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Shit like this... no longer exists. 

The Notebook (2004)

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“Say you’ll never ever leave from beside me”

Artist: https://royugang.artstation.com/

Shirt 1: http://bit.ly/kikilovesme

Shirt 2:  http://bit.ly/kikilovesme2

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Broken Glass Everywhere

My intuition rarely steers me wrong, although often times I wish it did.

I’m getting that sinking feeling that I am going to get assed out with this situation. That I’m going to put in all this work, and invest everything I have, only to be told that there is actually no place for me. That the realization of how I was what they thought they wanted, is not actually fact. There aren’t enough words to express how wrong I would like to be about this. I’ve been here for 3 years, consistently stuck in limbo for what my place should be. All along, I’ve had a gnawing truth already in the back of my head that I have been refusing to let get the best of me because if I do, I will quit.

There are so many signs that should tell me that I should know better. These signs are greater than the small glimmers of hope that I am seldom, but tenderly, spoon fed. The tenderness and momentary flash of hope is surpassed and overshadowed by what I know is the truth but I seem to constantly put on my rose colored glasses to see the opposite. I am holding on to a thread while he dangles an unbreakable rope on the side where he really wants to be.

I find myself crying myself to sleep, laying right next to my joy. There is a sadness that tickles the back of my throat that brings down tears whenever I think of the possibility that I will never get to where I want to be with you. I can walk away at any time. You’ve said it. Hell, you’ve even told me to do it. And yet, here I stand. I constantly seem find myself setting deadlines for when I should give up. Maybe in x amount of months, it’ll change. And some things have changed, but only in a superficial way. And I know quite well that superficial adjustments and changes often give way to reverting back to how they used to be.

I’d like to offer you the world. I’d like to support you in your dreams and carry the burdens and share the weight they present. I’d like to be a part of your world where co-existence isn’t masked by lies and secrecy. I would never want to hurt you. But I feel like I’m going to shatter. I feel like I am going to lose everything that I have been waiting and working for. But I really can’t blame you because you’ve told me to go if I wanted to. I don’t really know if your tender spoonful’s are honest and legit, but they feel so good right now. But the more I get, the more addicted I become and that will only make the withdrawal that much more painful.

I don’t want to end this story with you. There are so many more chapters I’d like to write.

I want to be the one that changes the game for you. I want to stop playing make believe in my head of what my place is with you.

I think I’m going to shatter and I don’t think I’ll ever be the same again…

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Ooo.. No, I’ll never get over you until I find something new

that gets me high like you do..

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All roads lead back to you... but I can never get to you completely..

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Me:

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RATTATTAT

The most important .gif

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🎨2015 DB lineup🎨

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Art by Heather Theurer

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Less than a month away, who’s ready for the Air Jordan 11 “72-10”? #ArtOnFire by @jc.ro

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I DID NOT KNOW THAT THIS EXISTS 

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my granddad just called me to tell me how big his cauliflowers are growing and it was so cute theyre “TWICE as big as the ones you get in the shop”

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Eyes closed..

Eyes wide shut, off in the cut, banging my head on the wall to make the pain stop.. It’s inevitable when perfection is credible you end up searching for the things that the palette finds unedible I hold you high up on this pedestal, without you I’m purposeless like a mortar with no pestle Old school kicking it, you keep me warm when my nerves are shivering, bottom lip quivering, this is what love does when it proceeds to stop delivering, but who are we hindering? Fate has a way of turning wheels, continuing I wonder if we’ll end up on the same page again, returning to the story that defines us as human, we used to mesh together like fission at its finest, bond formed over chemistry that molds the tightest, but still can stretch to adapt to all changes in the climates, you’re the everest, my love for you will never rest, but take a guess, I just want you at your best, whether I’m with you in the east or back home in the west My heart still resides in the cavity that is your chest, you’re a life changer like the pages in readers digest, you’re the flyest, wingspan on the levels of ancient myths, can’t be translated like alien hieroglyphs, now I gotta find my way through the muddle that is heart break, for God sakes, they say time is what it takes, to heal wounds and to get your heart to reawake, what’s at stake when your emotions begin to quake, at the thought of fond memories, that at this moment is causing me, to close restless eyes just to see, a glimpse of what we could be, should be, would be, day in day out I struggle to stay busy, constantly thinking if you miss me, wishing you’d come back like a Frisbee.. But anyway. . Thoughts become obscure, your love clouds my peripherals, tunnel vision you’re my favorite visual. . I’ll always make the first show, the matinee, and the final curtain call, you’re it, the one, my all.

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Air Jordan 1

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Some Disney comics I made for a mini zine years back but didn’t post all of them online anywheres! Here you go.

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Asics Gel-Kayano Trainer EVO WINTER TECH PACK (via Kicks-daily.com)

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