to men talk about penises it’s about time they get jumpscared by women talking about pussy in crude detail on social media. go forth and goon my warriors

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Halsin, the babe, the husband, the love of my life, forever

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