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trauma is worrying you'll make people upset/anxious if you mention that they triggered you or that it's a trigger so just coping with feeling sick to your stomach because of something they said

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trauma is being gravitated towards toxic people because it feels more "normal"

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trauma is always assuming you're the reason someone's upset

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trauma is not being able to talk to anyone with that name because what if it's them.

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trauma is: suddenly being hypervigilant and feeling anxious because of the many possible outcomes

#💭Thoughtless

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Trauma Is flinching at loud noises (e.g. party-poppers, doors slamming, yelling, etc.) and realizing years down the line that: that's not normal

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trauma is purposefully triggering yourself constantly to avoid the sad truth that you really are suffering and in pain

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trauma is realizing that it wasnt just a funny thing that people do sometimes, it was SA.

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Trauma is not being able to be close to anyone because you know they'll hurt you too

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Trauma is finally being free from your family, but still feeling like you have to do whatever they say because you're so used to them having so much power over you that the idea of ignoring or disobeying them terrified you

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Trauma is wanting to cry because you can't sleep because you got stuck imagining scenarios that could happen when you have to visit family for the holidays :(

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Tw for sexual stuff and death threating

Trauma is, why.. why did you do this? Why did we do this. I- I get it. We let you touch our thigh. But we also told you to stop, but you didnt. We didnt give consent to have our hair caressed. We didnt give consent to remembering the last time you touched us. They didnt give consent to see that creepy image of you.

And god.. what you did? Why.. why does nobody care? Why does nobody care that in a public group chat you made someone else show us all messages of you saying you'd commit if we didnt back down. Why were we screamed at that we're a murderer. Why is everybody accepting him for doing all of that, but not us for calling him out. Why does he still get to date? WHY DOES NOBODY CARE!

Trauma is, why did this happen, why did nobody care but us, and are we in the wrong?

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Trauma is thinking that the isolated SA incident you experienced at 11 from your father didn't affect you that much, only to be proven over and over as to HOW MUCH IT REALLY AFFECTED YOU.

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Trauma is doing a random specific thing for a long time by habit, and not knowing why until you un-repress the very specific memories attached to that one habit (and you realize once again how your trauma impacts every single thing you do)

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trauma is praying every day to die in your sleep; then waking up, and crying.

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trauma is being taught to always tell the truth and then being beaten for doing so and accused of lying, then giving up on honesty and learning to be a good liar because it's the only way to be safe

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trauma is the fear of going back to that house

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