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Ladies Man- Pt.1

a ran x reader series

trigger warnings: a little cussing, reader is female

A/N:  I’ve decided to post more often, so here is a Ran dump I had saved in my drafts, because I love him so much.

Ran Haitani was the epitome of a ladies man. The very definition of one. His appearance and his charming personality was enough to with anyone over. Tall, well built but slim, with long hair tied up into braids, a pretty face and most of all, his calculating violet eyes that managed to capture the hearts of any girl he set his sights on. And he just was so seemingly effortless and graceful in all that he did. He was suave, charismatic, the list goes on. Not to mention, being able to take charge over the Roppongi district at such a young age and being apart of multiple gangs did wonders for the bad boy persona that so many females seem to like. Long story short, these advantageous traits made him extremely attractive. That’s why Ran Haitani, has always lived the good life when it came to dating. With one luck, he can wrap a girl around his finger. Who wouldn’t use this skill to their advantage?

This is precisely the reason when his younger brother Rindou didn’t even bat an eye when yet another one of his girlfriends came over to his house to disrupt the minimal peace he had. Living with such a popular brother like Ran isn’t easy. Naturally, with talents like these, a little bit of bragging is clearly understandable, right? So, obviously, Ran showed them off at every given moment. At last, what seemed like centuries later, the girl left looking utterly pleased that she was able to spend some time with a guy that seems like he came out of some fantasy shoujo manga. 

After she left, Ran plopped on the living room couch looking bored and displeased. “What’s up with you?” Rindou inquired. “Shouldn’t your dumbass be smirking in my face telling me about how many girls you manage to pull?

 “Aw come now, I understand you’re jealous but that’s no reason to insult your phenomenal elder brother, now is it?” Ran retorted. 

Rindou merely rolled his eyes, however his exasperation quickly faded when he saw that the look on Ran’s face returned to displeasure. “Dude, what the hell is wrong with you? How can you look dissatisfied after hooking up with a girl?” Rindou asked his brother.

“I wish I could be as simple minded as you, Rindou.” The elder Haitani melodramatically sighed. “You see, when you’re as attractive as I am, you can get anyone to like you. And that’s exactly my problem. I get all these girls to like me, and majority of them are smoking too. But they’re all the same, just trying to get in my pants because they think I’m some hot bad boy gangster, which I mean, I am....but I think I just want someone to like me for me.”

Rindou blinked. “Bro... are you on crack?”, was the only thing the younger Haitani was able to spew out after hearing Ran’s rather surprising monologue. “I never thought I would see the day where Ran Haitani would be tired of hooking up and actually want to commit to a relationship.” Ran didn’t say anything but glared at his brother. Rindou, if he wanted to, could also be a complete asshole. “Well, Ran, you’ll find someone someday. But, there is no point in moping around. If you want a committed relationship with someone, get off your ass, find someone you like, and use your charms. And quit hooking up with girls who only want you for shallow reasons if it bothers you that much.”

Ran stiffened at being called out but grudgingly accepted that his brother was right. Rindou has always been the wiser one among the two. He simply tilted his head back against the couch and hoped that someone would come along soon...

“CRAP!!!” I’m gonna be late!!” You leapt out of your bed, when you realized that school would start in 20 mins. You had spent majority of the night before cramming for an extremely important test of yours, which lead to you oversleeping due to your exhaustion. Within a matter of minutes, you somehow managed to shove some sort of food in your mouth, sort your appearance out and pack your bags before bolting out the door. 

“I think I may just have set a world record for fastest time to get ready”, you said as you were jogging at a quick pace. You pulled out your phone and checked the time. “Oh god, I’m gonna have to speed things up a notch if I want a hope of making it.” You swiftly quickened your pace. Upon focusing on being able to maintain a steady pace, you weren’t paying attention too much, which caused you to full on collide with an extremely tall person, which caused them to spill their drink they were holding, on their clothes. 

You straightened yourself out before looking up at the stranger. “Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry!! I was in a rush because I didn’t want to be late for class and I wasn’t paying attention.” You looked at the guy, who had shrewd, calculating eyes and stared at you. “Um, I’ll probably be late, but I can buy you a drink to compensate?” You got a better look at the man, and despite being soiled with his drink, he was extremely handsome, with long braids accentuating his pretty face. And..silent. He was starting to freak you out. 

