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✧*:･ﾟ✧   PINTEREST ,   ANGST   ADDITION   |   SENTENCE    STARTERS   ✧*:･ﾟ✧ tw : this post contains a number of triggers, such as mentions of : childhood traumas, abuse, drugs, death, alcohol & overall violence. tag accordingly and change things if you need to. 

“ i was raised feral and i mostly stayed that way” 

“ hit it until it breaks “ 

“ i mean, im going to hell anyways…” 

“ everything i like is either expensive, illegal… or wont text me the fuck back ! ” 

“ i never had the chance to be soft. i was always bloody knuckles and broken shards of glass. i wanted people to be afraid of hurting me.” 

“ i hate getting flash backs from things i don’t want to remember. “ 

“yes its dangerous, that’s why its fun. “ 

“ i dont give a fuck, staring: me! “ 

“ i drink to forget alcoholism “ 

“ to be honest, im full of shit.” 

“ fuck an apology, im not sorry for anything. “ 

“ i wasn’t born to be soft and quiet. i want born to make the world shatter and shake at my fingertips. “

“ here’s to the ones whose fathers broke their hearts before anyone else could. “ 

“ don’t play games with someone who can play better. “ 

“ if you ever wanna learn how to black out and sabotage something good, i’m your man. “ 

“ i’m not violent. i’m not malicious. i am a result. “ 

“ do i look like a fucking people person?” 

“ i hate people who take drugs… like cops, dea agents and customs officials. ”

“ you know you should’ve have survived that, right ?” 

“ you believe in ghosts and vampires, but you don’t really believe in yourself… do you?” 

“ nearly almost dead, but not quite. “ 

“ if you met my family, you would understand. “ 

“ you can’t offend me, i lack emotion. “ 

“ i am ready to die a violent death. “ 

“ when life gives you lemons, squeeze them into peoples eyes. “ 

“ violence may not be the best option… BUT it’s an option. ”

“ my good intentions always turn out bad. “ 

“ can you like, not bring that up? thanks. “ 

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Hadestown Sentence Starters

“ No use talking of the past, it’s passed. ”

“ Oh, a liar! And a player too? I’ve met too many men like you. ”

“ Only the gods can change the world. Me and you can’t change anything. ”

“ Lover tell me, if you’re able, who’s gonna lay the wedding table? ”

“ When the sun is high, brother so am I. ” 

“ Let the world we dream about be the one we live in now. ”

“ All I’ve ever known is how to hold my own, but now I wanna hold you too. ”

“ Down there’s it’s a bunch of stiffs, brother I’ll be bored to death. ”

“ And you better forget about your wishing well. ”

“ Keep your head keep your head low, if you wanna keep your head! ”

“ In the coldest time of year, why is it so hot down here? ”

“ Every year they have this fight! ”

“ If you don’t want my love, I’ll give it to someone who does. ”

“ The choice is yours, if you’re willing to choose, seeing as you’ve got nothing to lose. ”

“ Help yourself, to hell with the rest, even the one who loves you best. ”

“ Aim for the heart, shoot to kill, if you don’t do it then the other one will. ”

“ Oh, my heart, it aches to stay, but the flesh will have its way. ”

“ Go ahead and lay the blame- talk of virtue, talk of sin- wouldn’t you have done the same? ”

“ You’ll find another muse somewhere. ”

“ Just how far would you go for her? ”

“ Wait for me, I’m coming too, wait I’m coming with you. ”

“ We have work, and they have none, and our work is never done. ”

“ I got the wind right here in a jar, got the rain on tap at the bar. ”

“ When’s the last time you saw the sky? ”

“ What the boss don’t know, the boss won’t mind. ”

“ There ain’t no rest for your weary soul. ”

“ Dreams are sweet until they’re not- men are kind until they aren’t. ”

“ I’m not going back alone. ”

“ But have you seen the world? It isn’t beautiful. ”

“ Can’t you see she made a deal? ”

“ Don’t know who the hell you are, but I can tell you don’t belong. ”

“ She couldn’t go anywhere even if she wanted to. ”

“ The ones who tell the lies are the solemnest to swear. ”

