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Here's an ugly, unformatted post abt the status of this blog since I can't login on my laptop for the life of me. I'm gonna archive this blog, and move Jonathan over to my multimuse. If you want to interact with him, you can feel free to follow over @demessnes !

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*      YOU  DIDN’T  LISTEN  TO  WHAT  I  TOLD  YOU    ,    DID  YOU    ?      you  should  have  stayed  out  of  derry     .     your  parents  didn’t     .    look  what happened  to  them  !          //       ind.  priv.  highly  selective  HENRY  BOWERS  from  stephen  king’s  IT.    —   loathed  wholeheartedly  by  erin.

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Will Byers x Happiness

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Send "be honest" followed by a question and my muse will be forced to answer with 100% honesty

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* LOST  CHILDREN  OF  THE  NIGHT.          people  learn  to  fear  the  dark   ;   you  have  embraced  it  as  though  it  was  an  old  friend.          it  is  clever  ,  it  is  wise.           beat  the  things  that  scared  you  before  so  they  can  never  be  used  to  harm  you  again.          doctor  ,  fear  is  not  pure  biology.           fear  is  meant  to  be  beaten  and  used  as  a  weapon.              ❛      it’s  late.    ❜               points  out  the  obvious  to  the  rustling  creature  he  cannot  see.         crane  turns  his  head  ,  eyes  narrowing  at  the  sound.            ❛      i’m  not  playing  games.          if  you  have  ill  intentions  ,  i’m  not  about  to  stop  you  from  acting  on  them.     ❜

STARTER CALL :          //         @biiitchiin

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STARTER CALL.   like this for a starter from the New and Improved™️ jonathan crane

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 ✰   —  —  —  BUZZFEED UNSOLVED SENTENCE STARTERS