Meanwhile, in Ran Haitani’s mind, he didn’t know how to speak. He couldn’t gather his voice. What the hell is happening? He thought to himself. He was basically a professional flirt, so why was he struggling so much to recollect himself? He looked at the stranger before him. She was tinier than him, and stared at him apprehensively, and not to mention, she was incredibly cute. Beautiful. But not like anyone he was used to dealing with. He was used to dealing with girls with top-tier designer clothes, heavy makeup, and professionally done hair, and well... she was the opposite. She had a basic school uniform thrown on, which was disheveled, and a couple crumbs of food on her cheeks. And, she spilled a hot drink on him. So, how did Ran Haitani manage to fall so hard? 

“Hello, dude...are you good?? Yes or no to that offer? I’d really appreciate an answer fast. I need to go to school.” You asked him, nearing the end of your patience. He snapped out of his reverie that you placed him in. “Hm..I dunno...I, Ran Haitani might need something more...” And at that, he internally cringed. Where had his eloquence gone? I, Ran Haitani?? Who says that in this day and age?? So, therefore, Ran wasn’t surprised when you looked at him funny. “Well, pretty...how about a date with me, hm? I think that’s payment enough. And, I promise it’ll be fun.” That should do it, Ran thought. Most girls would swoon if they could spend one NANOSECOND with me. And, your disgusted face made his heart drop, and he felt nervous. This was the first time he was so desperate for a girl to say yes. He wondered how someone like you managed to have so much power over him. How did you make him, of all people become a simp?

“Um...no thank you. I’m not really into the arrogant pretty-boy asshole type. But look! Those girls are!” You exclaimed, pointing to a small group of screeching girls staring at Ran. You pushed past him, as he stood dumbfounded. But, you quickly turned back and pushed a wad of crumpled bills into his unsuspecting hand. 

“For the drink. Sorry for the disturbance, Ran Haitani.” And with that, you managed to make Ran Haitani come to a standstill. All he could do is stare at your distant figure, that retreated quickly.

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Draken X Reader- Shadows of the One You Loved

A/N: First off, I would like to say that I AM ALIVE. I sincerely apologize for not writing or posting anything sooner, but if I am being honest, I’ve been busy with school, and life in general and, well...I forgot I made this account so that I could share some anime or game brainrot with some like-minded people. And after I came back, I noticed my two posts got way more notes than I was expecting you guys to give, so thank you for all the reads, follows, and likes! So I’ve been thinking of a certain Draken scenario, and I decided to post it. Enjoy!

warnings: chapter 148 spoiler, mentions of death, lil bit of cussing, tokyo rev timeskip spoilers...I ADVISE YOU NOT TO READ THIS IF YOU HAVE NOT READ THE MANGA UP TO CHAP 225(or spoil yourself but don’t blame me), ANGSTY

     You silenced your phone for what felt like the millionth time, too upset and heartbroken to care for the calls coming through. You knew if you picked up, or looked at the texts, you would have to answer their frenzied questions, or listen to their voices filled with anger and dismay on your behalf, and that would make you remember everything even more. And all you wanted to do was forget. Forget the moments, memories and most of all, HIM. You wanted to forget him...

      *RING, RING* Your cellphone’s ringtone blared annoyingly, and you were pissed. You were on a roll studying for an exam of yours that was coming up, and your cellphone interrupted your train of thought. The irritating caller turned out to be none other than one of your close friends, who called you frantically because his motorcycle broke down.

     “Please, can you be here with me?” Your friend begged you. “What am I gonna do there?” You countered. “I don’t know the slightest thing about motorcycles. I’d be utterly useless.” 

     “Yeah...but here’s the thing, the guys running the shop intimidate me! Like I feel like the main dude can snap me in half with his bare hands!” Your friend was truly freaked out, and you couldn’t hold in your laughter at his statement. “Alright, alright, I’ll be there. You owe me,” you told your friend, and you hung up. You headed out of your house and strolled through the bustling streets of the Kanto Prefecture. You were steadily making your way, until you halted in front of the motorcycle shop your friend told you to meet him at, D&D Motorcycle Shop. You were greeted by your frantic friend, biting his nails anxiously. “Thank God, you’re finally here. It took you long enough. I thought that maybe Draken’s spirit heard what I was saying about him, and he decided to haunt you and take you away!” “You are an absolute idiot, you know that? You know how stupid you sound right now? Also, who’s Draken?” You retorted in disbelief. The nervous boy said nothing in response, only looked at the shop like it was an entrance to hell. “Alright we’re going inside. Come on, scaredy-cat!” You grinned, dragging your friend inside, where his bike was getting fixed up. 

