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My part of an art trade with deadinmiami on discord. Her pond has such a fun concept and design. x3

If anyone wants to do an art trade with me feel free to dm! I forgot how much I love drawing for other people. T0T

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Foal prompt for pond ponies. Finally going to use one of my foal slots! Idk why I get so many every year and only use a few. Seriously, I have like 20 left. I understand being cautious with the one for the ponds with a crap ton of forbidden traits, but why am I being so picky with the average joe ones? :/

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Birthday present for @honeybeepop

Finally making the effort to switch to clip studio paint. So far the fact it isn't a glitchy mess like photoshop but has a lot of the same tools is really nice. (seriously why does every new version of photoshop have more glitches than the last one?)

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Places To Find Me

Most sites I'm active on have one of these icons! I do make variations on each of them for holidays, but the character is always the same.

Tumblr blogs:

trilled-llama Main blog, will often reblog from my side blogs as well as anything else I find interesting. trilledllama My original art. Currently working on a series of animatics called whispering pines. Waiting to post them until I make enough to post on schedule. For now though, it's just concept art trilledrambles Place to scream into the void about things that only matter to me at that moment in time. trilledllamatri The name is a joke. Not just for trigun (though it will likely mostly be trigun) but for other fandoms too. So, trigun and pond ponies. whisperingaspenslog A place to post my progress while working on my animatic series. Plenty of spoilers ahead if you decide to go beyond the pinned post!

Youtube Will post animatics here again eventually

Toyhouse It's all pond ponies. I need to get some of my other characters on there at some point.

Deviantart Not actually active on there, just check it once in a while. Might be fun to look around my old gallery if you're curious what my art used to look like.

Cara Just joined but already really enjoying the site!

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Sloppily animated a few pages of trimax to try to make sense of it. (all frames are traced from the manga panels themselves and then resized.) And because I really wanted to see the scene in action.

The main problem with reading this scene was I couldn't figure out if Vash was supposed to be flipping backwards or forwards.

and that was because of this panel:

The rest of panels read right to left, so I assumed the same was meant for this one. Which understandably left me confused.

Until my sister looked at it. (while not an expert, she does know a bit of japanese) She said something like the kanji in this scene is meant to be read left to right.

Ah. that makes everything make sense.

Not sure why it's the only panel you're meant to read left to right, but like most things in trimax the answers probably "because it looks cool"

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I just find it funny that both my current fandoms are like this xD

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Wooden Standee Interest Check

I've made a few prototypes of wooden standees over the past year, and while I am still figuring out the best way to make them (color issues and sizing issues), my family seems to think I could sell them at cons in the future. I have no idea if anyone would be interested in one, though.

Here are some concepts I was thinking would be fun to turn into a standee (and most likely will regardless of interest):

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Definitions copied from this article: Way More Than Fight or Flight: The Six Trauma Responses and What They Mean | WTG (williamsburgtherapygroup.com)

The "Fight" Response The easiest trauma response to understand is the "fight" response. A threat or traumatic event becomes immediate, and almost out of instinct, a fight ensues. We should note here that "fight" doesn't necessarily mean throwing haymakers in a parking lot (though it can). A fight can be an argument or even a simple conversation. The only true marker of a fight is a series of attacks and defenses. For example, say someone launches a verbal assault on the way you dress. A fight response would be to turn the assault back on them, insulting their clothes to make yours seem better. That's a verbal fight. By contrast, of course, there are also certainly times when a physical fight is a necessary trauma response - for example, during a sexual assault or robbery. Both of these kinds of fights stem from the same "fight" response in your brain. The "fight" response comes from a squirt of hormones that essentially diverts all your cognitive and physiological processes to preparing for a physical fight. It comes from the primordial days, when that hormonal response could mean the difference between returning to your family and becoming a tiger's hors d'oeuvre. This same brain activity is also responsible for the "flight" response. The "Flight" Response The "flight" response is also the result of your brain sending all systems to go - just in the opposite direction. An obvious example is running away from a physical threat like an assailant on the street, but there is also emotional flight. Emotional flight can manifest as many different behaviors, including the silent treatment, failing to acknowledge the problem, or refusing to talk about what's bothering you. The "Freeze" Response The "freeze" response happens when your brain is so overwhelmed by stimulus that you experience a kind of paralysis. This may happen if the trauma you have just experienced was so sudden and so severe that the next course of action is not immediately obvious. In 2007, for example, an assailant entered a Dutch police station and began stabbing officers. One officer in question exhibited a freeze response, during which she continued to be harmed by the perpetrator. After a moment, however, she took action and neutralized the threat. Such a sudden and violent attack essentially short-circuited the officer's brain, leaving her briefly frozen. Scientists believe that the amygdala is responsible for the "freeze" response. In contrast to fighting and fleeing, freezing usually comes with bradycardia, or a decreased heart rate. The "Fawn" Response The "fawn" response is a psychological reaction to trauma wherein the victim attempts to appease the traumatic stimuli in order to get it to stop. An example of this is a woman offering to clean the house to appease her abusive partner. While this response can create a temporary and relatively (emphasis on relatively) safe environment, it can also feed into abusive and traumatic behavior and make the problem worse in the long run. The "Fine" Response The "fine" response refers to self-denial of trauma. It occurs when someone does not want to believe that they are traumatized, and that they can handle whatever threat or action has just befallen them. People exhibiting the "fine" response may cause more harm to themselves than they realize, as experiencing grief is an important part of the healing journey. The "Faint" Response The "faint" response is exactly what it sounds like - you faint as a response to a traumatic sight or event. Fainting after trauma is called vasovagal syncope. Essentially, the part of your brain responsible for regulating your heart rate gives up, and your heart rate plummets. That's why some people faint at the sight of blood.

