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Hey! I think your masterlist link is broken :(

aw noo omg thank u sm for letting me know! I’ll try to get that fixed rn

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hi luna💞 hope you are doing well!!💞

omg hi!! I am doing pretty well thank u, I hope u are too ^^

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I wanna like totally revamp my whole blog but idek where to start *sigh*

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OMG hi baby i just saw the prompts u asked us to send u and maybe,, 27 with tsukki but if you want make it angst??? tho if you'd prefer to write fluff i understand (^^) thank u angel!

a/n: ahaha hiiii so umm I’m kinda back maybe possibly?? I’m honestly not 100 percent sure bc school is beating my [redacted] but uh I wrote this! i’m a little out of practice so I’m not sure if it’s any good but nonetheless I hope u like it!! ^^

warnings: angstangstangst omg this one hurt me writing it lolol, also there’s a fem!reader for this one I hope that’s okay!

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Maybe it was he who had let go first. Maybe it was he who had gotten too comfortable, complacent, stopped being a lover and started being a burden.

But those are uncertainties, speculation, and he needs fact, something solid and true to bring him back to reality. And the truth he chokes on like bitter medicine is that you were the one who had called it quits, not him. You were the one that gripped his heart over the line and tore it out with the words I can’t do this anymore, Kei.

Your back is the one he saw drawing further and further along the road you two used to take together and seeing is believing, after all. Your contact is the one he’s staring at, your smiling face staring back. He doesn’t know why he’s doing it, he doesn’t know why he’s doing much of anything, really, when you’re not there to be with him. To give him sharp, warning looks whenever his jokes go a bit too far and to hold his hand when he can’t be as cold and detached as he tries to be.

You had seen all those soft, raw parts of him, had wrapped yourself around them like armor and now that you’re gone he feels cold and exposed. He hates it- he hates you for making him feel so vulnerable, so weak.

Maybe that’s why he’s still staring at your contact. Even though it’s been three months since you broke up he still hasn’t changed it yet, my one and only y/n is still your contact name (you had changed it, from the simple y/n it had been before). It’s ridiculous, but still not nearly as ridiculous as his thumb hitting the call button.

“Hello?” Is your groggy response, your voice still thick with sleep.

Right, it’s nearly four in the morning. Time seems to slip past him these days.

He doesn’t say anything- he doesn’t know what to say, a foreign feeling that leaves him floundering a bit.

“...Kei? Is that you?” Your voice is softer now, soft in the way only you can be when his name falls from your lips.

“Yeah.”

“Are you alright? Did you need something?”

“I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror.”

It’s stupid, such a stupid thing to say in the current situation but he can’t seem to feel the slightest bit embarrassed, he can’t seem to feel much of anything without you to remind him how.

“Kei. You can’t keep doing this.” You breathe out, and your voice isn’t as soft now - it’s impatient. “This is the third time this week.”

“I know.” He chokes through gritted teeth, and he does know. He knows a lot of things, really, but just because he knows doesn’t mean he wants to accept it.

“I-I’m with someone else, Kei, and I really like him.” Your voice is gentle, careful, but no amount of care could make plunging a knife through someone’s chest feel like a pinch, a bit of pressure until it‘s over. “This has to stop.”

“Who?” It’s the only question that comes to mind, the only thing he can think to ask, and he almost laughs at himself, at the pathetic, pining mess you’ve reduced him to. He’s never at a loss for words, there’s never not a witty remark perched at the edge of his tongue, but there isn’t now. Even as he wracks his brain for something to say that’ll save the few shreds of dignity he has left, he comes up empty.

“Kei, do you really want to know that?” You’re just trying to save him any further heartache, but he hates the patronizing tone of your voice, like you’re talking to a child crying over spilled milk.

“I asked, didn’t I? So clearly, yes I want to know.” He snaps, anger flaring in his belly. You only sigh on the other end of the line, hardly registering the harshness of his tone.

“Fine, since you’re so dying to know.” You hiss, and there’s a shuffling noise on the other end of the phone before another voice, deep and equally thick with sleep, rumbles in Tsukishima’s ear. “Hello?”

He feels like he’s suffocating, like the air was ripped from his lungs in his shock, because he knows that voice. He knows a lot of things, after all, and he knows that that voice belongs to none other than Kageyama Tobio, the boy you had told him not to worry about.

We’re just friends, Kei. You had reassured him after he caught a glimpse of the numerous texts you had been exchanging with the setter. There’s nothing to worry about, I promise.

I promise. He does laugh now, a bitter, nasty thing that burns in his throat like bile. “Of fucking course it’s you. I should’ve known.” He spits into the receiver.