You entered the shop, and your eyes met with an unexpected sight. The fact that your friend was NOT exaggerating. The guy fixing up the bike was HUGE, muscular, and tall. Not to mention, he had a half-shaved head, with very long, blond hair tied up in a braid that trailed down his back, and a dragon tattoo that swirled around the side of his head. But you watched as he worked on the bike with extreme concentration painting his features, and your face started to heat up. While his appearance was menacing, he was also handsome, in a very rugged and unconventional way. 

     “Do NOT tell me that you are getting a fucking crush right now.” Your friend said sassily, and audibly. Your eyes widened in surprise, and in fear just in case the man working on the bike heard. “Shut up, asshole, at least I wasn’t scared of him!” You replied to your friend. Your friend blushed at that, and he turned away, angrily. “Where are you going?” You questioned. “To get something to eat. Screw this. I’m not spending hours here.” He answered. “WHY’D YOU DRAG ME OUT HERE IF YOU AREN’T EVEN GONNA STAY!?” Now you were actually PISSED. But, your friend being the jackass he is, left without a word, while FLIPPING you off. You grunted in frustration and decided to look at the blond again, and you realized that he was looking at you. He quickly turned away when he realized you noticed him. This gave you the courage to go and talk to him.

“Excuse me, sir? Is it alright if I watch you work from closer up? I find it pretty interesting.” You asked in a straighforward manner. “Suit yourself, but be careful.” The man told you. Your heart melted at that. Scary my ass, you thought. He seems like a nice guy, just a little gruff. “So sir...-” “The name’s Draken, and you can quit callin’ me sir. I’m 18.” He replied. “HUH?? You’re the same age as me??? What the heck? Talk about an early developer!” You couldn’t contain your surprise. Despite himself, Draken let a small smile creep onto his face at your outburst and bubbliness. Then, he studied you. There was an air of familiarity around you that he couldn’t pinpoint, like he had met someone like you before in the past. 

     “Hey, you smiled! So, I guess you aren’t scary after all. My friend dragged me out all the way here while I was studying just because he was scared of you! Isn’t that ridiculous. But, you have a nice smile, smile more often and then people won’t be scared of you!” You grinned. Draken felt his heart and face grow warm at your excitedness. Then, a sharp pang in his chest. And he looked at you again. And this time..he knew why you were so familiar. You were just like her. His past love. His dear Emma-chan that he fell for. Your nature and the way you acted was just like her. No, he was just being ridiculous. This was just him longing for some company. So, he asked you boldly if you wanted to hang out sometime. And you, unknowing of what was to come, eagerly said yes. 

     And it was from then on, that your relationship with Draken began. At first, it was just friendly on his part, and you guys spoke occasionally, and hungout with each other. But you guys started speaking and spending time with each other more, and soon enough the both of you harboured feelings for each other. You remember the day he confessed to you, a beautiful, sunny day, in which you two were walking leisurely in a Tokyo park. You excitedly accepted his feelings, and told him that you felt the same. You remembered that he kissed you, and it was magical. He picked up your frame, that was so much smaller than his, and both of you locked in an embrace. But, as he kissed you, he couldn’t help seeing Emma. Couldn’t help feeling guilty. Couldn’t help but be reminded of his first love, who was just so much like you. But, he still decided to continue, even though he knew it would be torture for him, and torture for you once you found out that his heart didn’t belong fully to you. 

     After you kissed, you guys strolled together like any new couple did. As you walked, you noticed an ice cream truck, with all the GOOD stuff. “Draken, look over there! An ice cream truck! We have to get some!!” You dragged the large man’s sleeve, to which he said, “Damn, woman, don’t rip my arm off!” He thought your eagerness and innocence was adorable and your smile was beautiful. But then he was reminded of Emma. No matter how much he tried, he couldn’t get over her. You arrived at the ice cream truck, and ordered your favourite flavour. You were about to pull your wallet out, but Draken’s large hand stopped you. “You’re my girlfriend, I’ll pay.” As he pulled out the money, a picture of a young, cutesy girl came out. You picked it up and studied it. The girl was stunning, with wonderfully feathered blonde hair, and a very developed figure and a radiant smile, who was hugging a very happy looking Draken. You never saw that look on Draken’s face. As Draken handed you your ice cream, his eyes glanced at the picture in your hands, and as he realized what the picture was, his eyes widened marginally.

