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okay im a bit tired of social media again. thank you for entertaining me and letting me post my fanfics. i will be back! just taking another break (❁´◡`❁)

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Larval Stage of a Fujoshi by nimpark

A childhood moment between Momose Narumi and Nifuji Hirotaka where Narumi is realizing where her true passions lie. And she asks Hirotaka about it.

AO3 Link

(I suck at summaries...)

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im writing a fic... its based on the manga wotakoi: love is hard for otaku... its the first fic ive completed in months....

also it feels weird to write a fic for something ive only read the first two volumes of. i wish i could read more of this manga but i dont have the money to buy more ╯︿╰

maybe i could convince my family to get me more volumes around the holidays or for my birthday....

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i think what will fix me right now is some good draco whump. either reading it or writing it i just need that man to be a sad wet rag being wrung over and over

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HARRY!!!

harry with snek is my life, I would devout myself to this religion.

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hold still

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Reigen's Insecurities and Defense Mechanism in Relationships: The Case for Mobreimob

So, I stumbled upon this tweet on Twitter (I refuse to call it X) just now.

It's no secret Reigen has a side he's hiding that he's ashamed/embarrassed to share, but I couldn't think of what exactly it is. Until this question, that is.

Because, in real life, even the smallest thing can be something you're not willing to tell others due to context and culture (ie. liking yaoi; having pre-marital sex in a society that criminalizes it; heck, stanning BTS amongst a group of friends who are all BTS antis (lol); etc.)

As for Reigen, I believe his shame is mostly tied to his dream. He wanted to be "someone", but all he is now is a scammer who tricks gullible people and underpays his employees.

When he first meets a potential romantic partner, he can't have possibly confessed all his sins right away. He probably oversells himself out of habit and, later down the road, finds it hard to expose his more vulnerable sides because his initial oversells are lies.

He tells Mob to be himself when Mob is about to confess to Tsubomi, but Reigen admits to Serizawa that, if it were him, he couldn't have used his own advice because his real self isn't likable. He wouldn't "be himself". He'd "try to be slick".

Or, in the manga:

That's why I think Reigen is the type of person who has no difficulty attracting potential romantic partners. He can get anyone he wants and, on the surface level, everything will be great in the early stages of the relationship. But,

They'd always leave once they realized his lies and stopped seeing him through a rose-tinted glass;

Reigen, after learning this pattern, would push potential romantic partners away before anything even started;

Even if this person is still interested in having a relationship with him, it's very likely that Reigen would self-sabotage the relationship and find ways to end it. If he was still unable to solve his insecurities at this stage, he'd always end up internally questioning the other person: "Is this really okay?" "Is this really what you want?" "Are you really okay with me?"

Considering all these, the perfect partner for Reigen would be someone who accepts him despite knowing all his bad sides. But, most importantly, they should be someone Reigen is willing to be honest with, who encourages him to accept himself and helps him become a better person.

Someone like that already exists in the Mob Psycho 100 universe.

Mob knows all along that Reigen is lying. Despite this, he still accepts Reigen.

Mob is also the only person other than Tome who Reigen confesses his lies to (in the Reigen manga spin-off). Reigen is never honest about his real self with anyone else except these two.

By having Reigen console Mob about an internal conflict he himself is dealing with, Mob also indirectly encourages Reigen to accept his real self (this is a similar technique used in Greta Gerwig's Barbie when Barbie tells Ken that it's okay to be ordinary. Barbie's consolation of Ken prompts her to realize that she herself is also enough)

And lastly, Mob indirectly encourages Reigen to be a better version of himself. The separation arc prompts Reigen to humble himself and appreciates Mob a lot more. The confession arc prompts Reigen to be more honest. And Mob apparently indirectly prompts Reigen to work out more, too.

Okay, so we've established that Mob is the perfect partner for Reigen. But is Reigen the perfect partner for Mob? Because a relationship is a two-way street, and we can't have one party be happy while the other miserable.

What's interesting about this question... is that both Mob and Reigen mainly look for and need the same thing from a partner: someone who provides external validation AND inspires internal validation (self-acceptance).

In the case of Mob, the former is really the main reason why he "falls" for Tsubomi in the first place. She doesn't see him any differently, even with his powers. So, what about Reigen?

Okay, so he doesn't treat Mob any differ—wait.

So, Mob has actually pondered about this. About how Reigen actually sees him. Mob isn't dumb. He and Shigeo knew all along that Reigen is actually powerless. That he lies and uses Mob for his own benefit.

But are all these true, or are they simply his own assumptions?

They used to be true, but not anymore.

And whilst Tsubomi is able to give Mob external validation (when they were both kids), she doesn't inspire internal validation like Reigen does. This doesn't even include the ways in which Reigen influences Mob to be better. Because I don't think I need to bring any evidence to prove that had Mob not met Reigen, he'd be Mogami 2.0 or claw!Serizawa 2.0.

So what does this all mean?

The TLDR is that considering Reigen's insecurities and defense mechanism in relationships, I do think that Mob is the perfect partner for him all along, but Reigen is only the perfect partner for Mob post-confession arc—once he can be honest with Mob and himself, and stops relying on Mob at all.

Because only then that Mob and Reigen can exist without distorting each other.

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i made a mini-comic with my characters Chipset and Database :] Chipset and Database's Tech Tips is now on itch.io for free!! 🖥️

learn about computer basics with them as they teach each other about their fields of interest (and make a lot of mistakes along the way...)

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friendly reminder that Tom Lehrer was Jewish and the appropriate phrase for his passing is "may his memory be a blessing" thank you good night

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goomba

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hogwarts staff gift exchange

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Spring Term. Harry's off to teach DADA, but he'll have his Floo set up and ready for Draco to crawl through by the evening.

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lying in front of the street cleaner

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Do you guys remember the wenis

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I CAN’T TELL WHAT’S FUNNIER I regret middle school

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consumed by mentally ill thoughts.... i know what im supposed to say to people so i say what they want to hear. i have not shared my true feelings in almost 2 weeks. i just talk when im spoken to. i think so much and it doesnt always make sense and its like theres a 10,000 foot high wall that my thoughts have to climb in order for them to become words that i say. this sucks!!!! ive been taking all my meds its not fair that this still happens!!!!!!

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Mountain Hare/skogshare. Värmland, Sweden (July 7, 2021).