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kpop idol grp with a mythology concept . . .

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about to fall back into my ateez rabbit hole and suffer bc kpdh uvu

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zoeystery and whatever the hell they're having

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sorry dudes . . . i've been so exhausted this week , from suffering jetlag to having to be up at 4am for work . . . hopefully once this weekend hits , i'll be able to provide some sort of substantial content .

for the most part , been working on my exorcist kids' bios and lore stuff .

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ㅤㅤ𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘’𝐋𝐋   𝐁𝐄𝐆   𝐓𝐎   𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑   𝐘𝐎𝐔   ,   𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓   𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒   𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐍   𝐏𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑𝐒   𝐀𝐍𝐃   𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐍.   ───   𝘰𝘩   ,   𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵   𝘦𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘯   ,   𝘰𝘩   𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥   𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵   —   𝘩𝘰𝘸   𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘺   𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺   𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘦𝘥   𝘺𝘰𝘶   𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦   𝘴𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘥𝘦𝘥   𝘪𝘯   𝘨𝘰𝘳𝘦   𝘢𝘯𝘥   𝘨𝘪𝘭𝘵.   𝘋𝘖   𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘠   𝘍𝘖𝘙𝘎𝘌𝘛   𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙𝘌   𝘖𝘕𝘊𝘌   𝘞𝘈𝘚   𝘈   𝘊𝘏𝘖𝘚𝘌𝘕   𝘈𝘔𝘖𝘕𝘎   𝘛𝘏𝘌   𝘚𝘛𝘈𝘙𝘚   ?   —   𝗈𝗋 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗆 𝖺𝗅𝗐𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝖿𝗈𝗋𝗀𝖾𝖽 𝗈𝖿 𝗀𝗎𝗂𝗅𝗍 𝗋𝖺𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗇 𝗀𝗅𝗈𝗋𝗒   ,   𝘰𝘳   𝘥𝘪𝘥   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘰   𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭   𝘰𝘧𝘧   𝘰𝘧   𝘺𝘰𝘶   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵   𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺   𝘴𝘢𝘸   𝘺𝘰𝘶   𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘥   ?   ───   𝘋𝘖   𝘠𝘖𝘜   𝘙𝘌𝘔𝘌𝘔𝘉𝘌𝘙   𝘞𝘏𝘖   𝘠𝘖𝘜   𝘞𝘌𝘙𝘌   𝘉𝘌𝘍𝘖𝘙𝘌   𝘛𝘏𝘌   𝘞𝘖𝘙𝘓𝘋   𝘍𝘌𝘓𝘓   𝘖𝘕   𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙   𝘒𝘕𝘌𝘌𝘚   ?       𝐘𝐎𝐔    𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄    𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒    𝐓𝐇𝐄    𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐃    𝐒𝐎𝐍    𝐁𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇    𝐓𝐇𝐄    𝐂𝐑𝐘𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐋    𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐄   .

⠀⠀⟡    ⠀⠀#   𝕴̲𝖓̲𝖋̲𝖊̲𝖗̲𝖓̲𝖆̲𝖑̲𝖒̲𝖊̲𝖗̲𝖊̲     ⵓ         𝔱̲𝔥̲𝔢̲   𝔡̲𝔢̲𝔪̲𝔬̲𝔫̲   𝔨̲𝔦̲𝔫̲𝔤̲   𝔥̲𝔞̲𝔡̲𝔢̲𝔰̲         ⟡ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀[       romance   route   locked    ✦    antagonist   coded    ✦    demon   lord   of   death   and   envy    ✦       beloved   of   heaven    (   for   the   love   of   the   world   is   torment   ) ,   current   scourge   of   glass   cities     ]⠀⠀⠀

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shaky exhale . . . hi , come chat with me? hmu abt that server <3 i have so many muses here and not on here i'd love to offer or just make more muses for more things bc worldbuilding? worldbuilding within a canon setting? give me everything.