     “How did you get that?” Draken asked panicked. “Whoa, relax! It just fell out while you were taking out the money.” You glanced at his normally calm face, which now held an expression of fear and pain. “Who is she anyways? Your sister? She’s so pretty! She could totally be a model, unless...she already is one?” You asked. “She’s dead.” Draken threw it out there, coldly. “H-huh? I’m sorry...” You said to him. “I’m guessing she was special to you.” His eyes glanced at Emma’s smile again, and his eyes softened. “The most special. She was beautiful. She was the..best. I miss her everyday.” He never thought he;d talk about Emma to you of all people, but nonetheless, it felt good for him to get it off his chest. 

     You fixated your gaze on him, with an understanding look in your eyes. You remember he ranted to you about everything. About how she died. How he felt helpless. How he wasn’t able to save her. Protect her. And how it felt like that he lost the most importnat person in his life, that made him feel like he mattered, and that he felt an emptiness in his chest that grew with every passing day without her. And then your heart panged with sadness. Because the look that crept into his eyes when he spoke about Emma, the expression that was on his face...he never looked at YOU like that. And you realized with every passing day, that he tried to make you turn into her. From little comments about the way you should dress, about the things that she liked to do that you didn’t, and the comments about how you both were similar made you realize.  Realize that you were only a shell to him. Just someone sort of there. He didn’t love you. Draken loved the idea of you. And you felt like an utter fool. But, most of you didn’t want to believe that. However, for the sake of closure, you decided to ask him.

     It was a regular day for the both of you. It was a weekend, and you were sitting in his shop before closing time, as he prepared to shut the shop down for the day. “Hey, Draken, I think we need to talk.” You sighed breathily. “I already know which direction this is going in.” Draken looked at you sadly. “Draken, you don’t love me, do you?” You stared at the ground tentatively, afraid to look his face. “I’m sorry.” Draken said. That apology was all you needed to fully understand, all you needed to understand that your feelings were unreciprocated. You said nothing. You couldn’t say anything. Your throat closed up. You wanted to scream, cry, do both, but not in front of him. Draken called your name all of a sudden, and you flinched. “I really am sorry. It’s just your demeanor was so much like Emma’s, and all the feelings I have for her, were surpressed because of her death, and you managed to bring them back up again. You being with me lessened the pain of her being gone, because you were so much like Emma. I thought it was like having her back again, just in a different shell...but I was wrong. I love Emma, and only Emma, and I don’t think that will change. But, thank you for being there for me.”

     He edged closer to you and placed his hands on your shoulders. You still didn’t look up. “It’s late. You should head home. And, thanks again for everything.” He then, let go of you and turned away, signalling the end of the conversation. Probably the last conversation you would every have with him. You turned away, cursing yourself in the back of your mind as you headed home. You felt numb, and felt stupid. You knew, had an inching feeling of doubt, knew he felt this way in your brain somewhere, and yet you chose to ignore it. Eventually, you got home, and headed for your bed. And, there in your safe space, all alone, you let everything out. You started crying, howling tears of despair, until you fell asleep, and began your journey of healing and forgetting.

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Love Always Has A Second Chance- Part 2 of I’ll Never Be Her

 How on earth did my first story get so much love? Y’all on Tumblr are so nice. Ty for all the likes <3 Anyway, some people wanted a part 2 of I’ll Never Be Her, so because I didn’t any ideas in mind, I wrote one! I apologize if it’s not the best but I tried. There are no warnings except maybe a bit of cussing? I made this angst to fluff because my first story was really sad. I won’t delay you any longer so enjoy reading! Btw, 2.3k words.

You gazed at the beautiful horizon in the distance, illuminated by the faint glow of the now setting sun. You were currently at your special place, the place you went when you needed to recollect your thoughts. You were so overwhelmed by this new emotional overload what with Baji’s death and of course you finding out the hard way about Mikey’s feelings for another girl that wasn’t you, no matter how much you wanted it to be. You really tried heeding Draken’s advice, you really did! Despite it being rather painful, you hung out with Mikey and his new bubbly girlfriend fairly often so you wouldn’t arouse suspicion. But you can’t say that all the events in the past couple of days were horrible. In a way, you became closer to Draken, and you spent more time with other members of the gang. You started speaking with Chifuyu very often and became awfully close with him, due to the both of you having close bonds with Baji. You also started to get to know Takemichi and his girlfriend, Hina, both who really were sweet. You were glad that at least you had a fantastic support base who would always have your back. You couldn’t say that your life was entirely terrible. 

