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Same😂😭

Its like a reward 🥲

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“writing fanfics is just a phase” what someone told me 8 years ago when I first started writing fanfics.

as of today, I am still finding joy, love and passion in writing fanfics and I can no longer imagine life without fanfic writing.

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you know what’s really rude and annoying and infuriating all at once?

sitting down to write, and my brain immediately going “nap time” mode.

like. no. what do you mean you’re sleepy now?? what do you mean you’re all awake when we’re scrolling on tumblr but shut down when it’s time to write?? WHAT DO YOU MEAN?? WE’VE BEEN WAITING TO WRITE ALL DAY—

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10 mutuals you'd like to get to know better

tagged by @fayedartmouth, thank you!!

Last song: Mirrorball - Taylor Swift (There will never be a better song.)

Last book: Archer's voice (Big recommendation. It's great.)

Last movie: A quiet place day one

Last TV show: Outer banks. Rewatching for the thousandth time

Favourite colour: Green (specifically sage and forest green)

Sweet, savoury, or spicy: sweet!

Current obsession: JJ Maybank, obviously. But also the upcoming Rudy Pankow movie "Cowboy" I've been obessing over the behind the scenes videos

Last search: How old is Rafe cameron in season 4 (Needed for my fic)

Looking forward to: writing and reading

Tagging: @may39898 @princessofnothingcharming @rosss38

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“stupid fucking tv show” we all say as we continue to dedicate a whole blog to it

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Fic Masterlist

Through the Darkest Waters

Weathervane (Even The Dark With You Feels Like The Brightest Day)

In My Garden Of Thorns (He Made Me Feel Like Spring)

Brains and Bruises

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My partner critiques my fics in memes, I felt this on a very personal level.

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Hey I read your newest fic, and I have to say it was amazing!! First time I read a fic inspired by endometriosis and the struggles with it. Please continue it means so much to so many women who suffer from the same illness. And please explore more with Kie and Jj, i loved their dynamic and Jjs protectiveness. One of the biggest issues with this illness is fertility issues, and many women give up on having their own children because of it, doctors dissmiss you or think you are over reacting. With beeing a medical professional I have seen many cases of this negligence when it comes to endometriosis, and many women hear the words ' there is nothing that I can do for you'. So plese continue this fic, you should explore the fertility and pregnancy topic for sure, but with them having their happy ending, both of them alive and having a baby!!!

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Oh my gosh, thank you so, so much for this message. I’m genuinely crying. It means the world to me that you took the time to write this, and even more that the story resonated with people like that.

Endometriosis is so personal to me—I have it too—and this fic came from a very raw place in my heart. For so long I felt like no one talked about the reality of this illness, especially the fertility struggles and how deeply isolating it can feel when doctors dismiss your pain or make you feel like you’re overreacting. So hearing that it meant something to you… I can’t even explain how much that means to me.

I absolutely plan to continue JJ and Kiara’s journey. They are so close to my heart, and writing JJ as the gentle, protective partner Kiara deserves has been healing in its own way. I want to explore all the complexities—trying, failing, the heartbreak, the hope—and I promise, they will have their happy ending. It might take a while. But they’ll get there. And thank you for reminding me why this story matters. Truly.

Thank you again💚

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This fic has my whole heart, and it would mean the world to me if some of you could check it out!!

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Outer Banks (TV) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Kiara "Kie" Carrera/JJ Maybank, Sarah Cameron & Kiara "Kie" Carrera, Kiara "Kie" Carrera & John B. Routledge Characters: Kiara "Kie" Carrera, JJ Maybank, John B. Routledge, Sarah Cameron Additional Tags: Kiara "Kie" Carrera/JJ Maybank In Love, Endometriosis, period pain, Chronic Pain, Chronic Illness, medical gaslighting, Vomiting, Nausea, Disability, Hurt/Comfort, Found Family, Caretaking, Soft JJ Maybank, Soft Kiara "Kie" Carrera/JJ Maybank, Protective JJ Maybank, Kiara "Kie" Carrera Loves JJ Maybank, Kiara "Kie" Carrera Needs a Hug, Hurt Kiara "Kie" Carrera, Kiara "Kie" Carrera/JJ Maybank-centric, Good Friend John B. Routledge, Kiara "Kie" Carrera & John B. Routledge Friendship, Sarah Cameron & Kiara "Kie" Carrera Friendship, Blood, Flashbacks, Whump, Girlhood, period, JJ and Kiara deserve the world, Graphic Description, Medical Trauma, Fainting, Brief Violence, Friends to Lovers, Kiara Carrera deserves the world, Bullying, Kiara Carrera has Endometriosis, Shame, Fluff and Angst, Mentioned Pope Heyward, Mentioned Cleo (Outer Banks) Summary:

Kiara was in fifth grade when she first heard that the woman's uterus is a garden.

That's what her health teacher told the class—a woman with boho skirts, curly hair, and bright red glasses whose goal it was to uplift young girls.

A place where life is supposed to grow. Flowers and herbs and fruit. Things that bring joy and happiness.

She said it like a woman's value was tied to giving birth to children—to bloom, to bear fruit, to be nurturing and beautiful.

Kiara didn't understand it then.

Since the first time she got her period exactly a week after her tenth birthday, her garden only grew thorns.

OR

Kiara Carrera has endometriosis, and JJ is the one who holds her through every flare-up, every wave of pain, every moment she thinks she’s too much.

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Chapters: 3/? Fandom: Outer Banks (TV) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: JJ Maybank & John B. Routledge, JJ Maybank & Victor Shoupe, JJ Maybank & Luke Maybank, John B. Routledge & Victor Shoupe Characters: JJ Maybank, John B. Routledge, Victor Shoupe, Luke Maybank, John "Big John" Routledge Additional Tags: Hurt JJ Maybank, JJ Maybank Needs a Hug, Protective John B. Routledge, Medical Angst, JJ Maybank And John B. Routledge, Brain Damage, Panic Attacks, Found Family, JJ Maybank Needs Love, JJ Maybank Gets the Love He Deserves, Healing, Neurology & Neuroscience, Rehabilitation, Hospitals, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Anxiety, Cerebellar Ataxia, Neurological Disorders, Abused JJ Maybank, JJ maybank And Victor Shoupe, Disability, Victor Shoupe Steps Up As The Dad JJ Needs, Chronic Illness, Alternate Universe - No Treasure Hunt (Outer Banks), Caretaking, Adoption, Protective Victor Shoupe, JJ Maybank-centric, John B. Routledge-centric, Bad Parent Luke Maybank, Mentioned Luke Maybank, Luke Maybank Being an Asshole, Bad Parent John "Big John" Routledge, Speech Disorders, Physical Therapy, Physical Disability, John B Is So Anxious It's Kind Of Adorable, John B Came For An Internship And Left With A Boyfriend, jaybe, Luke Maybank's A+ Parenting Summary:

John B is just a senior trying to finish his internship and get out before the neuro rehab ward breaks his heart. Because watching disabled people struggle? He doesn’t think he’s built for that.

But then he walks into Room 312 and meets JJ—a boy with bruised knuckles, trembling hands, and the kind of eyes you don’t forget.

After a brain injury caused by his father’s violence, JJ is left with cerebellar ataxia. He walks like a baby deer, even with a walker. Feeding himself is a mess, his speech is slurred, and he hates how much help he needs. He falls more times than he can count—physically and emotionally.

And Victor Shoupe is the one who catches him. He visits after every shift, sits through every therapy session he’s allowed to, and learns the schedule of JJ’s meds like it’s second nature. He’s not biologically family—but he shows up like one. And slowly, JJ starts to believe maybe he’s not as alone as he thought.

None of them expected to find love in the darkest parts of their lives— but sometimes, that’s exactly where it waits.

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me: i think the main character deserves peace

also me: drags him through 300 pages of unrelenting pain and betrayal

the doctor at my intervention: “have you considered therapy instead of metafictional punishment”

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That moment after posting a fic when you're silently begging your fave moots to validate your entire existence.