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i may be just a little salty about this

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Mini Analysis- Ragatha and Jax

Something tells me Jax’s initial plan was to use Pomni to make Ragatha jealous but ended up making an actual friend which is very sweet considering his last real friend was, basically, her beta concept as many have pointed out.

But also, it’s a little funny how obsessed he is with Ragatha without realizing it. He can’t bring himself to acknowledge that he genuinely cares for her. And why would he? She probably took care of him for a bit when he first joined, but he probably picked up on her placating attitude, “If you tell someone they’re loved and appreciated everyday it just…it kind of loses all meaning”. This, plus his coping mechanisms and her, possibly, botched attempt at consoling him when Ribbit abstracted drove them apart. Remember, Ragatha entered the circus before him— she’s been there, quite literally, his entire life. Yet he can’t bring himself to admit that he’s attached to her especially after going through the grief of Ribbit.

Episode 4 & 5 have confirmed that they know the other is constantly putting up a mask. In Episode 4, Ragatha asks, “Can’t you find a way to relieve yourself that doesn’t involve hurting people?” And in Episode 5, she says, “…it’s better than turning her into some insensitive jerk who deflects everything…and then you just act like you never do anything wrong and everybody loves you when in reality you just fuck everything up for everyone else” (oof the projecting in this scene; surprised she didn’t call him ‘mom’)

Likewise, Jax has multiple occasions throughout epsidode 5, most notably “I think she tries way too hard…Like why are you always pretending everything’s always fine”, “Geez Raggy, just let yourself be mean sometimes. It’s funny!”, and “oh right, I should force to be happy all the time instead, right?”

You could argue Jax wants to be friends with Ragatha, but the genuine side of her that he knows experiences sadness, pain, and fear. I don’t believe he wants her to abstract, and in fact he might want to save her. It’s possible Ribbit might have acted similarly to Ragatha but was a little more genuine in his positivity (akin to Pomni), and that could have been their downfall. Ragatha means a lot more to Jax than he realized— she matters to him and he hates it.

As for the reverse? I truly don’t believe Ragatha hates Jax— perhaps irritated and annoyed, but not hate. Instead, I think she is heavily projecting her mom onto him as mentioned with the quote above. I think she has a hard time disconnecting the two in her mind given that he has berated her in every episode and just recently guilt tripped her into apologizing (granted he was probably joking and didn’t think she actually would). But unlike her mom who has authority over her, Jax is a stranger to her and so it’s easier for her to call him out.

It gives some extra weight to when she said “I like hate you, but I don’t want you to hate me.” It’s common that a child of parent emotional abuse will have complicated feelings towards their parent— the contempt for treatment but the yearning for approval and love. This is something I’ve touched on before, but to reiterate: Ragatha cannot stand how irresponsible and nasty he can be towards others (I don’t think she cares if he picks on her tbh), but she needs his approval, and now we can speculate that’s it’s because it’s the closest thing to getting her mom’s approval.

Ugh these two make my fucking sick

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My mom's villain origin story is that she managed to have two children (20 Years old and 5 Years old) who despises taking pictures while she absolutely loves to take pictures

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compilation

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So, if you don't know, there's a young Brazilian woman trapped on a cliff in a volcano in Indonesia on the National Park of Mount Rinjani . She's been there for 3 days and it's been horrible to follow the news here in Brazil. The Indonesian government is doing NOTHING to rescue her, besides lying to her family saying that they had thrown food and water to her, when that wasn't done. Juliana Marins has been alone for 3 days, 3 DAYS, waiting for rescue, without food or water, and they're doing the bare minimum to help her.

Following is the article talking about this, Sorry but it's in brazilian portuguese:

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I felt inspired

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God Ragatha always being belittled and made to feel guilty for not being perfectly demure and well-behaved and facing backlash for just being herself. And then people hate her for doing what she was told to her entire life. And then she finally does what they tell her to do and then just give her mortified looks for it. Making Ragatha feel guilty for expressing negativity like her mother all over again. Girl could start hallucinating her mother’s face over everyone else’s and it’d make perfect sense for her state of mind. She’s been haunted by her mother and shaped by her mother and is now trying to be a mother to her own adult peers because being a woman is fucking insane.

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Me when Jax feels deeply hurt towards Ragatha for accidentally bringing up his personal baggage (he regularly assaults, belittles, and makes fun of other people’s issues at their expense and acts like he just doesn’t know any better):

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It’s insane how Ragatha actually apologizes for non-maliciously giving Jax even a slight taste of his own medicine, she really has nothing to be sorry for, and Jax is somewhat appreciative deep down of the fact but can’t even be half-assed to apologize back. And despite being so much more of an actual person than Jax, despite actually trying to grow and adapt to respond to people’s criticisms more than Jax, Ragatha is left out while he isn’t. All because Ragatha comes across as too clingy? Despite being able to respect boundaries…

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mr president, a second toxic ship by rebecca sugar has hit the steven universe fandom

this woman is a menace

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first 5 faceless emojis are how your summers gonna go

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Make sure you don't accidentally punish people for communicating their needs and boundaries. When someone cares enough to have the uncomfortable conversation, that's a compliment and a clear sign that they are invested in the relationship. Yes of course it's uncomfortable to hear that something you've been doing has been upsetting someone you care about when that was never your intention, but people generally only bother to have these conversations with the people they want to keep around - the people they trust to care. If they just didn't like you, they'd probably just try to avoid you. So make sure you don't make it into a more punishing experience than it has to be. Try to see the care and the trust behind the criticism, even when it triggers uncomfortable emotions. It's a good sign that they're there telling you.

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In my opinion it's a lot more healthy to be able to own that you dislike someone for petty reasons than to do all kinds of mental gymnastics to make everyone you don't really vibe with out to be a bad person actually

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explain your gender in 10 words or less without using boring words like “male”, “female”, “nonbinary”, “masculine”, “feminine” or “androgynous”.

go!

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someone might need to hear this

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Laios heaven is Marcille hell it.s a very efficient system