All of a sudden, an alarm blared out of nowhere interrupting your thoughts and you were positively frightened. You then realized that before you sat at your spot, you set an alarm so you could be on time for a Toman meeting that was to occur. You inwardly groaned. You normally didn’t mind Toman meetings but today’s was going to be different...

“Everyone, listen up!” A charismatic voice that belonged to none other than Mikey boomed at the 150 or so people who were ogling him. You grimaced, knowing what was coming next. A beautiful girl shyly made her way to the front of the shrine where Mikey was standing. “As you all know, (Girl’s Name), has recently become my girlfriend.” He wrapped an arm around her. I promised her the utmost protection from myself.” I love her very much.” Hearing these words started to make you feel bad all over again about your feelings for him. you wished the words coming out of his mouth were directed at you, instead. “However, because of gang life, I unfortunately can’t protect her as much as I would wish. So, therefore I am entrusting a very special person to protect her when I cannot. Someone who is just as gutsy and as strong as I am! So will (Y/N) please do the me favour of protecting her?” Although Mikey phrased it as a question, you knew that there was only one possible answer that you were allowed to give him. “I would be honoured.” You said looking at him, with the driest voice you could muster. “T-thank you, (Y/N)! I appreciate it!” (Girl’s Name) grinned. You nodded at her with what you thought was a very friendly grin to bottle up the emotions brewing inside of you. With a bit more discussion, the Toman meeting finally came to an end and everyone started to go their separate ways.

“Hey, (Y/N)! A voice called, and he was the last person you wanted to see right now. “What’s up, Mikey?” You greeted him warily. “Me and (Girl’s Name) are going to the new ramen place. They have this special spicy tonkotsu flavour that you’ll love! That is one of your favourites, right? You should come!” Mikey said enthusiastically. His girlfriend started fervently nodding behind him. “No thanks. had a heavy lunch. I really should get home too.” “Come on please? Am I not your friend?” Mikey pouted at you like a baby. “Mikey, man, I’m not in the mood.” You said rather coldly. The couple were rather taken aback by your tone. “What’s up with you? Are you alright? In fact, actually you’ve been really distant ever since (Girl’s Name) became my girlfriend.” Mikey was glancing at you suspiciously. You don’t know how it happened but before you could stop yourself you snapped. 

“God, Mikey! How the hell can you be so dim?” He stared at you in shock. You never lost your composure with him, unless he was relentlessly teasing you, but even then it wasn’t this bad. “Why don’t you put two braincells together, for God’s sake! Why do you think I’m so distant, huh!? Because I’m in love with you goddamn it!” You yelled at him, tears threatening to fall from your eyes. “ Could you not see it? But then again, we only want to see what we would like to, and my love wasn’t one of those things. I’ve loved you since the day I met you. I fell in love with how caring you are! Selfless! Kind! Gutsy! Cool! So I guess it’s no wonder that you didn’t fall for me. Because I’m not really any of those things!” (Girl’s Name) had a hand clapped over her mouth. She felt really bad for you. Mikey was still in a state of shock. You loved him? How did he not notice? He thought back to all the memories that he shared with you. It wasn’t that obvious...or was it? But also...what was this foreign feeling that was blooming through his chest? “Anyway...” you began to speak. I’m sorry I ruined the mood. If you don’t mind, I would really like to go home. Goodnight.” You turned and walked away sadly. The regular energetic spring in your step had faded completely. You left the couple at Musashi Shrine, staring at your retreating figure.

The next few days were painfully awkward for the two of you. Especially, since aside from Toman, you guys went to the same school and shared many classes. And friends. And with each passing day, you felt yourself getting sadder. Sure, you loved Mikey and that probably would never change, no matter how much your head told you to let go of your feelings. But at the same time, you realized you were missing Mikey as a friend. There was a lot less laughter without him in your life. So, after a rather bland school day, you stood at his locker waiting for him to come by. After a couple minutes, he came by, looking rather disheveled. He was probably kissing his girlfriend, no doubt. You walked up to him. “Mikey!” You began. “Oh, (Y/N)...um, hi.” He greeted you uncomfortably, averting your gaze. You sighed. ”Look Mikey, I know things are really awkward right now. But the thing is, I’ve missed having you as a friend. I know it will take a while to forget about what’s happened, but if you would like to, I would really want to be friends again, like the old days.” You finished your monologue and glanced at him hopefully. To your relief, his face morphed into a smile. “Boy, I was about to ask you the same thing. I would love that! Actually, let’s get some dorayaki right now! Emma stole mine so I need to restock my supply.” He said excitedly. “Yeah sure!” You mimicked his grin.