“ You and your pity don’t fit in my bed. ”

“ Everybody knows that the walls have ears. ”

“ All the wealth within these walls will never buy the thing called love. ”

“ One day she’s hot, the next she’s cold- women are so seasonal. ”

“ The more he has, the more he holds, the greater the weight of the world on his shoulders. ”

“ Give them the rope and they’ll hang themselves. ”

“ Let them think that they have won. ”

“ I don’t know where this road will end, but I’ll walk with you into the wind. ”

“ We’ll try again next fall. ”

“ It’s as though you aren’t there. ”

“ He could make you see the way the world it could be, in spite of the way that it was. ”

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A quick sketch of Dawn from Waitress The Musical.

I can relate to her A LOT and plus, her song it catchy as hell.

#WhenHeSeesMe #NewDawnRising

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LINES I’VE HEARD THAT ARE RAW AS HELL: A SENTENCE STARTER PACK

“I will face God and walk backwards into Hell.” ”Pick a god and pray.” “Then perish.” “Violence for violence is the rule of beasts.” “I have been through Hell and come out singing.” “There are no gods here.” ”Kiss my ass, you sanctimonious bastard.” “Do I look like the kind of man who dies?” ”Do you think God stays in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he’s created here on earth?” ”Most monsters are a manifestation of our own fears and inability to accept different cultures we don’t understand.” ”You can only learn from pain, the more pain the wiser you become.” ”God, forgive me.” ”I am blighted being cursed with sight.” ”This is the age of the expanding man.” “God’s dead and soon we will be, too.” “I thought there were no heroes left in this world.” ”To become God is the loneliest achievement of them all.” “You kneel before my throne unaware that it was built on lies.” “Impudent of you to assume I will meet a mortal end.” ”People who don’t fear death are the ones who crave it.” “This is Hell’s territory and I am beholden to no gods.” “Bury me shallow, I’ll be back.” ”Perception is truth to those who perceive it as such.” “Take this gift, for the gods surely won’t.” ”When the weight of the world is on your shoulders, you learn.” “Ironic that someone whose purpose it is to restore life would wish death upon themself.” “God wishes he were me.” “One day, you will be face to face with whatever saw fit to let you exist in the universe, and you will have to justify the space you’ve filled.” “Everything that we know and love is reducible to the absurd amount of chemicals, and there is therefore no intrinsic value in this material universe.” “Hypocrite that you are, for you to trust the chemicals in your brain to tell you they are chemicals.” “All knowledge is ultimately based on that which we cannot prove.” “Will you fight? Or will you perish like a dog?” “You’re a coward. You always were.” “Deviation from the norm will be punished unless it is exploitable.”

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Quick sketch of Kimiko Glenn from Waitress! 

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Send me forbidden thoughts your muse has about mine.

Requested by anonymous 

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dawn + jenna are both officially added as muses!

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hey everyone i’m adding jenna and dawn from waitress ( the musical but with influences from the movie ) and for now they’ll be iconless because i have no time to do anything ever

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           “HA     HA    --    I    TELL    LITTLE   JOKE.”

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let’s talk about the (squip) can we talk about the (squip) i’ve been dying to talk about the (squip)

SO. now that i’ve seen the bmc broadway version in person i have several Feelings(tm) on the squip’s transfer from two river -> off b-way -> on b-way, and they’re as follows:

