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its been 50 days

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were you doing this to get over me?

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in one way or another ive always suffered

i hope that he knows that i can see he suffers too

and that i want to love him

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im a bad person and i should die

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first day at my part time job.

I hated it. I cried multiple times. Its so exhausting and not worth the money i get for it. I hated every singke second of it.

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i will always be the "we shouldnt" instead of "im proud to be with her"

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I think I crave being pregnant.

Lately ive been noticing that i have a fantasy of having a child. Maybe its because i want to go away from my current family and have my own. I dont know but this is a really weird feeling. It feels like my lifes only purpose is to have a child, and until i wont have it my life is not full filled

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i dont know if i hate myself or everyone else

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brice i wish you loved me...

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i cried in class today and my teacher is probably going to yell at me next monday so that amazing im literally scared and i feel so humiliated

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im nothing without him. i cant explain how much emptiness i feel right now

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if my family doesnt like me why wont they just kick me out

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im obsessed with the kcd rabbits! expect more of these little drawings of them theyre my favorite now

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at the doctors office alone, getting medical papers for my part time job. i have to admit that im very proud of myself because i got here (to a location ive never been to before)

alone and im getting along with the doctors. i wasnt late or anything, infact i was half an hour early haha. its pretty cold outside today but the sun is shining so im in a good mood. i was pretty anxious yesterday because i dont have my id with me. i forgot it at the dorms. but its okay i think.

:)

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im so lonely....

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lol why am i always left out

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oh... he left me again...