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I can't believe it except I can

She was gonna give away my pain meds. Without asking me. She has no right. She just assumed I'd be ok with it. I asked her if she would give away hers and she was all "no fucking way" but I'm supposed to give up mine. The person she was gonna give them to didn't even ask me. I am both shocked and completely not shocked. Because of course she would give away my meds. My pain doesn't matter, my pain doesn't count, it's not a big deal if I'm in pain. I don't know that I can get past this.

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Sad realization

I just realized that if I had gotten pregnant the last time I had sex (there is no way that could actually happen but…) I would be close to having a full term baby. TL;DR- being married does not mean you will get sex. Not on Valentine’s Day or your anniversary or her birthday or your birthday. Although you should feel lucky cuz the last time was less than a week before your birthday. Last October. And nothing since. She wants to be all over you “cuddling” and kiss you a bunch but god forbid you make a move cuz she will very clearly reject you. Yet she won’t make a move and insist you make all the moves. Then be horrified that you brought it up. Number 2 on the DO NOT TALK ABOUT EVER list, sex. But also her go-to passive aggressive move: ignoring me. I don’t even know what I’m trying to say. Suffice it to say that my relationship is bad.

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So she admits she's acting shitty towards me but didn't think it was "that much". So she's crying. Because I complained that she is acting shitty towards me. I didn't get angry, I didn't yell. I just asked her to stop being so shitty to me. So now she's crying because she's always the victim and I am always so mean to her. She went and pouted. Then continued to be shitty with me. I got upset. Didn't say anything. Just went along with whatever the fuck she wanted. Later she apologizes and cries again. I cal my tell her I would like it if she stopped being so shitty to me. Again I am unreasonable and picking one her. When she has literally spent the day being shitty to me. I'm nervous because homophobic relatives are gonna show up. But I need to spend all my time and energy making her feel better about being shitty to me. I'm so done with this. Every fucking time she's the victim. She is not the victim. She is the abuser. So fucking done with this crap. White fragility, white tears, white superiority and everything else.

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Marvel fans: please go see Wonder Woman because it’s not very often that we get a superhero movie with a woman protagonist

DC fans: please go see Black Panther next February because it’s not often that we get a superhero movie with a predominantly black cast

What I’m trying to say is, these movies stand for something more important than your fandom

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Peggy Carter & Diana Prince In another universe, they would be best friends. They would share stories, talked about how they both had a “Steve” in their lives, and they would be kicking ass & changing the world.

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Roses are red, that much is true, but violets are purple, not fucking blue.

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Iconic

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Kermit pride icons in honor of Pride 2017! Feel free to use just credit me.

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My rant

I am sooo fucking mad at her right now. Our relationship is so fucked. She thinks and acts like she owns me and I need to worship her. I’m never going to be what she wants me to be. It’s not me. She is treating me how her mother did. Her mom would be sooo proud. I’m soo fucking sick of this. She wants me dependent on her for everything and then when I am she gets annoyed. She isn’t trying to keep her word. She still thinks she doesn’t have to be responsible for what she says, does, thinks. It’s “unfair” of me to use her past words and actions against her. I’m supposed to give her a fresh clean slate every time she says she’s sorry. Cuz it’s completely unreasonable for me to want her to keep her word, her promises, to NOT lie to me. She’s constantly screwing me over emotionally. Sex at most once a year is supposed to be ok. Again I’m supposed to fall on my knees and thank her for that. No more. She doesn’t get to see me naked and I don’t wanna see her naked. I’m giving her consequences and she’s gonna fucking hate it but I really don’t give a fuck. Not anymore. She’s used up her chances and more.