“Tsukishima?” Is all Kageyama says in response, sounding confused. “Why are you calling my girlfriend at 3 in the morning?”

My girlfriend.

Unable to take a second more, Tsukishima quickly hangs up, launching his phone across the room. He tucks his knees to his chest in an attempt to stop his chest from heaving, but it’s not working, and hot, salty tears spill from his eyes despite his desperate attempts to keep himself together.

He’s not sure how long he stays like that - a sobbing wreck, but eventually his breathing calms and his cheeks dry and a heavy feeling of resignation settles in his chest where there was only pain and rage before.

He knows what he has to do. He knows a lot of things after all, and now he knows that it’s time to move on.

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I luna i hope you are doing well!! I hope we can be mutuals too!! My hq blog is legendaryoikawa!! 🥺💖💖💖

omg hi!! I just followed you, your layout is so pretty!! I’d love to be mutuals 🥺💗

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Heyo! I’ve been trying to make a theme for myself but when I saw yours I found it really cute but idk how to make the text in my bio changes colors- Could you tell me how

of course! I mostly use mobile to make changes on my blog bc I find it a lot easier to work with, so when you go to edit your blog the accent color determines the color of your links, while the color of your title determines the color of the regular text in your bio! if you make a title you can choose the color then delete it afterwards if you want :)

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your aesthetic is so dreamy 🥺

omg thank u 🥺 I absolutely adore ur aesthetic omg it’s so pretty :(

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Luna!! You’re back :))

eee yes kind of! honestly I’m super nervous to post/interact bc I’ve been so out of touch for a while alsklssk but hi cassie bb I’ve missed u :(

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i havent posted in a bit BUT- youre so talented??? im so happy that we're moots!! i hope we can get closer omg :((

omg hi 🥺 you’re so sweet :( thankyou so much omg I’d love to get closer! my dms and ask box are always open 😚💘

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so... hi, it’s luna. I’m alive! I’m really really sorry for disappearing without a word. a few of my family members have been sick with the coronavirus so, needless to say, I’ve kinda been in shambles these past several weeks. it’s been really hard for me to function due to the constant anxiety, let alone write and read and interact, but as everyone is expected to recover, I think I’m feeling well enough to come back :)

I’ve missed interacting with you guys and writing so so so much and I’m super excited to get back into it! I’ve been gone for a while so I understand if you guys don’t remember me alskslsn but I plan on being active again! ah that’s it I think. I’m back! I’m okay! thank you for reading this far if you have :3

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LUNA WHY DID U FOLLOWED ME BACK OMG I DON'T DESERVE YOU WHYY *scream*

OMG NO BB U DESERVE BETTER THAN ME ALSKLSN ur literally the sweetest angel ever, I honestly thought I was already following u 🥺💗

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andhfiajdns I love ur hcs so much bro chefs kiss mWah they are so good I’m 🥺💕✨✨

ALSKLSKS AHH THANK U SM OMG I’m so happy you like them !! 🥺💗

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THIS IS A TUMBLR HUG! PASS IT ON TO 10 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOLLOWERS AND DON'T BREAK THE CHAIN! HAVE A LOVELY DAY! ~♡ (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡ ugh luna! you are adorable and the sweetest thing and your asks are so fun to respond to 😚😚 💖💖

ahh cassie bb I’ve missed u !!! ur the sweetest omg thank u sm 🥺💗

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YOUR LAYOUT IS SO CUTE AND AestHETIC IM SO IN LOVE W IT 🥺🥺

OMG THANK U SM AHA I’m actually rlly happy with how it turned out hehe :3

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idk why u followed me back i am but a babie 👉👈 and u are an amazing writer 👉👈 ily already pls hmu any time and friend me 😢😢

u think I’m an amazing writer I’m- 🥺 ahh I’m actually just starting out so I definitely have a lot to learn, but thank u 😔💗 you’re an amazing writer too love, don’t sell urself short! also I would love to be friends omg I’ll dm u :3

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THIS IS A TUMBLR HUG! PASS IT ON TO 10 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOLLOWERS AND DON'T BREAK THE CHAIN! HAVE A LOVELY DAY! ~♡ (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡ - luna babie i miss you🥺 i hope you’re doing well and remember that i love you with all my heart🥺💓

soo my love omg I’ve missed u sm 🥺 I’ve been okay, just stressed w school ending but it’s almost over so :3 hope you’ve been well angel !! 💘

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i love this blog and i swore to god i was following u but apparently i’m hallucinating

omg thank u I’m so happy u like it !! 🥺 and that’s okay aha tumblr has been messing w my follows too?? like it says I’m not following blogs that I KNOW I’ve been following so :/