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Any one else have those days where its going great then reality comes to kick you for your excitement

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Sad story time

Its been a few years since i was in a relationship due to someone ruining them forever for me. When i was 19 i thought i was in love... I was young ,dumb and naive. When i was 20 he asked me to marry him and i said yes. But after our relationship started to change and not for the better. He began joking about wanting to start a family... At least i thought he was joking. I knew i wasnt ready i still had so much i wanted to do before kids so i just wrote it off. But then he began not wearing condoms when we had sex saying we were going to get married anyways so they didn't matter and i believed him. Then he talked me into taking hormones that would make me more fertile ( after so many arguments). But then after none of that worked and it was time for my gyno check up he some how manipulated me into letting him go with. And began asking the doctor if they could run some fertility tests on me( which i agreed to, like a idiot). Thats when i was diagnosed with endometriosis and was told it would be difficult to get pregnant let alone carry to full term(btw this was privately a few weeks later without him and i hadnt told him)... Im not gonna lie i was upset and disappointed. Around that time he began to not be around as much due to hanging out with his "friend" more and more. I started to get suspicious due to the fact that he was coming home later and later and even sometimes spending the night over at her house. But he assured me it was nothing that he was just there to be the Godfather to her children. but I've never heard of a godparent being so active even more active than the dad. it turned out that they were having an affair and he was to coward to tell me. after I found out I called it off I had him move out and I was left alone to deal with everything that he put me through. a few months went by and he called me asking for a place to stay due to the fact that him and his girlfriend broke up and he had nowhere to go. I had said yes and let him sleep in my side room. but while I was sleeping he came into my room and tried to take advantage of me while i slept. But i woke up and hit him in the throat and ask him what the hell was he doing his response was he was trying to put a baby in me so i would take him back. I kicked him out but the fear stayed. And still lingers to this day . never in my life have I ever felt so weak and alone and vulnerable. since then I've never let another man sleep in my bed. it's been two years and sometimes I still wake up in a panic I also have insomnia now.

The key part of the story is never let a person try to control you and manipulate you or else you will end up in a bad situation that you can't get out of.

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so i usually dont post about this stuff on here but i thought i should share this... But i am in a constant battle with anxiety and depression. It feels like there is a constant voice telling me im not good enough or that i will never be enough. It says that im a failure or a burden on everyone around me. But today when that was happening i got a random call from the church i just started going to asking me if i needed anything from a prayer to a shoulder to cry on and ive got to say it felt so good to feel like someone cared and i wasnt a burden...

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Set designer of legend: shit my 4 yr old accidentally spilled sparkles every where!!! Don't worry we'll clean it up

Director: ... Wait ... Let's leave it ... Let's see where this goes guys

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My newest piercing

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Dating

I hate having to dodge these feelings but dating sucks now a days

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Lol

This dude just said" you thick af pretty mamma" an I was like " yeah so I guess that means you can call me milkshake"

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Mom: why do you never hang out with your friends or get in a relationship?

Me:* mumbles* because you raised me to be a emotionally selfish person with no self control and a princess complex....

Mom: what was that?

Me: everyone is busy and I don't want to make new friends...

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Truth

So I normally am clumsy and so I'm can avoid it mostly .... Except right before my period. I literary cut a chunk out of my thumb by accident .... So at this point fuck you life

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Truth

When you speak the truth no one pays attention because that's not the mold When you follow the mold you are looked down upon for not being unique

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MY LIFE GOALS!!!!!

Everyone: "what's your goals in life?"

Me: " to have multiple 800thread count sheets and a mountain of pillows for my big ass bed that I don't have to share..."

Everyone: " what about your husband or kids?"

Me:" what husband? And those kids will have their own beds with nice sheets so they betta' not touch mine!!!!!!!!!!!"

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You guys realize that the writers oh supernatural realized that the fandom was shipping Sam and dean so they made a episode where" they" were dating.... LIKE THEY ACTUALLY REALIZE WHAT THEIR FANDOMS WANT!!!!!!!!!!

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This is a great song !!!!!! 🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽 you guys who don't realize that things will change , and they'll change fast

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Mirrors

People say that when you die you are suppose to cover the mirror of the room you died in .What if every time you dreamt that you are falling it's the mirror try to take your soul? But the reflection you see is your hero who saves you all the time .And people who die in their sleep do it because their hero lost

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I have a fucking ear infection .... Kill me !!!!! I can't even listen to any music

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Sickness : how do you feel about a fever, Diarrhea , constant migraine, and nausea ?

Me: actually I think I'll pass thank you

Sickness: oh okay then I'll leave you alone then..... SIKE BITCH!!!! PREPARE YOURSELF FOR

HELL!!!!!!!!!!!

Me : fuck y..*throws up*

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Me:* really sick with 104 temp and went to hospital last night*

Mom: " i see you are just going to drop out of school"