‘  do you think we’re gonna die here tonight?  ’ ‘  it’s horrifying, chilling… just over all not good.  ’ ‘  should we just get this over with?  ’ ‘  he’s a fucking criminal.  ’ ‘  sharing is caring? meh, go fuck yourself.  ’ ‘  oh god, um… oh my god, i fucking hate this.  ’ ‘  stop banging on the door, you dick.  ’ ‘  what. the fuck. is wrong with you.  ’ ‘  i gotta be honest, this doesn’t really compel me very much.  ’ ‘  that was a joke that i made and then it formed your opinion on it.  ’ ‘  flip that switch. do you think that’s the murder switch?  ’ ‘  this is embarrassing. this is embarrassing for you, i think.  ’ ‘  no one’s ghost-proof.  ’ ‘  i’m ghost-proof.  ’ ‘  you’re not ghost-proof. you’re just an idiot who refuses to see proof.  ’ ‘  i’m ghost-proof, baby!  ’ ‘  that sounded like will smith!  ’ ‘  is will smith dead? has anyone checked the news?!  ’ ‘  the problem is if there’s something that attacks us down here, i’m going to hit my head on the ceiling and my skull will smash.  ’ ‘  alright, buddy. keep your wits about ya.  ’ ‘  let’s get the fuck out of here.  ’ ‘  i kind of just looked into places that would make me wanna die and i think this checks that box.  ’ ‘  did i just blind you? good, good, good. it’ll give you the vision.  ’ ‘  take a drink!  ’ ‘  i’m gonna get you all tanked.  ’ ‘  what do you expect? what insight are you trying to gather from here?  ’ ‘  maybe the noise is a little snake. can you imagine a little snake wrapped around a little pickaxe with a little hat on?  ’ ‘  i’m not trying to do that whole dismissive thing, but… i’m dismissing it.  ’ ‘  alright. alright, man. you just gotta chill.  ’ ‘  i thought ‘glory hole’ used to mean something very innocuous, though.  ’ ‘  it’s where the men fucked the earth hoping to impregnate it with gold.  ’ ‘  a bug flew up my nose.  ’ ‘  i think i’ve swallowed about six tablespoons of bugs at this point.  ’ ‘  it’s so silent aside from the bugs in my ears.  ’ ‘  a bat flew right behind you just now.  ’ ‘  that bat was straight-up going for your ass… it was an ass bat.  ’ ‘  dude, i’m so nervous.  ’ ‘  how can you be nervous with a beautiful sunset like that?  ’ ‘  there’s some pretty shitty things that have happened to people around here.  ’ ‘  can you even look at least a little bit worried?  ’ ‘  yeah, i’m fucking nervous, man. i feel like i’m gonna vomit.  ’ ‘  we’re all assholes here.  ’ ‘  i don’t know why i phrased it ‘lucky for us.’ i think i was feeling brave when i wrote this.  ’ ‘  yeah, this isn’t lucky for you at all.  ’ ‘  i’m gonna try and avoid saying ‘demon’ as much as i can.  ’ ‘  i’m not gonna let you goad me into this, i know what you’re trying to do.  ’ ‘  shut up. we’re moving on.  ’ ‘  you know what? i’m not trying to scare you, but… i got a bad feeling about this one.  ’ ‘  why are you unbuttoning your pants? we’re in public right now.  ’ ‘  oh… you’ve out-dumbed yourself.  ’ ‘  you know, i thought this was gonna be funny, but now i’m actually happy that i have it.  ’ ‘  i’m a whole other coin. just like a chill ass wheat-back penny.  ’ ‘  i’m doing it for the betterment of the science.  ’ ‘  any demons here? you got any demons out tonight? any horn-y boys or whatever they are.  ’ ‘  you may not like this… i’m gonna try to agitate it.  ’ ‘  you do what you gotta do and i’ll do what i gotta do.  ’ ‘  i’m just gonna be as crude as possible here.  ’ ‘  no, no, no. just right out of the gate. why build up?  ’ ‘  if you don’t believe then there’s nothing for you to be afraid of, right?  ’ ‘  you can be is big of a prick as you want, but i’m staying over here.  ’ ‘  if you want me off this bridge, you’re gonna have to kill me.  ’ ‘  nope! don’t loop me into your shit!  ’ ‘  stop looping me. i hate when you do this to me in demon places.  ’ ‘  i’m not part of his little charade.  ’ ‘  children will come here and tell tales about me.  ’ ‘  shut the fuck up – i’m gonna murder you.  ’ ‘  oh what a load of horse shit.  ’ ‘  oh, skip the theatrics and just go into it.  ’ ‘  if you want me off this bridge, you’re gonna have to throw me off.  ’ ‘  you gotta admit, that is an effective technique.  ’ ‘  no, it’s not an effective technique. it’s a way to get killed.  ’ ‘  that’s not how you get them, shut up.  ’ ‘  when’s the last time you ever walked into the dark woods?  ’ ‘  this is so much scarier than hunting fucking sasquatch.  ’ ‘  people usually feel overcome with emotion in here, like a violent emotion.  ’ ‘  give me a heads up if you start to feel murderous. i would appreciate that.  ’ ‘  by the way, these woods are also scary because of the people that might be in there.  ’ ‘  i mean, people are greater threats than demons or ghouls.  ’ ‘  i can’t fight, you can’t fight.  ’ ‘  you’re like one of those carwash floaty things that are out front just wiggling around.  ’ ‘  anyone doing up to no good out here?  ’ ‘  one of these times we’re gonna die.  ’ ‘  oh shit! there’s something over there. i don’t know what it is, but the bushes are moving.   ’ ‘  i just heard a scream.  ’ ‘  well, if we just make it seem like we’re in on it, like… we’re here for the cult stuff.  ’ ‘  we’re here for the cult stuff. we saw the ad on craigslist.  ’ ‘  it feels weird to even joke. i’m so fucking scared right now.  ’ ‘  oh sure they’d be hiding in the bushes. they’re cultists.  ’ ‘  i keep collecting spiderwebs on my face and now i’m just sort of immune to them. i’m just letting them accumulate.  ’ ‘  well, you are just a giant stick walking around.  ’ ‘  oh, this looks fun… an odd collection of branches. looks like a witch lair or something.  ’ ‘  hello? you can’t be doing occult stuff like this. it’s a weeknight.  ’ ‘  dude, wait. you’re fucking crazy.  ’ ‘  you need to chill. you need to chill out.  ’ ‘  hey man, it’s just a plant.  ’ ‘  we kicked goatman off the bridge, it’s ours now.  ’ ‘  goatman, are you out here in the woo– well, he’s out here in the woods ‘cause he’s not tending to his bridge.  ’ ‘  clearly. that’s why finders keepers and all that.  ’ ‘  hey, if there’s cultists out there… i gotta let you know, my pal has a water gun.  ’ ‘  i don’t like this, i don’t like this one bit.  ’ ‘  we are hearing noise from all sides at this point. it’s very blair witch.  ’ ‘  yeah, let’s leave.  ’ ‘  the name ‘steve’ doesn’t really strike fear into the heart.  ’ ‘  i’ll go along with this. fun gimmick.  ’ ‘  well demons, it’s been fun.  ’ ‘  as we snuff these candles so too do we snuff you from this mortal world, you fucking wimp.  ’ ‘  this bridge is officially mine. they’ll tell legends of me here.  ’ ‘  oh god, i feel like i’ve gone to the dark side.  ’ ‘  just gloat a little bit. this is a win for you.  ’

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Now accepting curious anons.

thcantichrists.

These  can  be  character  development  questions,  questions  about  any  interactions  you’ve  seen  on  the  blog,  questions  about  any  ships  you’ve  seen  on  the  blog,  questions  about  my  muses  feelings  about  other  muses  from  the  fandom,  or  anything  else  you  may  be  interested  in  knowing  about  my  muse. 

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CUT OUT HEART ACHE   /   LEAVE THAT SPACE HOLLOW.         you suffered last when you were young.         the last time you allowed your heart to be property of everyone else but you.         adolescent mistakes are not a place where you find you waste your time  ,  but certainly you have heard enough to make it feel as though it is a waste of time.         stories you wish you could fully relate to   /   stories of heartbreak and affection and kindness and friendship.           such things are so ANCIENT to you now that you know it serves you best to forget them.          what to say to him to truly understand him    ?         you do not know.         you don’t understand his psyche yet  —— this is your most dominant trait   ;   will you pick apart his young mind if it means understanding it    ?              ❛   michael  ,  what do you know of having your heart broken    ?   ❜            questions come from the GRANDER VISION of the world.         children can know heartbreak more than any adult can.         whether it hurts more depending on age warrants further study. 

