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Love does'nt suck...YOU DO!!

Boy1: Love Sucks Boy2: Love does'nt suck, YOU DO! Made me realize how true of a statement it was, or focusing on the question, "What are you waiting for?" Don't just wake up sad or on the "wrong side of the bed". Life will happen when your negative lazy ass gets up and stand for what you believe in. If I want soething, I have to go get it. Don't wait for love to just sway in your life in a form of Leonardo Dicaprio, you must find it! Searching for what it is about that 'happiness' that brings you to a calm, collected, spiritual soul. Love didn't do anything, love didn't make you fall for someone who didn't care about you, you did. Tough love much? So dry those tears, get it all out and shout ..."I'M READY!" So what am I ready for? ....hmm good one. I feel that its actually ok to not know 'what' the ready is. I think its more of just being in a state of 'ready-ness' to whatever this journey will include you in. I have a lot of time to find all of what love has, and I'm wasting no time on enjoying the lessons. "What is me is what Ill be, and what is you is up to you"

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"I know I kept you waiting...but im here now."

"Its been a while." The beginging of a Britney Spears song I play in my head. I've been exploring, living the life of a hopeless romantic eating disorder dreamer. I'm moving to California and I have no plans of backing out. I'm the girl who can't be still, can't be broken. This week I ate more than my insecurites could take. Even though I kept the food down, my sadness comes up. All my clothes are baggy, and I hear "your skinny" so much, but there's just to much of that lost fat kid to truely love it. My bodies changing, I'm getting older and more to my goal in life. So why leave a place I've always loved? Because the love will never leave..:) Rather its cold, warm, rainy or toes covered in sand, I'm ready to start again. I love my family and friends and grateful they choose to support me. I can't let them down...and defiantly not myself. Packing up short shorts, cut up band shirts and knee high boots, dear God why must this sound so sweet? Maybe ill put on a bathing suit and walk down the board walk...maybe a boy will ask me for my hand. " I wanna be more of my mores, even higher than Peter Pan!" Long blonde hair, surfer boy realness, my body will actually feel what my ears have heard. Ill miss many but take them in my heart, remember to pray before bed and live hard. This is for the badass girls in heels, bikini's, and a fur coat (not real fur PETA). Your just living, and what's living if you can't have a little fun!? -truthorstareXO

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I wanna be her friend.

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Me and and Lindsay Lohan at the amfAR gala.

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Rebel

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WANT !!!!

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Out of all I do...I forgot to tell my damn self... "I love you" ... (oh well)

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