Last night I brought my boyfriend to a poetry slam and performed a text about the second time we met last summer and how I already had a huge crush on him back then and apart from the fact that it made him cry because at that time he was trying to make peace with the fact that he'd probably die alone, he, apparently, leaned over to my friend during the performance and whispered "y'know the amount of times smoking is mentioned makes it sound like I have a problem" and she whispered back "duh"
some of you need to understand that "go outside" as an admonition is also an encouragement to better yourselves. because genuinely some of you talk to people on this website in a way where if you said this to someone irl everybody would just kind of stare at you uncomfortably and with disdain. and rightfully so! i understand having social disability i am myself autistic but there is something to be said about like. knowing what is an appropriate way to talk to a stranger who is a real person.
have you considered that you do not have friends because you choose to be cloying and difficult to be around.
Hi everyone. My father will be discharged next week and will return home. He always said he wanted to go home. It's still serious but I want to fulfill your wish. He will have to remain bedridden (a friend of mine lent me the special bed for bedridden patients) and will always remain terminally ill. But no one knows for sure how long he has left to live. I will be helped by a caregiver to wash him and a nurse for the IVs and everything else. I'm going to have to spend a LOT of time at home while he's here. So I think I'll spend my time finally writing everything I think about the story of the two boys. And what I think about Jerry, because I'M TIRED of reading the same old racist nonsense about that man.
imagine following tumblr user wespers and watching them go through some pretty intense phases over the years posting about like the raven cycle and teen wolf and 911 and you're just like yeah classic tumblr user wespers then you log in one day in the year 2024 and bam. she's posting about aaron fucking tveit.
Just had a dream that a novel exists which is written from the POV of an old man dying in the 1920s in the form of diary entries and bit by bit it's revealed it's actually a closeted trans woman who was out during her youth and forced to recloset and now I desperately want to read it
An aspect of political consciousness and the deprogramming of the self from the protocols of cisheteropatriarchy is the acceptance that, as a woman, it's actually fine and ok and not shameful for you to be attracted to women. There is a pervasive self-policing and, in turn, policing of others implicit in the cultural tools of expression granted in liberal spaces wherein bi women and lesbians will say things like "omg gay panic/lesbian panic/bi panic" (which Does Not Mean What You Think It Means) and "she is NOT beating the Allegations" (a specific framing, whether comedic or not, of lesbian attraction as criminal or aberrant).
If you are unable to accept that it is ok for you as a woman to like women, love women, love women's bodies, love sex with women, and love romantic intimacy with women, how can you expect to treat a potential partner with respect? How can you expect to have a healthy and respectful and communicative relationship with sexual intimacy, with emotional intimacy, with your understanding of yourself at all? You must let go of the shame, for your own sake, yes, but more importantly, for the sake of the other women in your life.
Likewise, there is an old joke among bisexual women wherein: "I love girls hahahaha but I could never date one, I'm too intimidated o///o"
The reality here is that the word "intimidated" is selected because it has nominally more acceptable valences to it ("I'm a smol bean squeeee") rather than the valences of the actual sentiment ("I have a shame complex about my attraction to women and I don't know how to deal with it.") You cannot be ashamed of your love for women and still treat women like human beings. You must grow out of this.
Pointedly, this is more pervasive in bisexual circles specifically for the reason that bi women have less of a vested interest in needing to interrogate this ideological position, because specifically it is so much easier to date men since it is societally sanctioned and universally considered acceptable. It is the easy way out, and therefore many bi women find themselves in relationships with men (which, whatever, that's fine in itself, date a man if you want it's kind of besides the point) specifically because they are incapable of pursuing gay intimacy with women due to their unaddressed "internalized homophobia."
Your shame will not save you. It will not protect you. All it will do is poison your relationships with others. And, in the process of your halting and hesitant path towards self-acceptance, how many women will you choose to harm along the way?