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my crush currently looking like adam scott (any era) is gonna make me crash out and burn it all down are you KIDDING??

doesnt help i’ve said he’s very cute to his face before and also said adam scott is very cute and i have red hair like helly but im a guy so gender bend? and we watch the show together so idk idk idk

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Understand that there is a beast within you that can drink till it is sick, but cannot drink till it is satisfied. Understand that it will use the conventions of the visible world to turn your tongue to stone. It alone knows you. It does not wish you well. 

—Frank Bidart, excerpt of "The Third Hour of the Night", in Half Light

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full of regret and shame for Being 23 and going through it

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The reoccurring theme of being unwanted in your childhood and seeing yourself as some kind of monster and how you feel like you have to move mountains to get people to like you

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like a moth to a flame i can’t help what i desire etc etc

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when you become so scared of slipping back into bad patterns, you slip back into bad patterns<<<<<

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all of my self development is in the pursuit to feel less lonely

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something to recognize that choosing recovery again and again is difficult work, and you are not weak for faltering

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"Fat Top/Switch" by Emilia Phillips

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finally beat the hasn’t had gay sex allegations……

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2023:

TIME IS NOT SLIPPING THROUGH YOUR FINGERS LIKE DESERT SAND

THERE'S A WHOLE WORLD IN JUST KNOWING THE SUN IS THERE

THE WOUND IS NOT THE SIZE OF YOUR LIFE

AN EXCESS OF PASSION IS NECESSARY FOR YOUR PRESENCE

YOU ARE NOT AN INDIVIDUAL

TIME TO FIND A NEW CREATURE TO BE

OPEN UP

THIS IS NOT YOUR GRAVE

GET UP COWARD

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there needs to be more resources for adults on hormones to be going through puberty at 22 is fucking humiliating

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tboys will be forced to get out of bed for work instead of sleep in and jerk off for 5 hrs

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i…………………..cannot handle tik tok

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do you ever sit with a group of people and not say anything for  the entire time so theres no reason for you to be there youre just awkwardly listening to people converse while doing your own thing and wondering how its so easy for them to just talk or why its so hard for you to say anything

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okay so i haven’t done my t shot yet (tomorrow) and rn i’m essentially going through puberty again :,( but i’ve seen mickey and stuff from spn and now i wanna rewatch