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(tw self harm, suicide, CSA mention)

Taking an indefinite long hiatus from the internet. Been dealing for months now with paranoid psychotic symptoms and heavy panic attacks (local healthcare is ass because they're still running tests on whether it's actual schitzophrenia or just side effects of my med withdrawal etc. I'm still waiting for results) and I'm undergoing psychotherapy. Along with that I'm dealing with traumatic memories that resurfaced around February. I'm a CSA victim, and my experiences messed up my emotional and mental state for a long time till adulthood. Something that I have only recently realized and started to process in therapy, due to my brains traumablocking memories and my internalized victimblaming where I have just blamed myself

Also I've dealt with self harm, self hatred and s^icidal thoughts, along with an...actual attempt that almost happened a month ago (I am being actively treated though, and I have lots of supportive people around me IRL!! They have been making sure I don't do anything reckless, and I'm determined to heal as well!!)

Sorry to everyone who wondered where i disappeared abruptly back in February. I had to take distance from everything online because my mental symptoms filled my head with irrational stuff, and social media cranked up my anxiety and paranoid psychosis to unbearable levels. And I'm still on that break: in fact I probably wont return to online spaces for a long, long time. but im taking it slow, one day at time.

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Why the hell is Melisha always Going Through It(TM) in my Frylisha content

Insert here "Fine" by Lemon Demon

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not me being way too invested in this guy's Gender(TM)

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trying to stay relatively sane during the application period, so have misc stupid Frylisha doodles

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that one fruity sculpture by Alessandro Puttinati, except make it Frylisha

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GNC activities during after-work hours or something :'') Having a degree in drama and theatre I'm sure Fry knows a lot about putting on stage makeup

Anyways this was a lightning study

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Oxford/Cambridge era Fry?????

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thinking about him in normal amounts

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was gonna draw this meme with Mrs Tweedy but I gave up halfway through because I could NOT choose which malewife to pick for the "most gorgeous brown eyes" thing [okay tbh Fry's aren't brown, he has hazel eyes like a wattpad love interest]

I guess having earth hue eyes in the CR universe means you'll be a simp

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femme and butch flags color picked from Mrs. Tweedy and and Dr. Fry

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hgggnghfjhdhjfhjfdj my recent doodles of Willard Tweedy angst, parts of his imaginary redemption arc, ANNNDD also middle aged Britishman yaoi. Wallace is his manic pixie dream girl :^)

Anyways I imagine it was not easy for Willard to recover :( His farm got destroyed, longtime family business gone in shambles, and according to the newspapers shown in the beginning of Dawn of the Nugget, the policemen could hardly even believe him. He is left as a broken lonely man with a broken farm (his reputation around town is probs in shambles too), meanwhile his abusive ex-wife thrives after leaving off to become a prosperous rich businesswoman.

Melisha always gaslighted him with that "It's all in your head" stuff and called him continuously an idiot, so Willard throughout the years has internalized it, not thinking much of himself. Being able to finally reflect on his life choices, it also hits him like a truck how much he made the chickens suffer. Even now when he is able to live a peaceful life as an apple-farmer, the years under Melisha's iron fist weigh over him and he's haunted by the ghosts of the past.

He will eventually get better though one day at time, in my hcs <333

Wallace: "tell you what Gromit lad, I could fix him"

Gromit: I know what you are Wallace

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it was definitely not on my 2023 bucket list that I would get hyperfixated on the claymation duo that I was obsessed with back in kindergarten. (I had the Wallace & Gromit Fun Pack on PC and remember raging to hell and back at the train track minigame LMAO) Oh well, one way to end the year!

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i miss my wife, Tails, I miss her a lot

Doodled this several days ago, but didn't post until now cuz my ass was unhappy with how the lightning turned out. Also I really hate to see Wallace sad in any way, so I don't know what kind of a demon possessed me to draw this LOLLLLLLLL, but let's just say I wanted to do a parallel to that scene at the end of Matter of Loaf and Death, where Gromit misses Fluffles. There's no further context

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trying to keep a straight face and not burst into uncontrollable laughter while drawing this, because I'm drawing yaoi angst that includes mcfreaking Wallace from Wallace and Gromit (1989)

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Babygirl. meow meow. blorbo scrimblo. Aka ignore me, just doodling between classes again cuz otherwise I'll explode from hyperfixation

Adulthood is realizing both Willard AND Wallace are men that I would date in a heartbeat

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Watched Curse of the Were Rabbit today. My gay ass brains immediately got the idea for my Wallace x Mr. Tweedy AU, of basically "Wallace's and Gromit's entire hometown adopts Willard, Mr. Bonzo and Fido as one of their many Resident Weirdos(TM)"

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🫠🫠🫠🫠old man yaoi angst that nobody asked for

anyways i hc that Wallace doesn't need to use any fancy words to cheer his boyfriend up when he's having one of his low moments. Sweet actions like physical comfort, or distracting Willard with nice things etc. already do wonders to the extremely affection-starved farmer <3 (and using words has never been Wallace's strength anyway LOLLLLL he was literally just going "well...uh..." when Wendolene told him to leave her) Still, he feels kinda helpless and dumb sometimes, because he really REALLY wants to help Willard feel better and come to peace with his past demons, but doesn't know how