The both of you strolled the streets of Tokyo together, sharing funny stories and laughing together. It really was good to have him back, and you could tell he felt the same way. “ So, tell me Mikey. Why were you so disheveled on your way to your locker? Kissing your girlfriend?” You asked with a sly smile. “N-no! I had gym class! For your information, she left halfway through the day. Appointment or something. And I haven’t kissed her yet. I want it to be...special...” He trailed off, looking at something in the distance that clearly horrified him. You followed his gaze, only to find that (Girl’s Name) was kissing another boy passionately. Mikey slowly advanced towards her, you followed him, watching him apprehensively. You also felt a sudden surge of anger towards the girl. How could she dare to hurt someone as kind as Mikey? Mikey tapped (Girl’s Name) on the shoulder looking pissed. “So this was your appointment, huh?” (Girl’s Name) offhandedly untangled herself from the boy she was kissing and lazily gazed at Mikey. She grinned an evil grin. She was a completely different person. “Aww...did I break the little Mikey’s heart?” She cooed condescendingly. “Do you really believe I would like someone like you? Come on. With my looks, I can do so much better than you, sweetie. Isn’t it obvious that I was using you? You see, my boyfriend over here told me to charm you for information, cause, well you’re Toman’s top! His gang needed to figure out how to beat yours. But little did I know that you would become so enamored with me, that instead of feeding me info, you fed me stupid shit about how much you loved me! As if I needed to hear that from you!” Then, she flipped her hair and went back to kissing her boyfriend. Mikey was completely still. In denial. Disbelief. He cursed himself for being too trusting.

“Mikey? Are you okay? I’m really sorry.” You looked at him. You were sad for him. Finding out the hard way that someone didn’t love you like you did them. You were in the same boat now. He looked back at (Girl’s Name), and then back at you, confused. “I’m..alright. I just need some space to think things through.” Mikey said. “Don’t worry about me, okay?” And with that, he stalked off, hands rammed in his pockets, deep in thought. But, obviously, like the caring person you were, you were worried. Being rejected could really take a toll on your mental health. So, you went to look for him in the one place you knew where he’d be.

After a while, you made it to your special spot, and found Mikey there, leaning against the big tree, admiring the sunset. You were surprised to see a faint smile on his face. You went and sat next to him. “Hey Mikey. How are you feeling? I bet this must be hard for you.” He sighed. “On the contrary, I’m not really feeling sad at all. Because I just realized something important. I never really loved her.” He grinned at you. “Huh?” You stared at him, bewildered. “I’ll explain. So as you know, I’m not really involved with females in my life. So I don’t know the difference between love and friendship. I’ve been close friends with you for as far back as I can remember, and I have Emma, I guess. But she’s my sister, so that doesn’t really count. But then, that vile girl came along. And I guess I thought she was pretty. So, I guess because I was attracted to her in some ways, I assumed that I was in love with her. But then I spoke to Ken-chin and asked why he loved Emma. And the reasons he listed were much different than mine. I was in denial. I thought that maybe I was into different things. So, then after today’s events, I cam here and thought about mine and Ken-chin’s conversation, and I realized that I was in love with someone. I felt for someone the way Ken-chin feels for Emma. But that someone isn’t her. That someone is you.” Mikey looked at you. You were currently in a state of shock. 

“Me?” You asked him breathlessly. “But-but why? How?” You were utterly woebegone. “(Y/N). You make me happier than you could imagine. When I am with you, I feel whole. I lost a lot of things in life, but you fill up that emptiness inside of me. I didn’t realize that. Also, I think you’re beautiful. I’ve always felt that way, even if I didn’t know it myself. I love your smile. It gives me this weird feeling inside, but it’s not a bad one. It makes me feel warm. I’m extremely sorry for hurting you and making you cry. I love you, and I always have. I was just too foolish to realize my feelings. That day, when you said you loved me, I felt happy. I just didn’t know it was happiness. So (Y/N), will you be my girlfriend? I promise to give you all my love.” He was awaiting your answer with nervous eyes. So that’s why he felt amazingly relieved when your face broke into a wide smile. “Of course I would! You don’t know how much I was hoping for this moment. I love you!” “So now (Y/N). I would like to try something.” His hands cupped the sides of your face and he slowly moved closer to you. Both your hearts were thumping in excitement for what was coming next. Your lips touched and you felt sparks fly. It really is true that people say electricity surges through you when you kiss your true love. You both pulled away with identical giddy grins on both your faces. “I wanted my first kiss to special and I don’t think it gets any special than this.” Mikey said, his thumb gently caressing your cheek. You could only nod. You regained your sense, however and then turned to him. “Hey, Mikey! We should totally go to that ramen place you were suggesting! So we can commemorate today!” You said enthusiastically. He grinned but then quickly started to pout. “That’s no fair! I’m supposed to be the romantic one!” You got up and grabbed his hand, pulling him up from the ground.