@liedto           »        s.t verse starter call    .

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YOU HAVE HEARD THE WARNINGS.            do you find yourself so inclined to actually take this responsibility    ?         this is a bombardment of psychologists  ,  professionals , bearing on one child.         she is only a girl  ,  you scoff because you do not know more than that.         confidentiality states that your danger is yours to discover.         if you are responsible for aggravating her  ,  you are responsible for your injuries.         little girls with warnings like WAR MACHINES.         now  ,  you have never been one to pit yourself in a place where you would ever estimate more from anyone.         power , strength , ability.         all take a backseat to control through intelligence alone.         you have praised yourself and been praised for being the smartest man in the room.         is that STILL TRUE with her ?           ❛    would you mind telling me your name    ?     ❜             hold true    !         if she is as deadly as you have heard  ,  to prod would surely mean the end of you.          ❛    i apologize on behalf of my profession.           you must not have had much luck with psychiatrists.         they can be cruel.    ❜

@janexiives          »        s.t verse starter call    .

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THIS TOWN RAISES MORE QUESTIONS THAN IT ANSWERS.         you have seen many strange cases in children.         as you pass through the streets    (    tall  ,  gaunt  ,  imposing   )    you count the people who you have met in personal meetings.         the people you and your cruelty have reduced to tears.         pressure is pressure , and sometimes , pressure is necessary when it comes to finding just how to deal with some of your usual patients.           does pressure work on you anymore , doctor    ?         have you found a breaking point    ?         you can only be pushed so far anymore before someone is hurt.          now you have to wonder if he believes the same.          ❛      jonathan crane    ?      ❜           name rolls from cold lips so slowly , though you are unfamiliar of the taste of your own name in your mouth.            ❛       you were recommended to me.          someone believed i would be the best person to ... assist you.      ❜                can you will away childhood flaws so quickly with hope    ?         with this belief that you are the monstrous version of a young boy.         a alternative that will show this boy what he can and cannot be. 

@fearsurrendered  /  s.t verse starter call

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❛    MAY I ASK THAT YOU REMOVE THE SUNGLASSES   ?    ❜                 question   /    statement    /    demand.         your patience  ,  if you had any to begin with  ,  is thin.         children   ———   you can stomach with the grain of salt curled so tightly in your fist  ,    it leaves indents in your skin.          teenagers are another matter entirely.         and this face is so familiar  ,  the mannerisms ring true of boys that you attended high school with as well.         (   what did you do to those boys , doctor   ?  oh , that’s right.  you killed them.   )         but you won’t act out anymore   ;   you’re no child anymore.         no , this job   /    this town  ,  holds far too much in its hands that you are not about to turn it away.         regular at the schools in hawkins as a safety precaution  ,  but you do not arrive for anyone in particular.         instead  ,  this is luck.         to catch the psychiatrist with nothing to do is a rare occurrence   ;   take advantage of it while you still can.           ❛     did you need something   ?         i would have thought your reputation was above needing to come to someone like myself.            moment of WEAKNESS  ,  perhaps    ?    ❜

@damnsitter         »        s.t verse starter call    .

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❛   IT ISN’T SAFE TO BE OUT HERE ALONE.   ❜         you are grown now.         far beyond your years of childhood , ever polite and careful and fragile.         reinforced what remained with titanium.          scared boy   /   you have become a man who knows nothing but fear  &  power.            no more does a cold sweat hold you hostage.         no more do you tremble at such harsh words spat with venom from rotted lips.          you could not conquer the things you feared.         (    you feared boys in letterman jackets with smoke on their tongue and pretty girls on their arms  ;  you feared sundresses and sweet words from girls with short blonde hair and bouquets of roses  ;  you feared an old woman in nightgowns , aching fingers on the trigger of a shotgun , browsing books in the moonlight.    )         other people do not fear the way you did.          OTHERS DID NOT KILL THE WAY YOU DID   !           the late night holds you in silence , resting on the hood of your car , cigarette glow embers in the dark.         shadows in the forest only raise questions.           ❛   do your parents know you’re out so late   ?           i’m sure they wouldn’t approve.   ❜

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S.T  VERSE  STARTER  CALL    !      i  finally  finished  st.2  a  little  while  ago  so  i  want  to  dabble  with  that verse  a  little  more.     punch  the  ♥  for  a  starter  for  something  from  an  actually  competent  psychiatrist.

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S.T  VERSE  STARTER  CALL    !      i  finally  finished  st.2  a  little  while  ago  so  i  want  to  dabble  with  that verse  a  little  more.     punch  the  ♥  for  a  starter  for  something  from  an  actually  competent  psychiatrist.

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S.T  VERSE  STARTER  CALL    !      i  finally  finished  st.2  a  little  while  ago  so  i  want  to  dabble  with  that verse  a  little  more.     punch  the  ♥  for  a  starter  for  something  from  an  actually  competent  psychiatrist.