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unfortunately i have a deep love for humanity and choose to believe conditions will improve. despite it all

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come yap at me while i suffer at work 💕

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WHY DID THEY NEVER TALK ABOUT THIS THEY WANTED HER SO BAD???

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sends y'all hugs and kisses. hope y'all have a good day. y'all doing great and y'all are amazing.

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sends y'all hugs and kisses . . . come chat with me on discord . . . i'm too sleepy to write anything substantial tonight .

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            her breathes come shallow and short  ,  barely filling her lungs as she finished what she said . . . shaky and suddenly fatigued  ,  as if a WEIGHT was lifted from her body  .  despite her brave front in her outburst  ,  her head drops down and the tears drops from her lashes onto the back of her hands  .  trembling as she bites down on her lower lip as if she's trying to hold back a sob  ,  she's done it now . . . this is it  .  this is the end  ,  isn't it  ??  a soft sniffle then an uneven exhale  ,  she should get up to go . . . however  ,  it seems the strength she had to proclaim her feelings faded the moment she was done talking  .

            when he reached out to grab her hands  ,  she freezes . . . is this kaiser telling her it's time to go  ??  lending her one moment of strength  ,  a last act of kindness as he pulls her to her feet  ;  but instead of ushering her towards the door  ,  she's drawn into a hug  .  hands naturally finding way around the other's familiar figure  ,  hands clutching at the back of his shirt as her face tucks into the crook of his neck  .  famliarity  .  comfort  .  something she's going to miss one day  .  perhaps this is good bye  .  at least  ,  he's been kind to her until the end  .  how lucky she is . . . 

            the hug lasts much longer than she expected  ,  half of her is HOPEFUL  ;  the other desparing at the thought of how his warmth would linger upon her body when she leaves  .  perhaps his cologne would cling to her clothes and she can live with the memory for a few more days  .  her hands slacken at the thought of the ending  ,  she wonders what her last words would be to him . . . maybe something upbeat so it didn't seem like they were parting on BAD TERMS  ??  a good memory meant to last . . . 

            his words causes her chest to tighten  ,  but what follows confuses her  .  more meaningful  ??  so he's not looking to END their relationship  ??  what does he . . . oh  .  she could WEEP  .  she does  .  she can't hold back  .  a choked sob falling from her lips as her hands tighten on his clothes again  ,  listening to what he's saying  .

            shaking her head aggressively when he begins to talk down about himself . . . perhaps she has rose-colored glasses on  ,  she knows he can be harsh and not at all GOOD . . . but she's seen the GOOD side to him  .  perhaps something only privy to her  .  ❝  you deserve good things too  ,  ❞  she whispers against her shirt  ,  ❝  you deserve to be happy too  ,  ❞  her voice is uneven and muffled  ,  his clothes is probably soaked with her tears  ⸻  she'll apologize for it later  ,  send it off to the dry cleaners . . . maybe get him a NEW one that isn't stained with mascara and tears  .  

            moving to pull away from kaiser  ,  her hands reach up to cup his face  ,  ❝  i chose this . . . i chose you . . . you'd never ruin my life for my own choices  ,  ❞  she offers a watery smile  .

HE  KNEW  HE  WASN'T  THE  BEST  TO  SHOW  HIS  FEELINGS  –  but  yet,  this  time.  Oh,  this  time,  he  was  going  to  have  to  lower  himself  to  that  level.  His  Tone  was  calm,  and  he  wasn't  going  to  get  upset.  But  he  needed  a  reason  to  BREAK  HIMSELF  for  someone  else.  He  wanted  someone  who  would  love  HIM  for  who  HE  WAS,  not  love  him  for  what  his  life  was  like.   This  feeling  that  was  in  his  chest,  in  his  stomach,  what  was  going  on?  Her  face  –  her  body,  her  —  everything  was  driving  him  INSANE. 