“I think your confession was romantic enough. Let’s go before it gets too late!” You guys took off into the glorious sunset, running hand in hand. You guys were both the happiest you could be, or have ever been. You were extremely happy that you held on to your feelings. Because love always has a second chance.

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I’ll Never Be Her

Contains angst, mikey x reader, slight cussing, reader is feminine, it’s very long, a little episode 22 spoilers, 1.7k words

A/N: This is my first ever time writing on Tumblr so I apologize if I don’t meet your standards. 

A sigh left your lips as you gazed at the scene that was troubling you for ages. With every time you saw the two of them together, your hopes of being with Mikey increasingly dwindled. You cursed yourself for ever thinking that you could possibly be with someone that cool. But at the same time, you assumed you had the best chance of catching Mikey’s eye, what with all the years you had known him. You didn’t just know him, however. He was your childhood friend. You had been friends since your toddler years. You guys went to the same school, had the same classes. Hell, you were even a higher up in Toman! So when you saw Mikey with the other girl, it made your heart break. He acted differently for one thing. And instead of hanging out with you at school like he used to, he was wrapped around the girls finger. She was so beautiful, and had a killer personality! She was basically an angel. She was the apple of everyone’s eye. Meanwhile, you? You weren’t really considered beautiful by the students at your school, or the gang itself. Well, maybe they did, but they didn’t show it like they did with Mikey’s little “girlfriend”. You dressed in leather jackets, gang-type outfits, occasionally your gang uniform. But just because you were a gang member didn’t mean you did poorly in school. On the contrary, you were a stellar student. You were hardworking, and made sure to attend all your classes and try your best. Sure, you procrastinated sometimes, but which kid didn’t? But many people assumed you were just some sort of genius. They didn’t see the hard work. These were the constant thoughts running through your head as you were currently at school. You had a Toman meeting after school, and you were hoping to walk with him, but as you saw Mikey and the girl chatting it up at the lockers, all hope withered away and you walked by yourself. 

“(Y/N), are you okay? Hello? Earth to (Y/N)!?” Mikey’s voice snapped you out your reverie of flowing thoughts. Him and the rest of the gang were staring at you. In general, you were a very talkative person who didn’t take things seriously all the time, unless it was important. If that was the case, you gave things your utmost attention. And this meeting was probably one of Toman’s biggest. You guys were discussing the aftermath of your very good friend Baji, and valued Toman member who passed away during the Bloody Halloween conflict. You were stricken, and your grief was beyond tears. Like Mikey, Baji was also your childhood friend and was very close. He was so kind to you, and you always poured your heart out to him. His chaotic energy could always crack a smile out of you, even at your worst. You wished he was here. Despite yourself however, you smiled slightly at Mikey and said “Sorry for drifting off. I’m just hella tired.” Mikey could sense that you were being untruthful and he decided to halt questioning you further. Meanwhile, Draken was eyeing you suspiciously. After much discussion, it was decided that Takemichi would be the 1st division captain in Baji’s place at the end of the meeting. As soon as it finished, you went to scurry off to your house, hoping you could let out your feelings. You were stopped however, by a large figure standing in front of you. “Oi (Y/N)! Where do you think you’re going?” Draken snapped. “Home? Where else, dumbass?” You replied. “Not unless you tell me what the hell’s going on with you. Clearly, there’s a lot more than the Baji situation. Toman isn’t the same without your smile or your stupid jokes. So, just spit it out.” Although he was rather gruff in his words, the kind gesture warmed your heart. “Alright.” 

