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But humans aren’t fireproof!

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You talk too much

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TW Child abuse/manipulation general Belos shenanigans. No spoilers past 3x01, please don’t add spoilers for 3x02 to this post.

Sometimes I think about how Belos targets kids and why, because he knows that kids are still developing and don’t always understand right from wrong, and also it seems like he just likes being around kids more because he feels like he can control them. He’s very aware of what’ll upset Luz, what’ll make her mad, and what to say to her to get what he wants. He’s even more in tune with Hunter, he kind of trains Hunter on certain words like “replacement” that set him off. Hunter’s backstory that he gives in Hunting Palismen is probably almost word for word what Belos taught him to say (he always highlights how Belos gives him the staff which would be important to him as a half-witch but Belos also highlights that himself which feels… interesting, as well as the fact that it sounds rehearsed a bit, because Hunter trails off and then he remembers where to go next with “And then Belos found me”), and Belos definitely taught Hunter to respond to physical violence specifically from him with the freeze reaction which is fucking awful (ex. Eclipse Lake, Hunting Palismen- Belos makes a sudden movement and in both of these Hunter goes silent and still, and then in King’s Tide, Hunter freezes up and goes silent when Belos addresses him). Finally, the Collector he has less control over but it kind of seems like the Collector looks up to him and Belos uses that against him. The Collector gave Belos secret magic, and helped him create the Grimwalkers, in exchange in a lot of ways for Belos’ friendship. Belos and the Collector even pinky swore that Belos would let him out, and Belos abuses that and uses his position of having something the Collector wants to force him to help him. 

I don’t have anything to say about Darius because we haven’t seen them interact directly or alone and we don’t know much about their relationship other than their vague past when Darius was likely a minor so. Yeah. Probably won’t get elaboration on that at this point but this is a History.

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Some Collector Character Analysis

Annoyed by people who say that the Collector's personality changed "for no reason" or who say they preferred him from season 2. Like. There is a reason he changed. He was being abused, manipulated, lied to, for 350+ years. Before that it's implied they were, at the very least, neglected by their family. I don't like when people say they preferred how he acted in season two because he was "actually threatening" or "interesting" or whatever because as someone who knows enough about this kind of thing (and that's all you're getting from me), when I see the Collector in season 2, I see a child who is reacting to their environment.

He was never evil, he was in pain and trying to conform to what he thought was expected of him by the adult that was "taking care" of him, that he thought he was friends with.

People talk about fight or flight, when there's actually three other responses, freeze, friend/fawn, and flop. I propose that the Collector's response is fawn, which is described as

"The fawn response may show up as people-pleasing, even to your detriment. You may use compliance and helpfulness to avoid abuse; you disregard your happiness and well-being no matter how poorly someone treats you. This trauma response is often used to diffuse conflict and return to a feeling of safety."

As another layer to this, I was talking to my therapist about the Collector and I asked her how a child who is very neglected might act, since I HC the Archivists were neglectful to them and also they were trapped in solitary confinement for like 2000 years minimum. And she told me "Well they would have attachment issues" either in that they cannot attach to people at all or they are instantly very attached to people. And I think it's the second one, because we see multiple times that the Collector is immediately trusting of people when he meets them. They didn't like Luz but as soon as they think they have the opportunity to befriend her, they immediately become attached. And obviously there was him trying to befriend Belos even after everything he's done to EVERYONE including them.

So I think it's super believable that they immediately attached to Belos, believing everything he was told, and trying very hard to appease and appeal to him, adopting a persona of cruelty, even if they didn't like it. He was doing it to survive, he was doing it because he was desperate for some form of love or approval.

So when we see him in season 3, the reason he's behaving differently could be multiple things:

They are now attached to King and are trying to behave more like King to appease him because that's how he lived for multiple centuries

He never was genuinely evil or malicious, at least not to the extent that he played that part in season 2, though he potentially had some more callous tendencies due to the circumstances of his family and culture

He is no longer being actively abused and the less stressful environment has drastically improved his mood and mental health

I'm willing to bet it might even be all three at once. When you're in pain you are not your best self, pain makes you behave irrationally, angrily, cruelly, especially when the pain never seems to stop, and it's even worse when you're a child and might not even recognize what's happening to you. Belos being gone, and being around King, who is also a good kid with some occasional Mal-intent, "changed" their personality because they weren't conforming themself to play the stressful role of evil side-kick in an act of self-preservation.

So anyways the Collector is cool and I love them and want to adopt them and get him some therapy.

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It's interesting how Hunter and Collector react to Belos trying to/almost hitting them for saying something he doesn't like.

The Collector dodges and does not apologise or stop talking, but changes the subject like Hunter did, whereas Hunter does not try to move and immediately apologises.

My mini theory is that when Belos tries to hit the Collector, he usually stops after the first attempt, so dodging works (likely because covering the mirror is more effective, and although it might be painful, he can't harm them physically in a way that matters), whereas Hunter is hit repeatedly, and if Hunter tries to resist his punishment, then he will be punished worse.

Furthermore, Hunter is much more disposable than the Collector. Belos does not need him; there are many other coven members eager to serve Belos, and he can make another grimwalker.

On the other hand, the Collector is rare, and Belos needs him to get information (although I dunno why he kept him for so long. Did he get some amusement out of it…? Did it really take him that long to learn the draining spell? How much of the draining spell and the magic Belos knows was stuff Collector told him, and how much was stuff he figured out himself?)

What do you think?

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cross-posting this to Tumblr rq because I’m ill rn

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🌠🚀"Beam us up! Beam us up!"🚀🌠

Happy "Thanks to Them" Anniversary!

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My sweet cheese. My good time boy

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I miss you so much, child of the stars ✨ (reupload)

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Willow: since we're trapped in the Human Realm and have time to kill, we've been thinking that it'd be great if you could show us some of some of the human 'movies' you're always raving about!

Luz: oh man I'd love to show you guys some of my favs! but uh, a lot of my top ten picks are horror movies so maybe we should start with something less scary

Gus: pfft, Luz, come on. after all the stuff we've been through together, what could these 'horror movies' possibly have in them that could scare us?

Luz: yeah, I guess you're right

*cut to the Hexsquad frozen in horror in front of John Carpenter's The Thing while Vee & Luz eat popcorn*

Luz: oh man you guys, this is the best part coming up!!

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The Owl House fandom is very funny bcos at one end you have the Lumity shippers but then at the other end you have the people who are obsessed with the Bone Pit

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tumblr has an AI toggle you should turn on to prevent your work being shared with training models/etc! it's under settings & visibility.

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"And that's why you need to choose yourself"

Happy Four Year Anniversary to a very special show that helped me deal with the pandemic back in 2020 💖

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since camila's mom joke never made it past the storyboards, I wanted to draw my own version of it

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he sad :(

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Happy merry Crisis everyone

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Like collector is basically a young god with blue and orange morality and Belos is a human who’s just a bigot and awful so while both have committed atrocities whenever I see the Collector go “funky dude” and when I see Belos I go “I hope you die”

Idk I’m tired