tiredbitchh

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message to the love of my life, my sun and stars, my BIGGEST crush ever, my FRIEND, my frieeeeeend: krepaj

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“but if you dress/talk like that, it makes boys not want to talk to you!!”

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We love the Power Pop Girls™️

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so recently i came out to my best friend as bi and ever since we’ve been talking a lot more about our sexuality, views on religion, beliefs in general etc and im so thankful for her because i was holding back so many things that i didnt even realize - having somebody who’s ready to freely and without judgement listen to what i have to say is rly good lmao

but like lmao this year, this year was a fucking trainwreck. i started hating the part of myself that loved men so much, i was so focused on the fact that i had to hate men and i was constantly pushing away all the feelings of attraction i held for them that it started to affect my attraction as a whole, mainly my love for women. and it put me even further into the closet, like i was so fucking scared to come out to my friend, i cried for 20 minutes before i was able to tell her. and now thinking about it, that was so crazy because she truly is the kindest and most understanding person ever.

and i mean i know, it isnt easy to come out, everyone gets scared from time to time, but like. i was terrified. i had retreated so far back into the closet. like, i have been dropping the hints for the entire year about how i dislike men and love women and surely she could’ve guessed that i was gay and like, we even talked a lot about like lgbt rights and stuff and i knew that she would love me no matter what but i was so fucking blinded with fear lol

like i was so sure that i would never meet a gay person in my life, i was so sure that i would never some out to my old friends because they would hate me etc etc and it was just. it truly was such a low point in my life like damn.

but now!!!!!! like now that she knows i feel so free. we talk about so many things every single day, she wants to know all about what have to say, she makes me say things that im to scared to say but i have been dying to say them for such a long time. her patience, her kindness and her humor are such a blessing and i truly do love her so much. 

and now that my mind is starting to clear and now that im finally letting myself to think without fear, i have never felt this free and comfortable with myself. im definitely going to come out to my childhood best friend once the college is over and i get back home. and lmao i think at least 40% of my old friends are gay. like i dont know for sure because they didnt come out or anything but you know, its that gay vibe. and just, these hints. i have been dropping similiar hints for a couple of past years lmao

also, i was talking to my best friend yesterday and we were talking about the way that we see our attraction and the way we present it. i told her about my love for women and how much it defines who i am and how much i love that part of myself. and then she said that she can see it in the way that i look, walk, talk. and i was like. aaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so relieved that i give off the gay vibe, i was fucking ecstatic!!!! and from here ill just continue to be gayer and gayer!

im slowly starting to accept my attraction for men and talking about it with my best friend helps a lot, and it just makes it easier to talk about my attraction in general, which in turn allows me to express my love for women more eloquently and openly. and its just. it so good. and i hope it will continue to be even better, from here ill just continue to grow! and i know, there will obviously be some rough patches and there will be times when everything gets bad but now that im letting myself rely on other people to have my back, i know that there will be good times too. aaaaaand  this gay ass bitch cant wait for those good times!!!!!

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what up i’m lesbian, i’m gay years old, and i never fucking learned how to talk to girls

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me: *knows people can find different things interesting/funny/worth watching and it’s totally normal that we have different opinions on the same stuff*

someone: i don’t like brooklyn nine nine

me:

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primadonna girl……………………………………………………………………………………….

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Beyoncé performing at the 2018 Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival

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chez moi y'a du soleil quarante jours par an, tu peux passer la plupart de l'année à l'attendre

la pluie ft. stromae - orelsan

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englands be like are you “”””””””””””””””””””schewpid””””””””””””””””””””

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man fuck math. if you know a number fuck you

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Shuri, being completely sincere for once in her life: I’m a lesbian.

T’challa, thinking he’s finally in on the joke after watching one (1) vine compilation: I thought you were American?

Shuri, sobbing: I love you so fuckinf much but I was serious.

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me before realizing i was gay: everything i do is for myself. i put on makeup for myself, i wear sexy clothes for myself, i dont do anything for men or for anyone else

me now, having realized i’m gay: i literally get up every day just for women. i make myself look presentable for women only. i have my tits out for women. please stare at my titties

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Jesus looked so sexy in 2003

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me talking to my lesbian and bi women friends: i don’t believe that “attraction” is a well-defined concept and i generally lean social constructivist when it comes to sexual orientation—what i identify as my lesbianism arises in a certain social context and i don’t necessarily think it’s some kind of mystical and essential part of me. i think it’s ok to define your orientation that way if you want but i also think that, especially for women, many people find it more healing to define it sort of actively. you’re not beholden to an immutable Nature that you can’t challenge; you can define what you want and seek. as such there’s more of a gray space between lesbianism and bisexuality than many people would tell you, and sometimes choosing one label over the other is a matter of gut feeling and not the cold scientific distinction people may picture. of course it doesn’t make sense to call yourself a lesbian if you’re pursuing men, but in dealing with misogyny and compulsory heterosexuality a woman may make the choice of whether or not to include some kind of “potential” attraction to men in her orientation. basically, if you want to be a lesbian, you can be a lesbian, and if you want to be a bisexual woman, you can be a bisexual woman. sexuality should be something you actively participate in and that makes you feel happy and comfortable with yourself, not something preexisting that you just can’t escape from and are forced to accept.

me talking to men or straight people or people whose politics i don’t know and trust: i was born this way.

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i am nothing but gay and a fool

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