You guys made your way to a secluded area that you enjoyed coming to when you needed to recollect your thoughts. You told Draken everything and he listened to you aptly. “ Well, (Y/N), you know I don’t like sugarcoating shit, so I’m just gonna be straight up with you. I’m not gonna say that there’s a chance cause there isn’t. No matter how much you want it to happen, it’s probably never gonna. He acts differently in front of her compared to any other girl. The way he looks at her. He has feelings for someone that’s not you. I know that must fucking hurt. I can’t imagine what unreciprocated love feels like. I know it’s not gonna be easy but you gotta move on. You can’t live your entire life pining after someone you can’t have. Easier said than done, but you gotta try. But maybe, if it didn’t work out, then if probably wasn’t meant to be. I bet my entire monologue right now was chock full of the last things you wanted to hear right now. I’ve known for a while and I know that you’re a really strong and kind person, so I’m really hoping that you do the right thing. So, please heed my advice. Anyway, I should get going. Wanna come? The girls at the brothel have been asking for you.” Draken looked at you and he felt bad. Sitting through his speech surely must have been very painful. “Nah.” You answered. “Can’t say I’m feeling the best but I’ll sit here and think things through. Thanks for everything, Draken.” “Anytime.” The tall blonde replied. He rose from his sitting position, and as he did so, he surveyed you again. “I know Baji was your confidant and all, but if you ever need to talk about anything, I’m always here.” Draken said. You thanked him again and he made his way back home. You sat alone now, in your tranquil area. 

The sun was setting and you leaned back against a wide tree that successfully blocked you from view. That’s what made you spot so serene. And as far as you knew, you were one of the few people you knew about it. That’s the reason you were utterly shocked when you heard two pairs of footsteps making their way towards the end of the tree opposite you. “Hey, why’re you bringing me here?” You knew that voice. It was female. However you couldn’t exactly recall who it belonged to. “All in good time. You’re certainly eager.” The replying voice was a male’s voice. One that was unmistakably Mikey’s. “Ugh, can you just tell me already??? Please? Pretty please?” You knew the voice now. The girl Mikey had feelings for. Your heart started aching now. You knew exactly why he brought her here. It didn’t take a genius to figure out. “(Girl’s Name), from the moment I met you I realized you were unlike anyone I’ve ever met. Your smile, your kindness, your joyfulness, your beauty...they captured my heart. I love you, (Girl’s Name). I want you to know that my heart is yours, if you want me that is.” Mikey confessed. He crossed his fingers with bated breath. He sighed in relief however, when the person he loved broke into her wonderful smile and said, “Yes Mikey! Of course! I feel the same way.” Your heart stopped. Even though you were trying to heed Draken’s advice, you couldn’t help the large sob that erupted from your mouth. The giggles from the other side of the tree stopped abruptly. “There’s seriously someone else here right now!?” Mikey groaned in disbelief. 

“Hey, you better get the hell out of here. I’m warning you.” When you didn’t move, he grabbed (Girl’s Name) by the hand and made his way towards the end of the tree where you were sitting. They both froze in shock at the sight of you. “(Y/N)-chan)?”, they spoke simultaneously. “Are you okay?! Why on earth are you crying?” Mikey asked, while squatting closer to you. Meanwhile, (Girl’s Name) tried to give you a hug. You quickly got up, repulsed at being touched by her. Her hug was the last thing you needed. You quickly wiped the few tears that had fallen. “Damn, sorry for interrupting. I just needed some time to think about things and I let out a killer sneeze. I didn’t even know that tears fell out.” You said, trying to smooth over the awkwardness. They still looked at you uncertainly. Before they had the chance to say anything, you decided to compliment Mikey on his confession. “That was sure one hell of a great confession Mikey. Didn’t know you had it in you!” You smiled. “I’ll leave you two be now. Sorry for interrupting.” You turned on your heel and began to leave. But, Draken’s advice still bit at you, so you turned back around where they were still ogling at you. “Hey, Mikey! You better take care of her and make her happy, or I’ll punch you in the gut!” Mikey smiled. He wasn’t concerned anymore. With the way you were acting, it probably was just a killer sneeze. “Of course. I’ll make sure to give her all my love.” He said. You nodded firmly and quickly left, knowing you were probably going to dissolve into tears at any moment. Once you were far away, you brought on the waterworks. You let every tear and every sob out. You cried for a very long time. Only once your eyes were swollen and puffy, and your clothing was drenched with your tears did you finally stop. You then promised yourself you would never cry about this again.

You decided that in the end, part of loving someone was ensuring that they were happy. And if you weren’t that someone for them, you had to move on and accept that, no matter how hard it is. So you started your long journey, in repairing your broken heart, learning that you and Mikey were never meant to be, and that you’ll never be her.