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[tsanshine]

Hai, hidupmu pasti baik-baik saja kan? Melepasku dengan begitu mudahnya. Aku masih berusaha menjalani hidup tanpa ada kamu di dalamnya, tanpa ada kamu dalam setiap lamunanku, tanpa ada kamu lagi dalam skenario bayangan masa depan hidupku. Aku terlalu takut bertemu orang baru. Bagaimana jika nantinya selalu terbesit "andai aku melakukan semua ini bersamamu, akankah aku lebih bahagia?".

[tsanshine]

Fatal trouble, your memory is getting blurry falling apart. Fatal trouble, same memory different story.

[tsanshine]

Navillera

Kupu-kupu ku, terbanglah sejauh apapun kau mau. Hinggaplah dimanapun kau hendaki. Tibalah dimanapun kau inginkan seolah hadirmu adalah tamu yang dinanti sembari terbangkan serbuk kebahagiaan bagi siapapun yang kau datangi. Kupu-kupu ku, ketahuilah keindahanmu membuatku ingin selalu menyimpanmu dalam sangkarku dan inginku pamerkan pada dunia bahwa aku memilikimu. Namun aku tak ingin rasa sayangku hanya akan berbalik melukaimu, membuatmu sesak hingga tak mampu terbang leluasa sebagaimana dirimu seharusnya. Ku bebaskan dirimu, melepasmu, sangkarku telah usang, terbanglah sejauh yang kau inginkan. Temuilah nektar yang kau butuhkan dan memang ditakdirkan untukmu itu.

[tsanshine]

"aku bukannya pergi, hanya saja sedari awal kamu memang tak pernah berniat membuka pintu untuk ku. yang dapat ku lakukan adalah membantumu menutup pintu lebih rapat bukan? aku mengerti, bersenang-senanglah dengan duniamu yang tanpa aku di dalamnya itu".

[tsanshine]

Can't wait for d day I move out build a new chapter of my life in a new town. Left out all of my past, people, old dreams, the unfinished story, the unsaid feelings, and all of those memories. Wouldn't take a look back, maybe just a glance just to make sure I was choosing the right things to save my heart first.

[tsanshine]

𝐻𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦

𝐻𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦

𝐻𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑢𝑟𝑎 𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦

𝐻𝑒𝑟 𝑉𝐼𝐵𝐸 𝑖𝑠 𝑃𝑅𝐸𝑇𝑇𝑌 .. 𝑖’𝑚 𝐻𝑒𝑟

[tsanshine]

Everything still reminds the same. A railway that i took, the road that i passed, my stop station, the buildings i saw before, the weather, the air. It's just you and me who've been changed .

In the end, i was just someone who passed by in your life as i never existed. I'm not your past, not even your present person nor your future. It's either me or you as a nightmare dressed like a daydream. This fairytale has ended, close the book, just sleep tightly like a silent lullaby.

Let the dreams fly away absorbed by the dark of night without a single star who previously looked at you as much as a polaris, wishes you like a shooting star .

[tsanshine]

Tell me everything, it's alright if it takes all night so your cold day can melt through me. I'm worried that you're trying to stand up in this harsh world alone .

You don't have to endure it all by yourself, close your eyes i'll cover you so you won't be cold. Tell me, I'm always here for you, slowly every day. I tune my ears to you, after this cold season passed i know it'll bloom again, here i am .. i'm all ears for you .