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trigger warning.

dark dreamcore/traumacore posts i found because crying in the bathroom and writing in my notes app wasn't enough this time.

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oh damn lmao. i get that dw

and you could sorta try to leave it to the reader's imagination? i guess? dunno i never publish shit i don't know how people read

hate writing scenes let me describe the characters thoughts but never scenes please someone stop me i'm bad at this i hate this

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the thing is i imagine too much... im semi to nonverbal so i jusy stand back and watch and analyze literally everyone and everything inside my mind so i just imagine everything way too much that it's hard to put into words. i still don't know how i manage but yea

hate writing scenes let me describe the characters thoughts but never scenes please someone stop me i'm bad at this i hate this

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i actually love to describe the scenes, i like to build up the image %100 as i have it in mind and write it to words no matter how much it'd suck. like "i imagined exactly this and you are obligated to also do as such" and sometimes it gets too long

hate writing scenes let me describe the characters thoughts but never scenes please someone stop me i'm bad at this i hate this

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when the game blew up, simps also did

i swear to god you are all sick in the head, completely dead being infatuated and here i am trying to get around in pinterest without seeing thirst posts for him and get an idea curious about how c.ai is doing here and wHAT THE FUCK

YOU ARE ALL INSANE. YOU ARE WAY TOO DOWN BAD. CAN I JOIN--

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Image Description: The "I bring a sort of X vibe to X that X don't really like" edited to say "I bring a sort of all these rules are made up vibe to sexuality and gender that exclusionists don't really like"

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"ahh" is usually used as "similar to" the way they use the words ass like some ppl say "goofy ahh" or smth

the more you know✨️

his name is AidEn and not AidAn you fake ass fans 😭 /j

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i actually had something like that in mind :D

If one month of hiatus was enough for everyone to turn into writers,

I'm afraid soon you all will be drawing your own chapters 💀

God help us all-

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evet

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THIS. THIS IS THE SHIT I NEED. ANGST WITH A HAPPIER ENDING

also i love how we all collectively agree that Ben was the one to cause Aiden's life change the first time before the group project

HELP WHY DO I SEE SO MANY ANGST FICS EVERYWHERE?? GUYS STOP?? COME ON, THIS ISNT HEALTHY??

*ahem* anyway—

Family had many interpretations, Aiden learned. Family could be warm and sweet and comforting, but family could also be cold and cruel and a waste of time.

He didn’t have a need for his mother’s warm smile or his father’s comforting hugs. He didn’t want their affection or approval. Why should he need anything from them when all they’ve done is distant themselves from him?

Family meant cold meals and awkward dinners. Family meant empty houses and quiet rooms. Family meant missing any and all of his award ceremonies.

Family meant nothing to Aiden.

Sometimes, though, when the walls felt like they were caving in and the silence was too loud, he wondered what it would be like to have a family that cared.

Would his mother make him a warm breakfast with a smile on her face? Would his father pick him up from school and ask about his day? Would they care enough to love him?

It wasn’t good to dream. Aiden was well aware that dreaming about a better life would only sour his mood more. It didn’t help that he wanted a family, one that cared. He wanted to feel something other than the aching cold in his bones.

After a while, though, he learned to stop wanting. Wanting led to dreams of the impossible; to days where he felt like a stranger in his own skin. So he stopped wanting.

Instead, he pretended. He smiled and laughed as if nothing was wrong. He dyed his hair and put on eye contacts and stopped feeling like a stranger to himself. Nobody saw the broken boy inside him. Nobody knew who he truly was.

And he wanted to keep it that way.

Ben made things difficult. Ben gave him things he thought he’d never get. He gave him company, patience and love. Ben cared about him. Ben asked about his day; he listened when Aiden talked about his interests. It was almost surreal.

Ben gave him purpose and he was thankful. No, grateful. Smiling was easier with Ben around and laughing felt less forced than usual.

Then they moved and Aiden finally understood what a family was. He laughed and smiled and joked with his friends and almost forgot about the loneliness inside of him. They made living easier. And even though the phantoms weren’t ideal, Aiden was sure he’d never trade this for the world.

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my transphobic elder sister (who i'm out to, only to be misgendered by her constantly lmao) liked cavetown's songs when i was listening so searched him up. convo we had

"is... this a guy?"

"yea"

"huh. twink"

i wonder what'll happen if she learns he's, also, transgender

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hey btw why were so many people (mostly girls) in like middle or even elementary school constantly socially assigning people a "top" or a "bottom" based solely on how they acted around others and how shy they were??

no alexis i am not a "soft cute little smol bean subby boy" or whatever, I'm just traumatized and undiagnosed autistic and also we're both 11 years old and I'm trying to pay attention to our teacher doing a lesson right now. your parents should've never given you unrestricted internet access. delete wattpad.

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I need people to understand that sometimes autism is just this

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phantom: (about aiden) i'm trying to eliminate my target but he keeps breakdancing

tyler: [about to shit himself from fear] i am trying to eliminate him too. you're not special

ashlyn: are you communicating with a phantom rn

tyler:

phantom:

ashlyn: you really shouldn't have died tyler

tyler: my bad original gangster

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we are so not surviving, sibling

NOOOOOO

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i'm a Sebastian person but damn Haley is so slay. if you're just starting, a tip for romancing her if u want :D

so there's flower dance in the first spring yeah? it's rlly hard to find someone to dance in the very first spring since it's hard to get them to 4 hearts but there's a trick for romancing Haley easily! you can find daffodils literally anywhere in the spring by foraging which is a gift she likes and her birthday is in spring before the dance! you can bring her daffodils twice a week but birthdays are an exception, so give her daffodils each week and also in her birthday so you can get to dance her early on and get easy hearts

have fun :3

I brought Stardew Valley so I can romance Haley

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