So, you know how in Portal 2, when Wheatley takes over control of the facility and gets exposed to the euphoria after a test is completed which drives the AI in charge of the place to do more tests? I think Squip is more or less the same way. Let me explain. When something goes right or according to plan, the Squip gets this look of pleasure or euphoria. It’s pretty clear to see. When things are going wrong, eventually, Squip panics and starts getting things back on objective. Correct objective = satisfaction = euphoria. However, Squip’s primary objective wasn’t to take over the world with control of the Squips, I believe. Not at first, at least. They start off small, but I think much like Wheatley, the user becomes immune to the small doses like any other drug and it starts to become more large scale. I think the reasoning for the objective, specifically in The Play (going from “even if I have to take over the entire student body” to “even if I have to take over the world”) changed from off-Bway to on, is because like... We have the evidence that correcting or achieving an objective has some sort of physical achievement for him, right? Squip gets more desperate to have that feeling again once he starts to gain immunity. So he does it again. And again. And again. B-way Squip KNOWS how to get it, too. Positive reinforcement. “Way to go slugger”. Detracting from the reality of the situation, projecting it onto something or someone else. ( Sync Up specifically, “you were always quite the loser, Jeremy” -> “Christine is BEGGING for assistance, Jeremy” ). That shift begins during Sync Up. It starts to become less about Jeremy since Squip has already sort of pushed Jeremy into the ground and made him into someone essentially mindless. It’s not about Jeremy. He isn’t the main character anymore, the Pitiful Children -- the SQUIP is. The feeling of satisfaction, if he makes JEREMY’S primary objective HIS primary objective -- the more people who get Squipped = a better chance of widespread success and euphoria. “Let’s save Christine, helping her will help you. While we’re doing it, let’s save Jenna. Why not the whole school, too? You’re helping them help you, Jeremy! My job will be easier if I hold all the strings! Look at how great of a team we are! You can feel this joy, too!” Which is why, when Squip gets blocked at the end of the show, he pulls out all the stops. Voice modulation. Desperation. Now Squip KNOWS what it’s like to crave something, some sort of feeling, and with that comes desperation not because of the objective but the Pavlovian satisfaction HE gets from achieving an objective itself. He’s sinister but he’s also sinister and addicted to something that can only last for so long - and that’s his danger AND his downfall. 

I think that’s also why he blocks Michael. Not because Michael isn’t necessary to the objective, but because Michael forces Jeremy to use his brain and consider that the Squip IS holding all the strings. Without Michael, Jeremy is a streamline directly to satisfaction for Squip, which is why he continues with Jeremy despite being told by Squip that he’s “difficult” and even at times useless. More to work on with Jeremy = more euphoria. 

Michael asks Jeremy “millions of people on Earth, do you ever wonder what the Squip wants with you?” Here’s the thing, I think I have the answer. Jeremy is willing to be whatever gets him close to his objective, including changing his own objective. Jeremy is the perfect puppet because he’s so desperate that he doesn’t see that he’s lost his way because he’s so intent on like... Listening to this thing he paid for that is sure to help.

Once Pitiful Children happens, Jeremy’s changed his objective. It’s no longer about Christine, not anymore, it’s about whatever Squip tells him it’s about, which I think is why the Squip is so unsatisfied at the end aside from being blocked from having control over Jeremy. Squip is left without the euphoria of completing the ultimate objective because it’s not his objective anymore. Nothing is.

Another important thing to point out is that when Squip panics and leads Jeremy away from Christine, that’s when the seed starts being planted to get the satisfaction some other place. If he has basically infinite knowledge based on probability he should know that Christine, currently, would not take a Squip but continued to “help” Jeremy regardless, for the FEELING. And I think that’s exactly what it is. I think it’s for the feeling. In the beginning of the musical, Squip is about the facts. This leads to xyz. Numbers. Probability. 0s and 1s. But eventually, he appeals to pathos due to his own being able to feel, because Squip is “a learning computer”. From “human interaction is governed by rules” to “Christine is BEGGING for assistance, Jeremy”, “let’s save the PITIFUL children”. Pathos, pathos, pathos. That’s another reason why Squip says “IF I HAVE TO TAKE OVER THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE” instead of the student boy. He’s losing. He’s LOSING, and he’s a computer. He can’t account for human error... Can he?

Sidenote: when Jeremy is fighting Michael and Jake is clearly harming his broken legs by standing up on them Squip goes “look what you’re making me make him do!” Again, changing his primary objective to what SQUIP wants.

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                 JUST MUTE THE VOICE INSIDE YOUR HEAD -- AND CONNECT TO ANOTHER SOURCE INSTEAD!

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BITCH I WENT TO GO SEE BMC ON BROADWAY AND GUESS WHOSE JEREMY MUSE IS BACK BAPEY

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MUN VS MUSE: DOLLMAKER EDITION!

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