No  one  has  ever  done  this  to  him  before,  and  yet  he  couldn't  help  but  inhale  for  a  moment.  He  kept  his  face  blank,  just  for  a  moment.  Reiko  was  someone  who  —  he  didn't  want  to  lose.  The  nights  they  spent,  the  days  he  dragged  her  around,  the  laughter,  the  fun,  the  thoughtfulness  around  the  two  of  them.  The  way  they  ACTED.  —  Maybe  they  were  not  acting.  MAYBE  they  were  already  being  a  couple  just  in  a  fine  line  of  what  they  can  and  can  not  do.  a  moment  for  both  of  them  so  low. 

Why  was  being  in  love  with  someone  DIFFICULT? 

Why  was  loving  someone  so  —  interesting? 

Kaiser  has  never  known  how  to  love  someone;  he  never  knew  what  love  was.  His  father  was  a  horrible  person,  and  all  he  knew  about  his  mother  —  was  what  the  rumors  and  people  raving  about  that  actress  were.  She  slept  her  way  to  the  top  and  left  everyone  behind.  He  had  thought  he  would  be  the  same  to  get  the  goal  for  the  man  who  took  him  from  the  bottom  and  put  him  to  the  top.  yet  this,  this  FEELING,  this  shitty  moment  of  weakness. 

He  couldn't  let  her  go.   

His  own  hands  were  shaking,  listening  to  her  –  listening  to  her  stutter  and  shake.  She  was  expressing  herself,  telling  him  everything  he  had  always  wanted  to  hear.  That  feeling  inside  his  chest  was  HURTING,  and  yet,   he  remained  calm  until  she  stopped  talking.  Inhaling,  the  blonde  let  his  guard  down  for  a  moment  and  took  her  hands  gently  into  his.  Pulling  her  closer  to  him.  Slowly  wrapping  his  arms  around  her,  he  rested  his  head  on  top  of  hers.

a  moment  of  weakness  for  him. 

“  Let's  break  the  contract,  and  be  something  more  meaningful,”  his  voice  cracked  just  lightly.  That  moment  of  weakness  was  for  him.  “  because  I  think  I  feel  for  you  a  while  ago  —  I've  been…  trying  to  understand  these  feelings.”  he  sighed,  pausing.  “  –  I've  never  been  best  to  express  myself,  I'm  an  asshole,  toxic,  and  can  ruin  someone's  life.   I  just….  ”  he  wasn't  good  at  this  at  all. 

“I  just  don't  want  to  be  that  person  who  ruins  yours.  You  deserve  so  much  more…” 

This  is  a  bad  taste  in  his  mouth,  but  maybe  he's  learning  slowly.  Who  knows  what  she  wanted  from  him,  but  the  way  she  was  admitting  feelings  he  could  tell  maybe  they  could  work  on  something  —  more. 

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KPOP DEMON HUNTERS (2025), dir Maggie Kang and Chris Appelhans

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huntrix x saja photoshoot

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wow i have not written such novela-ish lengths in so long and i am LIVING FOR IT. GIVE ME MORE

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            DISAPPOINTING  .  just hearing that word  ,  reiko feels as if her world's come crashing down  .  she's heard it numerous times in her failed relationships  ,  but none struck as hard as hearing it from KAISER for some reason  .  perhaps it's because of her attachment  ,  a genuine attachment . . . where even in his times of spoiling her and dragging her around  ,  she felt as if she's seen a sliver of his true self . . . that the affection doled to her was REAL  ,  and that was different from her past relationships that hinged solely on her partner and never herself  .  for some reason  ,  she felt as if kaiser was looking at HER and not the facade she put up for his sake  .

            her hands stills  ,  curled into fists and crumpling her pristine skirt  ,  so he's not going to refute her want to break the contact  .  why would he  ??  she breached it by attaching feelings to something that was none other than a simple business relationship  .  she should be glad he's not asking for some sort of financial compensation for it . . . though  ,  she'd likely leave behind all the gifts he's given her just for the sake of her own principles . . . it didn't feel right to take the gifts with her anyways  .  on top of that  ,  she'd be reminded of the times she's spent with him  .

            her legs felt weak  .  this was probably the time to get up and leave  ,  but she couldn't seem to muster any sort of strength into her legs  .  the silence that fell over them seemed to weigh down upon her shoulders  ,  and she expected kaiser to leave now that the conversation was DONE and yet  ,  he was the one who broke the silence  .

            did there HAVE to be a reason to fall in love  ??  could she ever put a hand on why she fell in love with this particular man  ??  so deeply that it hurt and ached  ??  

