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it's been hard to get any playing done between baby and fatigue, but I'm trying dammit

after trying a few battles, felt like the modded "angel" race was too OP and the BG3 flight mechanic is kind of a dud, so I re-built Keigo Tav as a measley half-elf urchin. He'll be OP enough with the College of Swords build, I hear. Either way, I look forward to rp-ing as a yappy little bird bard

I'm just gonna HC that his wings are flightless nothingburgers and he was cursed with them by a jilted lover who was like "I'm gonna make your strutting rooster ass the biggest possible target. go die." Makes it extra hilarious that the first thing he does in the game is fall out of the sky.

quite pleased. he's really really rediculously good-looking Astarion: (daggers out) that's my gimmick

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I so desperately want to be able to convince Trump supporters with facts and logic and empathy, but it’s so important to remember that their ignorance is INTENTIONAL. my mom didn’t let us watch Sleeping Beauty growing up. I asked her why recently and she said, “it was evil.” when I pointed out other movies had similar themes and depictions of evil, and asked what the difference was, she couldn’t. I pressed one more time and she just said, “it felt evil to me. I didn’t like it”. same thing with dune 2: she said it was “dark”, and I was, “literally, like the movie’s lighting? Or the themes?” and she said “I don’t know” and didn’t want to talk about it more. many conservatives genuinely cannot tell the difference between “I don’t like it” and “this is evil” and they do not care to learn despite many chances

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Hello I have Hawks brainrot and it has spread to BG3

I’ve never ever played a bard in anything (my gaming style is usually: *how hard can I punch*) so being forced out of tanking and into a tactical support role should be interesting.

Modded the game to hell and back to get my bird bard to look and play just right. He’s a modded “aether-born” race who is stupidly OP with flight and telepathy and unfair starting equipment… but mostly he just uses all that power to talk everyone to death.

So far his only in-game damage came when he accidentally walked into a fire

Checks out

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Look! Some happy animals!

Steady progress

My sleep apnea test is coming soon in the mail

I’ve started a new BG3 playthrough (when baby permits)

The trees have started doing green things outside

My pot plant has come out of her shell (but she’s so tiny I couldn’t even get a picture to focus!)

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Steady progress

My sleep apnea test is coming soon in the mail

I’ve started a new BG3 playthrough (when baby permits)

The trees have started doing green things outside

My pot plant has come out of her shell (but she’s so tiny I couldn’t even get a picture to focus!)

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it has been said / by the likes of the living and the dead / make your bed

even sinners go to drink the wine / break the bread

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I’ve been in “play Stardew and survive” mode for a week or so, which usually happens when my PEM cycle is at the absolute rock bottom. I’m so tired I haven’t been able to play “colors and shapes” with my baby, because I usually get them wrong. Cognitively, I am currently on the level with a ten month old. But today I at least had enough brain cells to rub together to think about my WIP in fond terms rather than self-immolating, so that was… nice I guess.

The sleep specialist backlog is so extreme and made me so mad that we’ve decided to cave in and do one of those fucking out of pocket sleep studies in the meantime. Our medical system is absolutely broken and I hate everything but we can afford to go the privatized nightmare route, at least for this one thing. If this proves sleep apnea, I might be able to scrape some life back together faster. If not……….. no idea honestly. This is a new bad, physically. Grueling.

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guess who just spent their one precious human life in pointless toil

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“tattoos are going out of style” they’ve been around for a thousand years im sorry you’re conservative now get well soon ig

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the idea that restrooms, locker rooms, etc need to be single-sex spaces in order for women to be safe is patriarchy's way of signalling to men & boys that society doesn't expect them to behave themselves around women. it is directly antifeminist. it would be antifeminist even if trans people did not exist. a feminist society would demand that women should be safe in all spaces even when there are men there.

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it's rotten work, but without the rot nothing can grow

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Went to the doc about this latest bout of fatigue. Sleep study time for me, again. Hopefully the wait isn’t super long. At this point I’m praying it IS sleep apnea, because at least that will have a clear solution (Darth Vader machine)

If not, my CFS has reached all new levels, and that’s Bad. She also ordered a full blood panel but I don’t have high expectations for some mysterious disease. It’s almost definitely CFS and/or apnea.

Bugghhggbcnjnfsnsnahxbbdjsbs

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Medieval marijuana, from a 12th-century medical and herbal collection: https://publicdomainreview.org/collection/miniatures-from-a-12th-century-medical-and-herbal-collection

The Latin at the bottom reads: “Grows but in waste places, and at roadsides, and along hedges. The very best medicine for healing.”

Happy420 #fourtwenty #420day

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sometimes when I’m being especially self deprecating and convinced no one likes me I have to tell myself “you’re being goob. you are being goob right now”

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Starting one single Mary ju wanna seed out in my grow tent in a lonely little jiffy pellet. Old seeds from an old friend, overdue for planting. We shall see if she sprouts. I don’t think I can manage more than one right now. Just prepping the seed had me like. Girl. I’m gonna die. Please god let this fatigue let up soon. I’m so tired. I’m so fucking tired I just wanna cry all day every day. But I’m too tired to do that.

We’ll see if I can train her to be a big manifold and fill the tent herself. It’s a pretty tall hybrid (like me) so… probably. Supposed to be a good energizing creative strain (Tropicana Cookies) so here’s hoping.

Long time till medicine, but till then I love to help something grow day by day. It’s very cool.

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i need to grow more weed

Eagerly waiting for green things to arrive

Buds, grass, leaves, aliens

I’ll take whatever