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INTIMATE ASKS

(Reminder if you reblog, you answer only the ask you are comfortable with. No one can force you to answer a question. If someone spam, block without mercy. ANSWERING IS ALWAYS OPTIONAL.)

Cheese Cake - How old are you?

Chocolate Muffin - How old were you when you had your first kiss?

French Toast - Have you ever looked at the star with someone you love?

Strawberry Jello - When was the last time you stared at the clouds?

Cotton Candy - Are there any of your friends you would date if they revealed they have a crush on you?

Lemon Cake - If your s/o or crush went through sex change, how would you feel?

Eclair au Chocolat - Do you fear you missed your soulmate along the way?

Vanilla Pancakes - Is there someone you never spoke to you would have sex with?

Bubble Gum - Is there a location you always wanted to go to, to have sex?

Sugar Pie - Have you ever had sex in another country?

Red Velvet Muffin - What are your body measurement?

Caramel Square - What is the prettiest part of the human body in your opinion?

Pink Popcorn - What is your favorite part of your own body?

Pudding - Would you have surgery if you could and it was seemless?

Orange Ice Cream - How many partners have you ever had?

Raspberry Granola - Have you ever regretted having sex with someone?

Oatmeal - Did you go through the awkward moment of sex ed from your parents?

Mango Smoothie - Which star would you marry instantly if you could?

Blueberry Pie - If you could marry the person you want, where would you want to live with them?

Banana Bread - Are you LGBT?

Milkshake - Would you date a trans person?

Cherry Popsicle - Do you know where your very first crush is?

Caramel Apple - Are you single and if you are, are you actively looking for someone to date?

Chocolate Chip Cookies - Would you date someone if your current crush doesn’t come true?

Watermelon Sour Candy - What would you wear if you could go to the Emmy Awards and which star would you go with?

ASK AWAY!

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“I don’t know! I don’t know what a fibula is at this point!”

— Frustrated classmate attempting to lay out a very fragmented skeleton

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“Don’t dig up dead people, it’s not worth it. It costs you a ton of money and then people get all upset when you store them in fruit boxes.”

— Prof H

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just wanted to say I saw your selfie and that you’re super pretty!!

Aw thank you!!

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when u hold hands with someone and they rub their thumb against ur hand and give it a tiny squeeze

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Isn’t it weird how you can actually feel the pain in your chest and stomach when something really hurts your feelings

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You should not have to rip yourself into pieces to keep others whole.

i am seeing less and less of you (via pukin)

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Doesn’t that look beautiful?

Like something you’d find on one of those soft/nature blogs?

Well you are in for a surprise

The Bolton Strid in England is one of the most innocent looking streams. 

Though it looks like you could just hop across the rocks, but if you miss you will die for sure. It packs very rapid currents just a couple of feet below its surface. No one really knows how deep it really is. Nobody who has ever fallen into the Strid has survived. It has a 100% fatality rate.

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“Why don’t you just smile more?” “Why can’t you just be happy?” Their frustration hurts more than the lines on my wrists As they mutter and sigh and act As if it’s a choice As if I am to blame. My mind is a carousel; A perpetual circle of ups and downs That I cannot escape and These thoughts engulf me, Blackening my mind and mirrored on the canvas of my skin As cuts and bruises and the smell of alcohol and Their insistence is unbearable. Not just at 2am But when I’m shopping Or making breakfast Or laughing with friends And the thought of death seems to glow in front of me. Yet still the marks on my arms are for attention. Their pity at my “fragility” is enough to make me Doubt myself, Doubt my ability get better. But I am not fragile. My depressive thoughts and my questionable habits Do not make me weak and I refuse to feel weak anymore.

Improved version of the poem I posted a while back. Recovery takes a long time (via tinypaintdrops)

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I kid myself into feeling Nothing for you And yet your features Swim at the forefront of my vision Each time my eyes flutter shut Your laughter resonates through me Trapping my skeleton in vibrations Of nervousness  And a longing To mingle our sounds Because the truth is I need you Like a bee needs sugar When it’s tiny structure trembles Showing such vulnerability  In each dying breath I feel like this bee sometimes Small and so capable of shattering From the inside out When your nervousness and longing Is directed at her.

one of mine (via tinypaintdrops)

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On 24th June I did a TEDx talk at the TEDxTeen event in London. It was the most incredible experience, and I got to stand up and discuss mental health and why we should all be talking about it more than we are. I’ve struggled with my mental health for most of my life, but it’s only been within the last couple of years that I’ve began to accept that mental illnesses are as valid and serious as physical illness, and need to be treated as such. When the painting on my leg went viral I was shocked, but in hindsight perhaps I shouldn’t have been because I was doing something that isn’t done enough. I was talking about my mental health openly and unapologetically, showing that it’s okay to be mentally ill, but it’s also important to learn to cope with these illnesses in a healthy way. Mental health shouldn’t be a taboo topic of conversation, and I accepted the invitation to do a TEDx talk to do something to help break this taboo, to challenge the stigma surrounding mental health, and to show that there is no shame in being mentally ill. It’s okay not to be okay, but what’s not okay is refusing to discuss something that so many people struggle with. We have to help each other. 

Please watch this, reblog it, and share it around as many people as possible. Show that talking about mental health can only be a positive thing.

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The paintings I did from yesterday’s filming with the BBC

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We spend too much time desperately searching yearning to discover the unfathomable reason we live. Our short, quiet existence. Our existence barely touches one another, let alone reaching toward the endless expanse in the silent, shimmering stars. We are tiny. Why does existence need a purpose? As if knowing the reason We were born into being   Should determine our contentment. What bullshit. We are tiny  But when I look up I do not feel  The insignificance they would have you feel. Being part of the universe is an Immeasurable gift.

one of mine (via tinypaintdrops)

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Bus to a field trip: light hearted yelling and fun dancing

Bus home: "Did you know I'm genuinely concerned I am unable to love?"

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I was filmed by the BBC discussing depression, self harm, and art. It would mean so much if you’d give it a watch and a share 💛

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I was filmed by the BBC discussing depression, self harm, and art. It would mean so much if you’d give it a watch and a share 💛