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This parallel

2x12 vs 3x05

When Merlin said "no" both times — it was the same, and yet so different.

The first was when he realized he had to kill Morgana. He followed the Dragon’s advice, made all the wrong choices, and ultimately poisoned her. Watching him break down, unable to bear seeing her die but still holding her as she lay unconscious in her final moments, was devastating. That moment became one of his deepest regrets — a defining what if that haunted him.

The second "no" came when he thought he had killed her again. This time, he made the right decision — but at the wrong time. He couldn’t bear the thought of being the reason for her death once more. Instead of following the Dragon’s words, he commanded him to help. Merlin used his magic to save Morgana — but it was already too late in the ways that mattered most. He saved her body, but the emotional and moral wounds had already set her path toward darkness. A darkness he helped shape through his betrayal.

And honestly, the tragedy of Mergana is one of the greatest missed opportunities in the show. Their love/hate dynamic had so much potential — especially with that kind of tension and chemistry. They could have been the kind of enemies who claimed to hate each other, destined to fight on opposite sides, and yet still doomed to love — risking everything to save one another when standing on the brink of death. There was such raw, unresolved love between them — not romantic fluff, but something fierce, painful, and real.

If the show had leaned into that — into the idea that love and betrayal can coexist, that sometimes the people who hurt us the most are the ones we can’t let go of — it could have added a whole new emotional layer. Mergana wasn’t just a ship; it was a tragedy of timing, trust, and the slow corrosion of hope.

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The Opening Ritual, G. C. Waldrep

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The Opening Ritual, G. C. Waldrep

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The Opening Ritual, G. C. Waldrep

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house we need to cure this patient

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Everyone will not just

If your solution to some problem relies on “If everyone would just…” then you do not have a solution. Everyone is not going to just. At not time in the history of the universe has everyone just, and they’re not going to start now.

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just found out in medieval france, having a lion on your coat of arms was so prevalent that there was literally a colloquial proverb to clown on knights for being basic and not having a real coat of arms. the hate game was so strong back then. imagine medieval hate anons

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Fragrantica review for Serge Lutens Chergui

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Unravel, Tolu Oloruntoba

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Shout out to Characters who are shells of their former selves! You died and you’re not coming back! You don’t recognize yourself and neither does anyone else, and it’s anyone’s guess what the fuck you’re supposed to be now!

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All Hail, King Gaheris of Orkney?

Okay, so, a few months back while I was surfing the net for research purposes I ran into a curious mention in an Arthurian Wikia page that stated that a group of nobles of Orkney wanted Gaheris to be crowned as their king. This intrigued me because I had never heard nothing of the sort. As such, it led me to research about it, but I hit dead-end after dead-end. Therefore, I put it in the back-burner and forgot about it.

However, it wasn’t until recently that I found the lead I was looking for. You see, a few weeks ago, I found this book called “An index of proper names in French Arthurian prose romances” by G.D. West. And not too long ago, I decided to search for the Orkney brothers and ran into the following:

Once more, the search was on. I instantly went to the source the entry was referring to, which led me to Heinrich Oskar Sommer, who had compiled the Lancelot-Grail cycle in the early 20th century. It took me a while to locate the reference West (1978) had been alluding among Sommer’s volumes. The Old French text confirmed what West (1978) had summarised in his entry for Gaheriet (aka Gaheris).

This, in turn, led me to search for this specific text in Norris J. Lacy’s English edition of the Lancelot-Grail cycle, translated by different scholars. Two of my clues was that this event of Orkney’s nobles wanting a king had occurred before the Grail Quest, and that it had taken place in the Prose Lancelot. After some more searching, I found the aforementioned text in Lancelot, Part VI. Carroll (1995) translated it in the following manner:

As we can observe here, around the feast of St. John, Orkney’s nobles want a king because no one has been ruling over them as of yet. We know that King Lot has been dead for ages, but rather than Gawain inheriting the kingdom as it was custom he’s been in King Arthur’s court instead. Here, King Arthur tries giving Gaheris the throne of Orkney because he prefers him over his brothers. But Gaheris refuses to do so because the Grail Quest hasn’t been achieved (Caroll, 1995).

This suggests that after the Grail Quest, it is likely that Gaheris would have become King of Orkney. Unfortunately, Gaheris never does because he dies, along with Gareth, when Lancelot rescues Guinevere from being executed. Nonetheless, it is rather fascinating to ponder on the ‘what ifs’. Because Gaheris as king and how would have that looked like would have been interesting to see.

References

Carroll, C. W. (1995). Lancelot, Part VI. In N. J. Lacy (Ed.), Lancelot-Grail: The Old French Arthurian Vulgate and Post-Vulgate in Translation (Vol. 3, pp. 221–338). Garland Publishing, Inc.

Sommer, H. O. (Ed.). (1912). The Arthurian Version of the Arthurian Romances, edited from manuscripts in the British Museum: Le Livre de Lancelot del Lac, Part III (Vol. 5). The Carnegie Institution of Washington. https://hdl.handle.net/2027/coo.31924083503577

West, G. D. (1978). An index of proper names in French Arthurian prose romances. University of Toronto Press.

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You know, it’s important to have tragic blorbos sometimes because hey, maybe you had a bad day, maybe your job sucks so fucking much. But do you know who had a worse day? Blorbo bleebus, who’s doomed by the narrative

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Do you actually ship them or do you want them to be trapped together in a cave-in where one of them is injured and they have to talk to keep them distracted and stay sane while they wait for help, and end up opening up about their vulnerabilities and bond and then grow desperate as one starts to slip from consciousness while the other begs them to stay awake—

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nah, fuck you. i was good enough, and you made me believe i wasn't.