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last sweet treat before i give up again

you WILL be hearing from me tomorrow

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its been a while

i found my friends account on edtwitter accidentally i need to die im all the way up at bmi 18.6 i cant control myself i need ana back or i have nothing

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hi chat

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i forgot to take a photo

i was really sore with my cycle today so i only took a short walk

wearing my watch was making me feel nauseous fir some reason and i had to take it off but i did around 2.3k steps according to the health app (i dont trust that though…)

really bad macros but i think if i eat yogurt right now the consistency would make me sick

also not exactly measurements again because no scale.. aahhhgggh i need a new one!!!

no binges since take out night and ive been staying at around 800-1000 cals (which im not really happy about but we ball) and drinking a lot of water even if i cant walk a lot because of my stupid ribs hurting me all the time i think im doing ok!

i weighed in at 47.0 at the doctors today and it made me realise just how hard i need to lock in.

i also at my appointment talked to my counsellor about stuff that happened to me when i was little and cried a little but again, we ball.

sorry for the yap sesh anyway bye

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my parents ordered food so i just binged on half a stuffed crust pizza holy crap its so hard to start again after so long.. i mustve ate at least 1600 kcal now. i cant even purge because im scared of throwing up now (life update) its okay tomorrow ill be out anyway doing stuff. mainly walking but i just hope tomorrow is better i wont let this define me and it wont become a habit. i promise myself

01/02/25

iim back!!

with a pasta omad of course

wow protein water is saving my macros

only 6,800 steps today i havent been feeling well :<

dont know my cals i need to find my watch

measures arent accurate because my mum threw away my scale but f it we ball

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01/02/25

iim back!!

with a pasta omad of course

wow protein water is saving my macros

only 6,800 steps today i havent been feeling well :<

dont know my cals i need to find my watch

measures arent accurate because my mum threw away my scale but f it we ball

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hi

ive been away for a while

#recovery

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this time last year i was 38kg

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i will be locking in tomorrow

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omad

i need something solid its been 2 days

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„i have food poisoning and cant eat anything…“

„i have food poisoning and cant eat anything!!!“

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I don't care if you're anorexic, using the word "fatty" makes you look like a mean toddler

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felt like shit today so i didnt count but heres my omad

first period in 3 months owwie

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hello

gang why am i junkorexic

i didnt move at all today because my period pain has been so bad even though im only spotting

and only drank like 1L of water

did 1,564 steps and i didnt wear my watch so i have no clue how many cals i burned but i think >300 is safe for my deficit i just need to wait until my painkillers start working, go a walk, probably get a coke zero from the shop and take a 12 hour nap !!!

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when theres a chill in the air and suddenly i can feel every lump and roll of fat on my body and my skin stretching open and my thighs pressing together and my arms against my sides and i just want to cut it off with a razor

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i weighed in at 45.1kg at the doctors two days ago i dint think i can do this anymore i already tried recovery and i just feel so awful and ugly and like ill never be happy

i just want my old body back

i even have stretch marks on my thighs from it im just so done

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my mum caught on im back on 1500 a day i cant do this anymore i dont want to gain i hate being this way