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Seeing trigun 98 gifs makes me wish I could watch the show in it's entirety. But watching it (almost) all the way through the first time was difficult enough. The animation is so fun and lively despite being kinda cheap in places, the characters are fun, and the overall writing is good.

But that one backing track that seems to play every 5 minutes makes me so nauseous and give me a terrible migraine... oof I'm sorry but... no.

if I have to listen to baddah DUN rattle one MORE time then I'm either going to be in the hospital or I'm putting someone in the hospital

If anyone knows a version without this song can you point me in the direction of where to watch it? ToT Watching the show without physical pain would be amazing. I'd prefer just the mind breaking emotional variety instead please.

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I don’t think anyone would be able to guess what the inspiration was for this.

Warning for below the cut: mental health issues, mostly paranoia

My paranoia has been kinda bad lately. I joined a fandom event and even though I have no logical reason for it, I keep thinking I’m going to get harassed for doing something slightly out of the ordinary. It’s nothing like grade school, I’m not going to get tormented for having emotions or wearing something slightly out of my norm. Doesn’t help my brain from telling me that it’s going to happen again >:(

To try to take my mind off it I listened to the mlp g4 soundtrack and seeds of the past came on. Aaand one thing led to another and I ended up watching all the hearths warming episodes.

So uhhh Trigun Christmas carol. Not sure if I’m going to draw the other two spirits, even though I really want to.

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Someone has probably made a post about this before but I need to talk about it or I'm going to explode.

You know how in trimax, the action scenes are so insane it's hard to tell what's happening? Among the sea of details you can always tell where wolfwood is, because he's the simplest boldest silhouette in the scene. You can always rely on him being there as a reader (if he's in the scene of course) to que you in on what's happening.

Spoilers for vol. 10 under the cut

Then as he's dying, his suit suddenly gets shading and details. Then (I believe at least, my memory is not the best) whenever he shows up again, either as a ghost or in a memory, he has shading.

There's some sort of symbolism or something going on here I feel. I can't be certain what though.

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I have done nothing but design ponds today. Why, did do that?! I had more important things I needed to do today. >:0

Left is my oc Payton (og design here) right is knives from trigun (based on all versions except 98, because I honestly hate 98 knives's design)

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It's just a WIP for now. Not going to tag anything as the characters aren't really acting like themselves and if it wasn't on this blog, I don't think many would recognize them. I just can't do subtle character expressions; I just have a NEED to make them as silly as I can. :/

Based on:

Will I ever finish this? Who knows!

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Next part in this series for it was FAF and I realized it was super closed to being finished already. This one is for Vesiaura. No idea if she has a tumblr.

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I thought "not safe for work" meant if your boss walked in, how awkward it would be/ how likely you're going to be fired.

In other words, if everyone can still tell what's happening despite "censoring" it, then guess what.

It. Needs. The. Tag.

If I have you blocked on my main, just know you're art is lovely, but I'm tired.

I really like trigun and the fandom in general, but I feel like this needs to be said.

Dear Trigun Fandom, Please remember to tag your nsfw work as such. Brony's tag their work better than some of you. -A Sex Repulsed Ace

If you already do this, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. You deserve the fanciest dessert you can imagine.

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Trigun ponds wooooo...... I'm so tired....

Melting Slush is a descendant of this worlds Meryl (Melting Sleet). Vanth brought her back accidentally when she fell in a frozen lake. Vanth who only now knows he can turn deceased fawns into fawnponds, returns to Wraithwood's grave after a century. Wraithwood gets resurrected and is kinda pissed about it, once he finds out this world's knives is now permanently trapped at the bottom of his pond, Wraithwood seems to mellow out.

Can't believe I wrote a short script about this. xD I could paste it here but it's cringy and bad and full of mistakes.