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My Second First Blog

After a lot of brainstorming sitting alone in a four walled room from everyday 9 -5, for past one month, still waiting for this routine to become a habit, so that it feels a little less redundant and little more used to, it turns out that Atomic habits isn't meant for a thick head like mine. Well in a way happy about it, since now I know I run a lower risk of addiction. On the side note, being exposed to the similar sets of situations makes your brain lazy, it thinks it just has to do the basic everyday chores and it will get by it. Trust me or not but our brain likes surprises just as much as we do. It might not seem like it, you might get sweaty and adrenaline rushy but the adverse situations is the food for the brain. Coming back to the point, honestly I did buy in the idea but was never very agreeing to it entirely because what does a person have to complain about when they are getting paid for sitting in air conditioned room in front of a powerful device doing something important which I agree is not as groundbreaking as saving lives, but yeah should be pretty satisfying , no? It was an almost an incomprehensible idea to me .

But hey, you wouldn't know unless you have tried. And now I have, bitten into the forbidden forsaken sweet sweet fruit that everybody said was so so bad, bad in the sense that it's cattle mentality, rat race, burns out your passion candle, vicious circle and what not. But yet again, just the number of mouths advising and just the number of hands firing up there devices everyday. Mine is one among them.

People say, you wouldn't wanna put your sweat and blood into an already multination, multibillionaire company and doing good to them. Are we really that arrogant to think that our teeny-tiny contribution really makes that big of a difference to a CEO like Jeff Bezos . But if that stands true doesn't it also mean that we aren't actually doing anything worthwhile. Well some may argue, that to balance the situation we are getting. Fair enough, time equals money. So if we increase the value of our time, the money we are getting to keep in our pocket should def increase too. So how do we increase the worth of our time. The great leaders of this world or the ted speakers or the local tuition we went to, all have put merit to their time, which then respectively gets converted to the amount they charge. Warren buffet and Anil sir are vastly scattered on this spectrum of money time dynamic. Where do I fit in? Yet again I find myself asking the same question. Maybe the answers lies in making myself more interesting . Wow, I didn't know it was possible to pin it all down to one word and I certainly didn't know that the word would be "Interesting", hmm interesting. You make yourself interesting, you make yourself desirable and yes I do mean it intellectually and physically. I didn't mean to sound like Jordan Peterson but hey that guy knows what is he talking about. Then your time's worth in terms of money would increase. You'll have something that people would be interested in. And they'd know nothing comes free in this capitalist trader of a world. So they'd bargain, they'll negotiate and you'll decide how much you're worth. This concept goes beyond money horizon.

To escape this monstrosity of a circle, that's what our aim should be. Becoming interesting. Interesting to companies if you're looking to change the corporate machine you're chained in, interesting to your clients if you're gonna something on your own, interesting to people around you if you're looking to get their time and attention(currency may change but trade remains constant) .

So folks gotta keep ourselves interesting, to keep us interested, the world is our oyster after all.

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THE THINGS YOU WANT AND THE THNGS YOU DON'T MAKES YOU, YOU.

WITHIN

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JARS

Hey, this is me in here.

Let's go into our minds and imagine things for a while because it takes fraction of a second to build even an empire of our own. Imagine you're gifting a kid her first bicycle, the one she always wanted. The bicycle which had a basket with sunflower stickers on it and some little blue pom poms on the handles. She would be so happy that she would come running into your arms, and would wrap her hands around you ,giving a soft moist peck on cheek. How full your heart would be? Your lips won't stop smiling and so as hers. The joy of giving the firsts of someone is just so fulfilling. If you could, won't you lock those moments up in a jar so that whenever you want to, you can get the exact same feelings just by uncapping the jar?

Replace that kid with someone who you think shares some of the most beautiful memories with you, some of the most beautiful feelings. Things you were doing together was like done in the best way possible . Let's not talk about possibilities because then I will be unsure about the things I'm saying. Has it been like you will be the best giver of something that someone never had? According to you the moments that you put up in jar are also deep engraved into their mind that nothing can just replace them. But one day your special someone comes and let's you inside their mind, you see an entirely different picture. They were not even liking those things 100%, forget about loving. Won't you feel all empty all useless? How stupid can you be to not get how they were feeling? It was all a mirage, which was waiting for you to come closer and to see nothing other than dry sand. Were you stupid or were you just lost in believing that person will be grateful to you no matter what?

Whatever it was, remember you still have the jars. Jars belong to you and nobody can alter anything stored in, until you want them to. Maybe there's nothing real about them but escaping reality can really make things easier.

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Fallen can be beautiful!

I was just walking back from my college ,again not empty minded but with whole lot of thoughts. Contrary to the case with other people, my brain is food for my thoughts. I stepped over these leaves and I saw the perfect camouflage .I couldn’t resist taking a photograph. I have this photograph as my wallpaper too.So I would start with stating the obvious, how simply it explains the heading.

Instead of being green, the leaves become all the pretty colors of fall, like orange, yellow, red, or even purple!

An envious thought came to me,why should this trait be exclusive to leaves only?

Falling helplessly for a person .

Falling on one knee with the ring in one hand in front of your lover.

Falling off the cliff while bungee jumping.

Falling hard while running freely in my favourite park when I was a child.

Falling is scary, then why not? Because if I don’t fall I would be missing out on the sudden rush of emotions from scary to something totally different. Whatever be the outcome, falling is breathtaking.

You would call it overthinking, I would say that’s just one of the thoughts that I had let out. Don’t judge me.