            ❝  i . . .  ❞  she begins  ,  hopelessness seemingly filled her as she struggled for words  ,  ❝  don't . . . there's no reason . . .  ❞  she says  ,  ❝  the times we spent together . . . even though it was for show  ,  ❞  she murmurs  ,  ❝  there were moments where it felt like . . . it WASN'T and that i wasn't looking at MICHAEL KAISER  ,  the prodigy . . .  ❞  she continues  ,  ❝  but just michael kaiser  ,  ❞  she trails off  ,  did that make sense  ??  to say that his emotions felt GENUINE to her at times  ,  that there was definition behind his affection for her  .  

            like a tidal wave she could no longer hold back  ⸻  if they were going to break up  ,  there wasn't any HARM in just speaking her mind  ,  right  ??  ⸻  so mustering her courage  , ❝  i don't know how to explain WHY when it's so many instances  ,  ❞  reiko says after another moment of silence  ,  words spoken in a BURST as if she couldn't contain herself  .  eyes lifting  ⸻  unshed tears clung to her long lashes  ,  lower lip swollen from being bitten harshly in nervousness  ⸻  to meet that averted gaze of his  ,  ❝  falling in love . . . isn't just this SPARK . . . it's . . . it's over and over and over . . . finding new things to love . . .  ❞  she breathes  ,  ❝  your passion for soccer  ,  your gentlemanly gestures  ,  the gifts  ,  your thoughtfulness . . . the things you do things without realizing  ,  ❞  reiko continues  ,  a profession of her feelings  ,  knowing it probably wouldn't lead anywhere  .

This  could  be  troublesome.  He  had  a  feeling  everything  was  going  to  come  tumbling  down.  The  blonde  the  other  watched  the  other,  he  couldn't  tell  what  was  going  on  in  her  mind.  Well  --  he  had  a  feeling,  and  yet  he  knew  himself.  No  matter  what  it  came  down  to,  he  would  never  understand  how  someone  can  adore  him  --  love  him  --  see  him  more  then  just  the  toxic  asshole  he  puts  himself  to  be.  He  kept  everyone  so  far  away,  he  could  never  think  of  someone  loving  him.

Even  if  he  wanted  that.

Yet  hearing  her  tone,  he  could  feel  the  emptiness  in  his  stomach,  emptiness,  a  feeling  he  wanted  to  die  from.  Watching  the  blonde  fidget,  he  wanted  to  grab  her  hands,  knowing  how  she  could  mess  her  hands  up,  but  he  stayed  still.  "  Ah,"  he  was  right,  that  was  rather  sad.  Even  if  he  didn't  NEED  a  girlfriend,  it  was  nice  to  drag  someone  else  around,  and  not  get  those  nasty  rumors  that  he  was  dating  men.  (  Not  that  he  cared,  he  was  bisexual  anyway.)  But  seeing  how  she  was  acting,  he  sighed.  "  I  see.  That's  disappointing."

He  listened  to  her  a  little  bit  longer,  and  seeing  how  it  was  for  her  to  be  the  one  to  admit  it,  it  saved  him  the  issue  of  ending  it  himself.  Someone  like  her  should  find  someone  who  could  complement  her,  not  drag  her  down.  "  Can  I  ask  you  something?  "  he  paused,  his  head  tilted  to  look  away.  "  What  made  you  fall  for  me?"