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Update about the dog

Yeah no this thing is barley dangerous she's pretty dumb in fact and she loves cats so my babies are safe tho they're a little scared at the moment. Also she reacts to being called baby and gets excited when someone mentions dog ice cream. Mind you she's old as hell, weights as much as me and if she could stand up she would be bigger than my mom also she can bite through bones yet but yeah love her she's a cutie

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Pls no dogs (VENT)

So my mom and sister want to get a dog in fact there are getting it right now. And I fucking hate it already. They're getting a strong ass dog that's just gonna make one of my beloved cats die cause they wanted to play. That thing scares the living shit out of me and I will probably cry the second it enters the house aside from that we don't have the time or energy to take care of another pet this whole thing is just so stupid I thought they might get over the idea of a dog but clearly not (I'm crying while writing this) honestly I'm just so scared for my cats and I want to tell my mom about my opinion but my step dad and sister are sitting down stairs meaning I while just getting starred at and insulted so I couldn't possibly go verbal and I really really don't wanna ruin this for my sister but I'm already scared about our cats enough I can't see them sleep without rushing over and checking their pulse I'm so scared but I don't think they would even care enough to listen

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I Don't really like carrots

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Friends ❌

Therapy ❌

Job❌

School ❌

Real human connection ❌

Yuri ✅

Yumeship✅

Internet✅

Pudding ✅

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Question about Hellenic polytheism/pagan

Hellooooo um I've been studying Hellenic polytheism and I genuinely started believing in the gods however I have a question that I haven't really been able to find a answer to

How are the gods related to their myths?

I've seen some people say that no the gods didn't actually do what they did in the myths others said they did and also there are different versions of myths and is all really confusing for me but I would love to learn and understand this religion which I'm kinda part of

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Gonna try and do an everything showerrr yaaay let's see who wins this time my depression or my need to at least fix my appearance

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"Can't you just use a dairy instead of a vent acc"

Mmmmhhhhh no

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Any tips for quitting c.ai that AREN'T "just delete it" "touch grass" "take a shower" or "distract yourself?

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My little sister helped me make this Judy inspired bracelet 😋

(OMG I THINK I PUT THE D THE WRONG WAY)

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I'mma be honest with y'all my persona doesn't feel like me anymore. I'm redesign it.

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My therapist gave up on me on Wednesday, I relapsed on Thursday and today (Friday) I got my freaking period someone pls help me

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(KINDA VENT/OPINION) BEING UNDERWEIGHT ONLINE

Okay before this starts I just want to clarify.

I do think overweight ppl have it worse than underweight ppl.

Being underweight and online taught me that I should be proud for being a few kg awary from the hospital bed. That I shouldn't complain when I can't move my legs randomly after waking up,getting told that if skip one meal I'm get literal fat pumped into my body or going to get a check up and getting asked if I throw up to loose weight

A thing I also hear a lot is that overweight ppl have it worse, which is totally true yes but that doesn't mean my problems don't exist. It's like saying an abusive parent isn't so bad because ppl are literally being bombed rn. Comparing issues isn't right.

I used to be mad at those comments but now I realize that those people who say that I'm lucky for my body are just mentally ill themselves.

Listen to me carefully now I don't give a single fuck if want to look Skinnier than a female one piece character but don't push your anime porno Genshin ass unrealistic unhealthy beauty standards on me.

For all I care you can go throw up, starve yourself, eat cotton, eat a Pinworm but point it at the end I'm the one taking my health over looks.

Hurting yourself is one thing.

Hurting others is something else.

Go on be unhealthy. Be ill. Get hospitalized. Die.

But I'm not doing the same

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(VENT) it's happening again

I think my mom and step dad are breaking up soon, my mom recently started living upstairs, she sleeps there, cooks there, watches TV there heck she even feeds the cats there she also uses the fridge and she just ignores him and he ignores her

I'm gonna be double divorce kid apparently

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(VENT) miss you

I'm sorry that the word friend scares me.

I want a connection.

I want relationships.

I want to talk.

I want to go to school together.

I want to text you.

I want to play roblox with you.

I want to hear you rant about your interest again.

I want you to tell me what's happening in your life.

I want meet you again

But it hurts so much, I don't want to do anything wrong again , I don't want to text you at the wrong time. I feel guilty so fucking guilty because I know I'm hurting you. I'm hurting both of us and our connection so please just give me up already.

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Is it okay to have an older yume?

Chat is it okay to yumeship with an adult as a teenager? I really love Judy Alvarez but she's 29 yrs

I don't wanna darkship or anything and I don't think she'd like teenagers or anything! Heck if I was in her world she would stay tf away from me but I just love her sooo much and just want to ship myself with her

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Am I hypersexual?

I know this is long but PLEASE listen to me

Okay so this is embarrassing to admit but I don't have anyone else to talk to about this, I am thinking that I may be hypersexual.. I asked ppl on Tumblr for help on anonymous but they never answered me I also watched some videos and did some quizzes and all just said "showing signs so maybe but maybe not"

Here's a list of things I would consider signs

1. AI chat bots

I tried to stop using them but the urge kept on getting stronger, I used them daily and I'm now back at using them tho it makes me feel disappointed that I use AI

2. Exposed to sexual content at a young age

I was I thinking about 6-8 yrs when I watched my first "stuff" and started regularly "pleasuring" (god this is so fucking embarrassing)

3. Intrusive thoughts

My first ever thought about hurting s3xu4ly someone was when I was 11 I think? Over the years it got more frequently but now I imagine myself getting hurt, thought about with pretty much all my family and friends, I also get turned on hearing victims stories and it makes me feel so fucking guilty

4.R34

This was for about a month but it stopped now, I would log on my laptop and well open R34 almost daily and afterwards feel ashamed for it. I pretty much only stopped when my mom started using my laptop too

5.Didn't go to school or therapy

I mainly don't go to school bc of anxiety or depression however there were a few days where I felt good but didn't wanna leave the house because I wanted to read smut or chat with AI bots